Na wah!!!
NYSC RANT
Good DAY Stella
I didn’t want to send this at first but Stella I’m losing it.
I pray NYSC won’t be the end of me.
I was deployed to one of the southern states in Nigeria (I don’t want to mention). When my call up letter was released, I was devastated and didn’t want to go.
Stella, when I got to the village I broke down in tears because I know I cannot stay there. I was able to get a medical report which I wanted to submit but I was told I’ll have to use 3 months before submitting it. I couldn’t get an apartment and had to spend 2500 from where I stayed (a friends place) to my PPA for almost 3 weeks. Since then I’ve been sad. I’ve paid 3 people for the relocation still it hasn’t worked and at this point I have no money to pay again.
I fear for my Physical health and my mental health. Nothing excites me anymore. I just go to the school and then back to one hut which I had to still rent. I’ve been thinking and thinking and I fear that I might slip into depression.
I just want to go home. I can’t apply for relocation via my dashboard because it’s not up to 3 months.
I feel if I even stay this week in this place, I’m going to loose it. My mum is at home worried about me because she knows how I can get when I’m sad.
I’m just tired!
Tired!!
Tired!!!
I lost a good job opportunity because of this NYSC only to come to a village without water or light.
I’m tired and suffering here
I feel this NYSC should be scrapped.
Thank you for the platform to talk to you about it.
Hmmmmm, hang on and dont give up......I said it since that the NYSC has lost taste since....
Good DAY Stella
I didn’t want to send this at first but Stella I’m losing it.
I pray NYSC won’t be the end of me.
I was deployed to one of the southern states in Nigeria (I don’t want to mention). When my call up letter was released, I was devastated and didn’t want to go.
I initially paid someone to help me with the direct posting to Lagos but it didn’t work hence the devastation. I was scared of going, not because of security issues but because I know what I can do when I’m far away from home and alone.
I was told to go for the 3 weeks and that I could redeploy after then which I did but it still didn’t work. My mistake was using the same plug I had initially paid who assured me the redeployment was going to work.
When the posting letter was given on the last say of camp, I cried my eyes out and had a serious headache for a whole week. I was posted to the most interior part of the village. I went to the school I was posted to that day and didn’t meet the principal so I was told to come back but I had to leave to go home that day as I was sick. I spent a month at home as the plug told me it’ll work so there’s no need going back. I was still sick a bit but at least was being managed by my parents. After waiting through out the month of April and the relocation wasn’t working, I had to go back to my deployed state.
Stella, when I got to the village I broke down in tears because I know I cannot stay there. I was able to get a medical report which I wanted to submit but I was told I’ll have to use 3 months before submitting it. I couldn’t get an apartment and had to spend 2500 from where I stayed (a friends place) to my PPA for almost 3 weeks. Since then I’ve been sad. I’ve paid 3 people for the relocation still it hasn’t worked and at this point I have no money to pay again.
I fear for my Physical health and my mental health. Nothing excites me anymore. I just go to the school and then back to one hut which I had to still rent. I’ve been thinking and thinking and I fear that I might slip into depression.
I either spend the day sleeping or thinking and I can’t even breathe properly anymore at this point. I am suffering in this place for real. To even go outside to get food is a struggle as you’ll have to take bike to the main town. One day I wanted to make a photocopy of 50 naira and I spent 600 naira on transport. I’m all alone in this place and I fear I’ll do something to hurt myself (I’ve tried it once in university). I’ve had so many suicidal thoughts such as using blade to cut myself, overdosing on paracetamol, holding my breath for a long while. I have chronic ulcer but yet I don’t eat because I want to intentionally hurt myself.
I just want to go home. I can’t apply for relocation via my dashboard because it’s not up to 3 months.
I feel if I even stay this week in this place, I’m going to loose it. My mum is at home worried about me because she knows how I can get when I’m sad.
I’m just tired!
Tired!!
Tired!!!
I lost a good job opportunity because of this NYSC only to come to a village without water or light.
I’m tired and suffering here
I feel this NYSC should be scrapped.
Thank you for the platform to talk to you about it.
Hmmmmm, hang on and dont give up......I said it since that the NYSC has lost taste since....
Poster, it is well. Try and make friends so you can have people to talk with. Being alone is not good for you with your state of mind. Please, stay safe.
ReplyDeleteUsing the same plug is always bad
DeleteEven though you were working on a redeployment you should have been working at getting the best place within that same state, incase it dint work (that's what I did)
You should also have asked or paid the principal to reject you instead of going home ( a friend of mine made this same mistake and had to repeat NYSC)
Pretend to be sick, then you do one week off and one week on...you can also find a ghost coper (someone who would do the job for you?
They should scrap this NYSC of a thing sef
Rule no.1, learn to remove your mind from what you can't change!
DeleteYou are stuck for at least three months right? Make the best of it!
Stop thinking about it! Tell yourself you are on an adventure. Open your heart and embrace the new environment. Like have you lived in a hut before? Make videos. Entertain your friends on Instagram. Visit stream. Snap your local pot you are cooking with. Girl, be creative!
Since crying won't change anything, LIVE!
Dress sexy and do village photo shoot. Learn their culture! Etc.
Trust me, after 3months you'll be feeling like doing the whole year there!
God is your strength. I truly understand how you feel. Just make lemonade with the damn lemons!
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God will help you redeploy
DeleteThis thing is not that serious. You can pay the principal to give you your monthly clearance letter and pay someone at the office to clear you or come once a month for clearance. No be today nyash dey back. The system is very permissive , find a way and stop sulking like a baby. Stop it!!!
DeletePut on your big girl pants now and find a way!!!
WTH
Thank you Anon 16:30.
DeleteBest response @ anon 16.30. Please poster follow this advice and in no time you will redeploy and be out. Besides u have children to teach, be their motivation and encouragement and let them learn a thing or two from you. Stay blessed
DeleteSee the one up there advocating bribery and lying, later we will claim govt is corrupt when the people themselves are no different. Smh
DeletePlease allow me to perch here for my response. So 200, I came all the way from london to register for NYSC, I only can to Nigeria for 3days and went straight back as I had job opps lined up for me straight from my second year in Uni. Call up letter came and I came back from Jand for max 3weeks. My intention was to go to camp and be off even though at the time foreign students were solely posted to lagos or Abuja. I opted for lagos. On the day of resumption, I was told that LGI’s camp was too full and they decided to move all foreign corpers to Ibadan for camp after which they’d be posted back to lagos. I got to camp and to say I felt like an outcast was an understatement. My parents were so worried as to how I’d cope they begged the driver to stay with me in camp. It was a real nightmare. The registration took forever, hostel was poor, food was even worse. But when I checked into my room a small drama ensued that involved me, I didn’t utter a word and made a decision there and then that I’d make this experience worth my while since I am here already. Fast forward to end of camp, I was miserable leaving, I cried like a baby because I had made so many beautiful friends in camp. This nightmare wasn’t over yet. The last day of camp I got posted to a bank in Lagos, sad is an understatement cos my flight was booked for 2days after camp. Immediately I got to lagos, I headed straight for my PPA and long story short they refused vehemently to reject me. There was no drama I didn’t try especially as that day was my birthday. The woman just said to me casually, it’s Gods plan. I went home hopeless and planned to stick the middle finger to them. Eventually, my parent said just try it and see how it goes. This bank i served at is now the anchor of my career today. I just allowed it happen and it came with so many blessings. 11yrs on, I haven’t even thought of going back to london short of for official assignments and holidays.
DeleteThe story is long but I said it to make a point. Sometimes our limitations as humans makes us unable to see the blessings that could emanate from some situations.
I dare you, give that PPA you absolute ALL. Leave nothing in you and see what blessings will come out of it. At the worst, you’d have given you all for nothing. At best you’d have given your all for something. Trust me, so much good can come from seemingly bad situations.
Stella, I don’t agree with you, NYSC hasn’t lost it’s flavor, we just now think we are bigger than it. So much good can come out of service as I can attest. I’d have picked gutter for my service year, with my resolve, I’d have been the greatest gutter packer in the world.
So sorry Poster did you undergo therapy or consulted a pyschologist.
ReplyDeleteI believe you have anxiety but you need to calm down. And think of your move. Why not use the time to know yourself better, about your environment. Nowhere in Nigeria is developed. Just count your blessings.
Lastly you should have submitted yor medical reports to NYSC instead of using a plug to do backyard runs. You could have approached them and made them understand your health.
Since you need to apply relocation in 3 months, be patient, identify your triggers and avoid them. Smile, know the natives, just be free. All the best.
Why don't u wanna say the name of the state? Anyway Stella there are still ways u can help this girl. Ask or collect numbers of any of your readers on here with good connedtions. Her story is similar to mine. Ended up posted to delta state suffered in camp only to be posted to one village in Delta. Omo I no gree go o. The story long n cant remember the details but had to bribe the principal to reject my posting then I was lucky to find good connections later. Sadly those people ain't working with nysc officials anymore. But this thing is not supposed to be a big issue to warrant suicide o. People work their deployment daily. It is a matter of who you know and whether the person know work
ReplyDeleteI feel your plight and this NYSC thing should be scrapped mbok..Who accedes with me?
ReplyDeleteHaba, is it that bad? I think you are the problem here. You’ve already told yourself you can’t be there. You have your preferred state and that’s not working out for you.
ReplyDeleteWhat if God has a different plan for you?
Losen up and find people to mingle with.
Is that place deserted?
Get a rechargeable lamp since there’s no light there.
Make friends with some of the people there, they can show you how to make living there simple for you.
Don’t mind her or him. Even if the deployment doesn’t work after 3 months, what then?
DeleteThe so called good job she had could have killed her. She’s just talking like a child , a 3 year old.
So annoying
You all still don't get this poster. She has a mental disorder period! It's not about nysc and where she was posted, she already has a mental issue. I think it's anxiety mixed with depression, please be kind, what she needs is a therapist.
DeleteI perceive you are just used to "your comfort zone." You are the type of Nigerian
ReplyDeletewho has never had any challenge in your life and now you are facing one.
We all passed through it; it is called NYSC.
I was posted to a similar place like yours. I tried my best to make it habitable and help the community as much as I could. It helps you to appreciate Nigeria. Who knows, tomorrow, you might be in a position of power to take decisions.
It was after OBJ came out of jail and became the president that the feeding allowance of prisoners were raised, the number of inmates per cell
decreased and other things to make life bearable for them. If OBJ did not go to jail, the daily feeding allowance of prisoners in Nigeria would still have been N1.50
Please desist from this habit of self hurt. Eternal doom is worse. Unlike NYSC posting, it has got no end. May this place be a place for you to get closer to your maker; the one who died for you.
Great comment!😘💪👍👍👍
Delete**** I like your counsel, another may think its a bit harsh but that's what the poster needs now. No sugar-coating because the poster may be at the point of hurting herself, and she must have been pleaded with severally, so no pleas will change her mind.
DeleteTo the poster, God put you there for a reason. Please dont be selfish, and open your eyes to the possibility of helping that community with your knowledge, time, and strength. I was once in your shoes but on hindsight I wouldnt have thrown a trantrum about going to Imo state for NYSC in 2002 like I did. Poster hang in there and use the 3 months judiciously. God be with you and may HIS face shine upon your decision. Next time use the right process and not a backyard solution to achieving your purpose.
Apt!
DeleteGreat comment @ 15.14
DeleteThis comment resonates with me so much because of my Mother. My mum can move mountains in Nigeria but I have stopped whining to her because her response is always the same. Do you believe in God? So why can’t you believe he placed you here for a reason? Figure out the reason, accomplish his mission and you’d be out of here in no time. It has never failed me.
Delete👍👍👍👍👍
DeleteEeyah, sorry about this. Take things easy, please.
ReplyDeleteI'll advise you find what can make you happy there, e.g mix with other corp members, play games with them if you can, it will help to keep your mind busy and distracted from all of these. This was what I did and before you know it, you're done with service.
I wonder why you dont want to mention the southern state or interior village.
ReplyDeleteOnly 2 options are either to endure or go home to your mum.
You have to hang on. Make friends from your LG. You started with negative mindset reason why you are feeling this way.
ReplyDeleteStop wasting your money.. You can actually manage this season and before you know it, you will redeploy.
Take care of yourself, there is still life after NYSC.
My darling I know you are in benue state and it's not easy for you. Please call me to run errands for you. I can also be a good friend, don't give up dear. It's wrll
ReplyDeleteSo Benue is Southern Nigeria?
DeleteStop ranting. You are not the first person to serve in an interior village. Stop ranting and enjoy the experience.
ReplyDeleteInstead of staying there and falling into depression, take a walk. Security and health is supreme.
ReplyDeleteIt's who is healthy searches for job. So many do not use their NYSC certificates to work as many are working from home or are entrepreneurs.
Leave there go take care of your health.
Best wishes.
Pls don’t say this. I know someone who never had an opportunity at a good job because he abandoned his NYSC and left and never went back. He was 34 when someone was telling him to go back so that he could get the certificate and he could give him a job. Don’t close doors because you don’t see the end now. This is Nigeria. Maybe if she was going abroad it would have been different but this is Nigeria and NYSC cert is important until enacted otherwise.
DeletePoster, suck it up and keep it moving!
Hey God! NYSC wahala.. Please stay strong and don't hurt yourself na beg I dey beg.. That's how I paid someone that kept posting me back then too, he couldn't do it but later got a sure plug that can help you with relocation to your place of choice within an hour. He did mine for 60k and it was done immediately after payment, if you dont mind
ReplyDelete.. Chat me up!
Sorry for what you are going through
Be positive about life, no matter what you're going through. It will definitely pass. It might seem like the end of the world, it might seem like there's no hope, but remember you're going "through" it. You're really not stuck because you're not going to be there forever.
ReplyDeleteSince you said it's south, you are safe security wise. You should be asking how to get a good PPA in town, suggestions, not threatening us with suicide. Are you a child? Are you the only one posted there? Stop being a baby and grow tf up!
ReplyDeleteResend the chronicle with the name of the state and ask for assistance on how to get good PPA, then I will know how to help. Until then, keep whining.
Bless you Jare.... As if she's the only person ever posted to the interior village...
DeleteFor goodness sake, it's only 1 year, it's not like it's permanent.
ReplyDeleteI think your issue is beyond this NYSC matter, there is more going on with you. Please seek help.
ReplyDeleteYou nailed it. Even this posting issue materialized into phantom illness.
DeleteGbam!
DeleteExactly
DeleteNysc is not worth mental distress o. Pls pack your bag and go back home. Your life is more important than nysc Pali
ReplyDeleteI personally do not think people should be posted to just any where. Some places are just not it. I actually understand how u feel. I remember how I felt when I saw my posting letter and eventually the area I was posted to. I remember how sad and dejected I was. Poster you must breathe and accept what is presently. Afterall your relocation may still happen . All you have to do is wait it out. What helped me is truly deciding to just stick it out. 'I am not going to be here forever'. 'There are fellow corpers here, if they could I def can and forging friendships with those around. Those bonds are very vital. Cos with that, days turn to weeks and weeks to months. After the end of my service year, I still stayed back for a lil bit🙃🙂. Poster you can choose to make the best out of this very difficult and impossible time. I look back and yes I can boldly say, that was one of the best years of my life because of the people I met. So dry your tears. Being alone will run you down plz identify with other fellow corpers. Next time you see your LI plz talk to him about your health. Plz keep us updated. Suicidal thoughts will forever be far from you. Sorry for your ordeal and plz hang in there.
ReplyDeleteSometimes when we have done all we can and still get the same results, God could be in it. What if God has kept something great for you there?
DeleteI'll tell you a story of my room mate in school. She, just like you, was posted to Bauchi after having done all she could just like you. Her mom told her to go to Bauchi. She did. Her stay there was blessed!
When she got there, she asked God why he brought her there. He answered her in a dream by telling her to put up a signboard of the hospital (general hospital) where she was serving (she read Anatomy).
She did. And that attracted the medical director to her. The signboard was the type that has light. Very beautiful and conspicuous from afar. Mind you, she did it with her money. Next, she put tags on each office door posts. All these were necessary because it made nurses to keep directing and directing people nonstop around the hospital. But all these stopped after the tags.
Then the director gave her a mini flat in his compound to stay free. His wives, three of them took turns to cook and stock her fridge till she passed out. She got recommended to the high and mighty in that state. She got favours every where she went that when her mother asked to come for holidays, she declined. The director's first wife even took her along with her children, on a one week trip to Dubai, all expense paid trip.
But here is the main gift God gave her: she passed out as the best graduating corper! With a huge cash reward attached to it. She said the cash was bigger than all her twelve months allowee put together by far. She was offered a job in the hospital, though she declined that because she went back to Lagos.
The director wrote a letter of recommendation for her which aided her in getting a very good job so easily.
What am I saying, give that place a chance. Find out why God allowed you to be posted there. Be positive. I even feel your ill health is psychological. I may be wrong tho. Open your heart even though you are still working on your redeployment. Be prayerful too. God bless you.
Jechix,you are always making a valid point.i love the way you see God in everything that happens in and around us as humans...I love your love for God.You motivate me a whole lot.keep it up.
Delete19:23, I'm humbled. Thank you. I'm just a vessel. God is the main person. Thanks again.
DeletePoster na wa for you oh. How can someone plan to hurt herself just cos of nysc posting? I don't even know how people conceive this suicide thought. Poster you must not die before your time in Jesus name. Amen
ReplyDeleteBetter don't hurt yourself, else it will be your loss and that of your loved ones.
In camp didn't you make friends? So you mean no one could help you get another posting into a lively area/city of the state you were posted to?
Anyway since your case is like this, instead of hurting yourself or taking your life better return to your base afterall without nysc life will go on.
On another hand, go and meet with some nysc officials in your service state, manner of approach matters a lot, search for someone who is understanding and runs things and see if you can be reposted to the city/town area pending when you can relocate.
During my time I was posted to a popular South South state, but a very remote interior part without electricity, no transportation one had to wait on certain days to be able to find bike to go to town... immediately I got there I knew I couldn't stay, I quickly ran out the next day and contacted a friend I had in the city, went there to stay, didn't let the school principal get hold of my posting letter.
A friend I made in camp helped me and we met an nysc official who got me another posting letter to a school and city of my choice. I paid though.
I honestly do not like your attitude. How will you grow and expand if you do not experience something that you are not used to? This is a golden opportunity for you to rise and all you think about is me, me, me.
ReplyDeleteYou will eventually leave that community, but for those ppl it is there home. You really need to do a long self evaluation to see why you are behaving in this manner.
Exactly.
DeleteThis is the truth 👍
DeleteThis is what happens when your parents have to take all your challenges for you and spend money to get you into places, Now reality has set in, and you cant take it.
DeleteSomeone like me who likes nature will take advantage of this opportunity. Its not a death sentence to be there but an opportunity to develop yourself and become independent.
Nysc posting isn't the real.problem, you have to deal with the cause if your unhappiness, the PPA, only added to it, from your mail it seems you've been sad even before the posting you have attempted suicide, redeployment can't solve it unless your recognize and attack the root of your depressed mind
ReplyDeleteWait! Are you the first and only Corp member ever posted there? What is wrong with you that you can't suck it up and live up the experience for just one year. Are you that spoilt? If the place is secure...maybe you should be sent to North East or North West so you can have a real reason to be depressed.
ReplyDeleteINGRATITUDE!
That is the name of your disease. You are prone to depression and suicide not because you are always at a disadvantage but because your personality has been so weakened by the kind of things you exposed yourself to while in school. Yes, your attitude is like that of a person exposed to drug abuse which is the epidemic in our schools today. Now you can't even face and handle simple life challenges without suicidal thoughts lurking around if the outcome doesn't go your way.
This is just NYSC stage o. How are you going to handle other disappointments and turbulence of life in the future?
Stay off that thing you smoke or inject or take into your system. It's not good for you. You need rehabilitation ASAP.
Why not mention the place to see if someone can give you a better accommodation. In my place, people allow corners to live in their mansions while they are away.
ReplyDeleteThere is a secret that people don't know. Immediately you are out of camp, go straight to nysc headquarters with medical report and file for transfer (have legit complains, oil hands where necessary). If everything sails through the transfer will be instant.
ReplyDeleteI will say, relax your mind 1st and tell yourself not to be anxious. Look around you and list everything that you like in your current environment but can't find at home in lagos and thank God for those things. It can be something as ordinary as the calm atmosphere, the singing birds, the village fresh foods etc. Also each time you wake up, write down at least one thing you are grateful for. It can be, the food you eat,the roof over your head, the opportunity of education and doing NYSC because truth is not everybody has that opportunity. Some don't even know how to spell their names, some are sleeping under the bridge, some have no where at all to go; not even a hut to sleep in.
ReplyDeleteSoon your time there will come to an end. It's just a year not internity. Don't kill yourself over something that will pass in a year. As someone said, God knows why you are there at this time. It will shock you that, there's one child in the corner somewhere who looks up to you in that village. Who is motivated just seeing you go about your daily activities who tells his/herself to try hard and one day wear the corper uniform too. Please do not take their motivation away; for all the silent admirers looking up to you, please do this.
However if you think you have really tried but you are still feeling down. Please stop everything and go home. You can always do it next year. Here's to wishing you peace. May you overcome.
Poster i am from the South and i feel offended by this your write-up. Why dont you go to the North and experience thier backwardness and insecurity. Mtwwww
ReplyDeleteSome of you are so insensitive. Someone is depressed and all you can do is centering it on you? You are from the south so what? If you know nothing about mental health, please read about it.
DeletePls locate NCCF in your state if you are a Christian and go and stay in the family house for now. You need to stay around people
ReplyDeleteThank you ms sapphire. My anger was just rising reading this. Where is the humanity in you poster. Have you taken a moment to look around your surroundings? To appreciate the people that live there?. To even see how you can create awareness to their plight or help them?.
ReplyDeleteEverything is just about me me me ME ME!
Its tiring mehn.
You have insight and you can analyze your situation, but you cant advice yourself. It's a pity.
My advice for you is to pack out and go home. What is 1 year compared to your mental health? Abi na?.
Go home.
And repeat NYSC next year.
I had a friend like you, everything negative was happening to her until she learnt the act of gratitude and positivity.
Please get medical help for your mental health fast by speaking to a doctor nearest to your PPA. Use the doctor's report to request a redeployment. In the meantime, invite a family or friend to stay with you until your redeployment is finalised. Take deep breaths and search for mindfulness videos on Youtube, to help with your anxiety. I pray you find the peace you desire.
ReplyDeleteMs Saphire 👌👌
ReplyDeleteThis young woman is clinically depressed. It goes beyond NYSC. This is the reason why people hide their problems. Young lady you need help for your anxiety and depression. You need to speak to your parents about getting you to a qualified therapist. You can try to take things one day at a time, pray, try to make a friend but trust me this is a mental health issue. Not an issue of lack of gratitude.
ReplyDeleteHow can you diagnose someone through the internet with clinical depression? Even doctors don't make a diagnosis without first physically seeing a patient and running some tests.
DeleteI have had MANY disappointments in my life, but thankfully I grew up in a time when we were raised to accept disappointments and move on. If I was growing up now I would likely been labeled and put on psychiatric medication for being sad because of life's disappointments. Yes, depression is real, but we are too quick to diagnose and medicate folks instead of letting them understand that disappointments are a reality of life and how to effectively handle them and move on.
Thank you sapphire. The girl (or boy) is so weak. Are you a baby that you cannot handle this issue like an adult? Stop it abeg and grow up.
ReplyDeleteSo when you marry and your spouse quarrels with you, you run to hurt yourself or you start calling mummy and daddy
Mtchew
You’ve not seen life.
Toughen up!!!
Get over your suicidal thought and settle into your new place of assignment. You have a change to make something out of this little time your have to spend there. Make friends, visit the village, take up a new hobby like writing, photography, teaching little children, or spend time working on a future project. You can also invite your friends one after the other to come visit you once in a while. Please dont feel depressed. Make the best out of what it. God be with you.
ReplyDeletePoster listen to me chilll, and breathe you mean Nysc you re thinking of suicide and hurting yourself unto Nigeria that did not send you nne freestyle and mingle, you re hurting your precious mum by her thinking of your behalf, let me tell you my experience i was hiv positive was posted to the North when i saw my posting letter to the north i accepted it cos i dont have anybody that will work it out for me. Do you know what id did,armed with my drugs with a cheerful smile i travelled, mingled was happy i located hiv/aids cds was made a vp of my cds, nne come and see me with organisations there handling community services, health talks and meetings with pple i never imagined i would ve met in my life.
ReplyDeleteAfter my service i got a job in one of the NGos chaii see salary with benefits on top, cv with topnotch experience to tell you the fact i built myself from there.
Do you know why im telling you this smile, its not a debilitating disease, you re not in a war zone, its just comfort that you ll see come to your way after three months, smile and make the best out of life. Nysc is not worth your life, your mum and the future ahead of you.
Im married now with a family if i had allowed hiv to kill me will i be alive today, but with it i went to the far north came and started my life, i pray and wish you do the same cheer up sis its well
I think u should just cut ur losses like that and go home. U are not mentally stable right now. Just forget everything and go home. Others would have cut their losses and made the best of things but I suspect u are too emotionally fragile for that. Pls dear just go home. Life first!! Guys I am a psychologist and I can tell u that mental illness is real.
ReplyDeletePoster you have to be patient and take it easy, you can talk to the school that you have a sick person to take carenof of and go back to lagos while you apply on 3 months time.
ReplyDeleteWrite to the school telling them of the sick person you have to take care of or your health condition, if you do garaga or what to show them you deteste the location they will show you but gonin a more pity and sick way you will pull through.
If people know how disorganized NYSC is ehn, if you show up in Lagos secretariat with a letter for redeployment, they have no way of validating if it's authentic or not and will post you to a PPA in Lagos.
ReplyDeleteWhen I got a posting I didn't want from Lagos camp, I went to secretariat in Surulere with a letter I wrote, signed, printed and stamped by myself requesting me to be posted to a different PPA on the day camp ended. They accepted the letter and printed out a new PPA assignment for me... and that was that. With NYSC you have to sharp and move fast
Poster I believe this goes beyond NYSC. You need to seek medical help for your suicidal thoughts and constant depression. Life is full of many surprises. Even if you are able to redeploy, if other things spring up in your life that isn't to your liking, your reaction will be the same.
ReplyDeleteI wish you well
Poster tackle the root of your problem by seeking the right therapy
ReplyDeleteNysc is not the problem
Hmm poster because of nysc you want to commit suicide. That's bad seek help now. Because worse things are yet to happen in this life. If because of nysc you want to hurt yourself. Pay principal every month come for clearance simple. All the money you are paying different plug would have solved this
ReplyDeletePoster, think of a project you could do in that village that would draw attention of UNITED NATIONS or WHO.
ReplyDeleteSome people I know got jobs with these two world organizations due to their NYSC projects.
Learn to trust and live for Christ.
FIND A NEED and MEET IT.
Bless you Ms Sapphire... Once, life didn't offer what they want, the next thing is depression or suicide....
ReplyDeletePoster, suck it up...
I felt like slapping her already, Ms Sapphire and other comments under hers, u guys spoke well!! Poster toughen up!!
ReplyDeleteWell said Ms sapphire. OP If you hate it there go home and stop whining
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