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Stella pls post as a chronicle for me.


I'm so thankful for this platform and I want to air my mind a little.
I met this guy, Leo (not real name) early last year.


I was in a relationship and I told him so. He wanted more than friendship. We became friends and I really liked him. He was my happy place. I felt GENUINELY happy talking with him. In fact sitting next to him and doing absolutely nothing felt good. He was so easy to talk to and he gave the best feet massage lol.

 I ghosted him because I felt he was too much distraction for my relationship.


My boyfriend and I weren't having it good and we broke up later in the year. Yeah 2-0


Leo and I got talking again late last year and he told me how disappointed he felt when I ghosted him and I apologized and we got together again. Things were different this time, he said it was his job making him busier.

 My instincts kept telling me he was unreal until I confirmed he had someone else.

 I didn't expect him to wait single, for me to return from my ghost mode but I also didn't expect that he'd have someone else and still want to lead me on.
By the time I knew, I was already pregnant and let me talk like most of you, it was by accident 

I cried, I died 700 times and woke up 701 times. He told me to keep it and as days went by he became so distant and unavailable.

Anyway, I let him be. I wasn't going to force him to be in the picture. I was hurt but mama had to stay strong for baby. Eventually I miscarried. I went thru all of these alone.

One day, about two months later, I reminisced on the hurt I felt and I called him. I let him know how bad he hurt me and how he was only a child in an man's body. He apologized. 

An apology I demand isn't really an apology to me.

Well, somehow last month we agreed to see. See, it's either love made me stupid or I'm just stupid sometimes. We became cool like nothing ever happened.

 Sometimes I still remembered how bad I felt when he ditched me and I couldn't understand why I was still talking to him. I wonder why there's forgiveness.

One day, he left me in the house and I found a wedding introduction list. Out of annoyance I angrily ordered a ride and took his refrigerator, television and cylinder away.

He called and told me how he returned to the house and didn't find any of those things and I said I took them. For three days he called and asked me to return those items but I refused. I told him I took them as payment for his wickedness.

 Oh! how I loved this man!

He was able to convince me that he wanted to see me and talk to me. He showed up at my gate and as soon as I entered his car, I figured I was under arrest. My supposed man drove me to the police station with his friend, and two police officers.

Long story cut short I returned his properties. Also, the list was not for him, it was his friend getting married.

The following day, I called him and told him I was sorry and he didn't need to go that far. He said a casual "sorry" and that was it.

Tell me why he calls me weeks after asking to see me?

I really loved him when the going was good and I pray for strength to move on from all these drama.

I don't want to go back to him. I doubt this man ever loved me.

BVs insult me, talk to me, advice me, I'm you people's child right now.

You jumped some explanations.... were you gbenshing him before you ghosted him? The problem is you not him... you tried to use him to get over someone and did not allow yourself enough time to see that he was not for you....

You should never have gone back after you lost the pregnancy...

Block his number and delete it and then move on...The relationship is already messed up...

If you are looking for someone to love you, please start with loving yourself and knowing when to walk away from things that hurt you!

WALK AWAY!!!