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UNABLE TO MOVE ON


I gave birth on October 19th. My mom was already at my place to start omugwo. I had post partum depression as a result of the Labour room drama and tear that I was given during the birthing process.

 I couldn't eat and breast milk wasn't coming. Anyways, my mom stayed for 3 weeks and she left on Friday 11th November Hale and hearty but she slumped on Monday being 14th November in her house. 

She was rushed to the hospital. Her BP was very high. Blood sugar was over 500 (we never knew she had sugar) She was in a Diabetic Coma all of a sudden. We prayed. We changed her hospital immediately. 

They did CT scan and there was no brain damage. 

We continued hoping and praying. By 7pm that Monday evening, we got news that the sugar level had dropped to 132. Everyone was excited because at that time she was moving her body though unconscious. 

Our prayers then was that at least before Tuesday morning she would wake up.

 My mom never woke up. 

At 12midnight I had a dream, I and baby usually sleep in the sitting room most nights. My mom came and sat beside me on the cushion, looked at me with a sad face and left.

 I woke immediately and looked at the time. I started praying positively that i wish it means she has woken up physically. I wrote on my family group chat "Any update" but no one responded.

 I felt its too deep into the night, and decided to leave it till early morning. After about 30 mins, my hubby joined me in the sitting room and I asked him why he is awake. He said nothing.

 I hardly sleep since I gave birth so I was awake most of the night. My husband was awake too and I became worried. When i ask him, he will say nothing. Long story short, I was the last person to know because everyone was scared cos I just had a baby and my mom was just in my house about 4 days prior to her demise.

 Now I can't even breastfeed again cos I can't eat again. 

My baby is on formula cos my world has been shattered. its over one week my mom left me in this world and her 59th birthday was some days back. I don't know how to move on. There is so much I want to tell her. I need help..



This brought memories of my mum and the shock i got when i heard she had passed on at 59 years.. Its been 22 years and i thought it was too hard to move on... Now i remember her and smile... You will be fine, just make sure your mental health is in check and eat so that you dont break down.

If your condition is really bad, let anyone you trust help you out with the baby so that you can rest and sleep a lot, it will also help you.

Make sure that you communicate how you feel to your hubby s that he does not bombard you with demands for nacking, cos that is the last thing you need with this mood that you are in....

Dont worry you will be fine.