Hmmmmm.....
STAND ALONE NARRATIVE
LIFE AT A STANDSTILL
I just want to die, if only God can hear this particular prayer of mine. He obviously doesn't hear all my prayers, I hope he really exists and I have not been wasting my prayers.
I have been praying to God everyday to take my life. I have not been useful, not to myself and not to everyone around me. I have no one to talk to yet I am surrounded by a lot of people, family and friends.
My life is at a standstill, has been for more than 10years. I have a good job but that job is like a curse, that is basically the only thing I have. I have tried quitting but, what do I do if I quit? Nigeria is not a place to quit and stay idle, besides, no job is lying waiting for anybody.
Leaving one's job without already having another to jump to is not advisable. I am tired, the tears can't stop. I feel like a failure. My dad is not poor, but I can't go back there, what do I tell him and my mum.
Beeves, I cry everyday, God has failed me. I have prayed, I have fasted, I have done everything (except the bad things). As I am typing now, the only thing I have is 1500 naira. My job owes salaries. No house, no car, no husband, no boyfriend, no kids at my age. Just a life that I don't need anymore.
I am tired and scared of suicide that's why I don't think in that direction. I have thought about who will miss me when I'm gone, nobody, not even a soul. If you read this, pray to whoever you believe in to take my life. I can't go on like this anymore.
What's doing this one? What's actually happening to you? You're yet to tell us what the problem is, you have #1,500 when many people have not eaten today because they don't a #1 to themselves? Voice out what's actually happening to you, then we can know how to help you.
ReplyDeleteYou're not the only one that is single at that age
*Larry was here*
Please learn to offer words of comfort or say nothing. If it was not so bad for this poster, she wouldn't have written in for advice. Stop doing comparative and superlative analysis of SUFFERING. 🖐️
DeletePoster there were days when my dad with 7 kids didn't even have 500 to his name. He didn pray to die...there were days we only drank garri once a day...forget poster, pple are suffering no be only you...na who talk em own pple go know...
DeleteWhen imps like you see chronicles like this, resist the urge to display your ignorance & foolishness.
DeleteYou want to sound like you got your own shit together? You don't!
Rude thing!
Twins Squared. Are you minding the dunce?
DeleteSomeone brought a problem here, one they have no idea how to fix. You have no idea what they have and are going through. No idea of their mental or emotional level. People like 15:06 will just sit there like ameobas spouting maggots from the hole in their face.
Someone is contemplating SUICIDE here, go and play with sand if you don't have anything intelligent to say.
Let me assemble my thoughts, will be back.
Poster instead of ending your life, quit your job and go home to your parents. You can start afresh, you can change careers, you can learn new skills, you just have to love yourself more.
DeleteI was in exactly the same situation as you in 2019. I had already quit my job because of non payment of salary, no transport to even go to work, no food, rent and bills to pay. I contemplated suicide severally but God is Merciful. April 2019, I travelled home for Easter and never went back. My few properties were shipped to me 16 months later. Just like you, no husband, no job, no business, no child, no money.
I have to start from scratch, learning new skills. Thank God for YouTube and online courses.
Renew your relationship with God, I tell you, that's the only Anchor you need. Pray like your life depends on it, love yourself more and things will turn around for you.
Stay Strong!!!
You don't know the meaning of depression, do you?
DeleteWhat am able to bring out of what the writer wrote is that "she has a lot on her mind and doesn't even know where or how to start"It's a confusing state. Its deeper than what she wrote, and I understand her well.
Keep hanging on, you'll surely see the light.
You don't know the meaning of depression, do you?
DeleteWhat am able to bring out of what the writer wrote is that "she has a lot on her mind and doesn't even know where or how to start"It's a confusing state. Its deeper than what she wrote, and I understand her well.
Keep hanging on, you'll surely see the light.
👀-Me looking at you for being such a pessimist that's in despair
ReplyDeleteAsking God to take the life he gave you is you being ungrateful. We all have issues and keep praying and striving hard till we get that break through. You even have a job, some people don’t and they are up and hustling and hoping that one day, everything will fall in place.
ReplyDeleteAs for having a bf or being a mrs, it’s not the key to happiness.
I’m sure you don’t even look happy and presentable physically as you’ve given up on yourself. Which man will approach you na? Please take things easy.
People are going through worse and they haven’t given up.
You are not alone, you have God, hold on tight. Very soon, all of this will gist and you’ll use it to encourage other people.
👌👌
DeletePoster
DeletePlease try this
Thank Him for your life
Then ask Him what He wants to achieve with your life
What do you have to do?
What does He need you to do?
Dearest Stella, please post....
DeletePoster and Nigerians, please please please, sometimes we feel overwhelmed and suicidal due to long term depression that has become a chemical imbalance in your brain, or something more serious... so basically you may need antidepressants to help you at this stage so you don't take actions due to altered brain chemistry, please don't kill yourself... your mind can play long term tricks on you at this point
Once you get on antidepressants then you need to get to the root cause of this problem, therapy helps although I found that therapy doesn't help everyone, sometimes they have drugs to help you distract yourself as well I think, if it gets too much..... they put you in a zombie-like haze... bliss
You may need to take time off work for health reasons, maybe 3 months since they're not paying you anyway, I don't want you to lose your job but if it's making you depressed then you may need to get away for your health till something better comes along, I don't know if they allow that, you may also need to tap into your creative side and learn a skill like sewing or baking or decorating for parties to take your mind off things and refocus your energy, or maybe you can start a business although I know that may be taxing so maybe something else....
Sending love and light your way.... you are in a dark tunnel caused by years of depression.... you need the mental crutches and the bandages to get through now but you are a survivor..... <3
Hope certified mental health professionals can shed more light....
May God come through for you. We all are survivors, know you're not alone. Better days will come to you soon.
ReplyDeleteI understand her. I have been there where I was so sure God always gave me the very opposite of anything I asked. Today I realised that my situation was so prolonged because I lamented instead of showing gratitude in my prayers. When I realised this, I changed by focusing all my energy on only things that went well, thanking God for them and thanking him with confidence that he will do other things I hope for. I tell Him ONCE and that's it. I go back to focus on the few things that are well with gladness and confidence.
DeletePoster, ingratitude and this "poor me" mind-set will keep you exactly where you are and even worse if you don't switch and surround yourself with a positive energy.
Go and read "THE SECRET" by Rhonda Bryne.
I’m sorry about your situation. In the end, all will be well. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteHmmmm
ReplyDeleteEveryone is going through something you hear, stop your whining and ingratitude.
This too shall pass.
What is actually your issue,you even have 1500,friends and parents.hmmm,when people tell you what they are going through,you will start appreciating God.you even have job.To me,you dont have problem.
ReplyDeleteYou are very UNGRATEFUL. You are alive. You have a job even though they are not paying you at least you have where to go everyday. Your parents are comfortable which means no one is disturbing you for financial help. You did not make mention of any terminal illness yet you want to take your life. My friend switch to praises and appreciation to God for what he has given you
ReplyDeleteI will be 47 in few days . No child. No husband. No bf. No job. While l was working. My Parents depend on me 90% for their upkeep. The owner of the universe is taking care of them since l stopped working. I was working as a contact staff which means l left with no pension. No gratuity. I take drugs in order to sleep most nights because l don't understand the pranks my heart is playing. But in all. I am super grateful. God loves me so much. There is non like me in the universe. God has me in mind before the creation of the earth. Imagine him dying on the cross just to save me. Oh. What an awesome God he is.
My love. You got nothing to worry about. You are the apple of God's eyes. Your prayers are working perfectly well for your good. You will soon see the manifestations. Put a smile dear. Nothing mega
Your miracle is coming in Jesus name, Amen.
DeleteDon't be harsh on the poster. Everyone cannot be strong like you
DeleteHmmmm, anonymous,I just love your spirit and I can relate very well.Can we be friends?
DeleteWow!... That's the spirit... May God bless you with all of your good heart desires.. Your 2021 shall be filled with testimonies in Jesus name 🙏
DeleteAnd to you poster, don't you ever say that there is no God. Instead, go to him in prayers and seek him diligently with all of your heart. May the Good Lord comfort you🙏
Please I want to be her friend too,I love such positive mindset.Your miracle is coming Anon 15:22
DeleteThank you anon 15:54, people fail to realize we don't have the same level of resilience. I can easily lift up a 30 litter gallon of water, does it mean that anyone who can't do same should be termed weak? Our areas of strength will never be the same. Learn this and know compassion.
Delete15:54, are you minding her? Sound harsh and use style and complain her own join!
DeleteSome of you have a problem for you to see any wrong in what Anon 15.22 wrote. Drop your own "words of advice" and leave others to drop theirs instead of picking holes. She is entitled to express herself.
DeleteAnon, I absolutely love your positivity and attitude. Please keep it going.
DeleteYour statement touched me
DeleteI begged GOD to meet you at the point of your need so you will be a complete testimony to others to hold on
Wow!!
DeleteYou are super amazing anonymous 15:22.
See eeh, your approach to life is great.
God will surely bless you even beyond your expectations.
Please just keep up your faith.
@Anon. 15:22; That attitude of gratitude and praise(with Word confessions), will turn things around for your ultimate good!!! Don't stop, your heart can't play tricks on you, you are healed by the stripes(39 Strokes of cane) of Jesus Christ!
DeleteYou will testify, the God that remembered Ruth and connected her to her Boaz will remember you!
Cheers! #TIGHTHUGS
Hmmmmm I understand but suicide is not an option have that in mind, be strong have a mindset that u must surely come out of this no matter.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry i had to laugh. Me thst had #100 and still went to church to dance yesterday nko? you better get over this petty feeling and start thanking God instead...
ReplyDeleteAre you freaking kidding me?? What!! A lot of bvs who visit this blog daily are going through same. In short, a lot of people are going through worse. No job, no relationship, empty bank account and you wanna take the life some people are fighting for?? Nothing is permanent my Darling. You are not the first going through this and won't be the last. Tough times never last, but tough people do (Robert Schuller). Go and read his book on how to manage one's problems. Don't underestimate what God can do. Don't aggravate your problems because you have the power to make your problem better or worse so choose! How you choose to react to it is a choice .No one is free from problems, just so you know. Finally, God's delay isn't denial. Stay strong poster!!
ReplyDeletePoster, you are not serious at all. You want to kill yourself because you have no husband and kids? You have good health, a job, family. Please put yourself together abeg.
ReplyDelete@ poster don't be too harsh on yourself.keep on praying and hope for the best.
ReplyDeleteThank you on her behalf. 🙏
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DeleteU are welcome @ Twins Squared
DeleteSome people can be ungrateful! I know all this rant is bcos of husband right? May God forgive you and bless you with inner peace.
ReplyDeleteDear poster, BE GRATEFUL... THE FACT THAT U ARE ALIVE AND HEALTHY IS ENOUGH TO BE GRATEFUL... THIS LIFE IS NOT ALL ROSY, EVERYBODY GET THEIR OWN 4 BODY...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for you and the depression season you are going through. May peace of resurrection fall upon you. May God open your eyes to the battle He has been fighting on your behalf.
ReplyDeleteLook around and see if you are the only one going through difficult times. No, many more people are worst of but are hopeful.
Embrace God for his direction. Let God be your friend and your life will never be the same again.
Hold on and be at peace with your spirit..
Join Nsppd 7am fire prayer mon _Friday. You can connect through YouTube or Facebook.
Take care
How old are you to start with?
ReplyDeleteYou're alive ,working ,hail and hearty yet so ungrateful.
You better change your mindset and speak positive,see positivity in everything.
You don't need to pray again at this point just keep singing praises with faith and be hopeful before you know it, lines will fall in pleasant places for you.
Cast all your worries on the Lord,he cares about you. Sure,he really does exist
ReplyDeleteThere are others going through similar things, but everyone has different grace to carry on. Trying switching to a life of thanksgiving and praise.
ReplyDeleteThe moment we realise that life owes none of us anything is the moment we start to see things differently.
ReplyDeleteGaskiya
DeleteNne you better revert this your prayer request to thanks giving cos when God will answer it maybe when you start enjoying your life. Come down from your high horse and ask your parents for financial assistance now that your broke since you have a comfortable parents,it's still their responsibility and they will understand.Better freshen up now and look good for yourself, use #500 from the #1500 ur having and trek down to any eatry around you,get yourself a cup of ice cream relax and take it. Then you go home. God has good plans for you, so cheer up dear
ReplyDeleteThis is the wrongest place to bring this kind of issue. My people here believe that because someone has it worse, ur problem isn't valid.
ReplyDeleteMy dear, it is valid. You know what u want and you know you don't have it yet hence it bothers you, it is valid. People have it worse than you doesn't mean ur problem should not be a problem.
The only thing I am against is ur prayer for death. When there's life, there's still hope right???? Keep pushing, keep praying, keep trying. When u are at the lowest point of ur life, trust me, that is when ur miraculous breakthrough is on the way
Sabi sabi. Oya show her where to take her chronicle to.
DeleteBitter leaf 17:52, na die u dey like this o!
Delete👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
DeleteThank you Eka Joy.
Just because others have it worse doesn’t make the posters problems less valid.
Telling her to snap out of it is easier said than done.
Truth be told she sent this chronicle because she is seeking help. She doesn’t want to actually end it.
So let’s see how we can tackle the issues on hand.
1. The job issue. Start sending out resumes. Join LinkedIn. Post your cv on a job search website like jobber-man. Start a side business.
2. Only #1500. While both your parents are still alive n in a position to help you take advantage of that. Ask for a little money with the promise to pay when you can or simply ask for a small monetary gift. No iou if that’s better.
3. Boyfriend. Please try to pay attention to yourself going forward. Lose weight if you need to. Pay attention to your skin. Make sure it flows. Fix your hair. Fix your eyebrows. Invest in a little makeup. Dress nice. Make sure you are looking fly everyday with the little you have.
4. Then try attending a new church. It could even be a different parish/branch Of your current church. At the new church, try to be active. Join the ushers or choir etc. Be friendly, be outgoing. Avoid being a wallflower.
5. Join a gym or club or interest group so you can get out and socialize.
As far as car n house. Don’t worry about those. Fix the job n your looks and everything else will just fall into place.
If you’re over 43years please don’t wait. Have a child. I don’t care who with just do it.
The joy it will bring you ehnnnn
Just do it. Thank me later.
Don’t look at anyone’s clock.
Most importantly Change your hopeless defeatist mindset. Read self help books. Watch YouTube videos.
Things will surely get better.
Oh and as far as prayers, never underestimate the power of prayer. Pray against Committing sucide.
For 7 days try Fasting, giving alms Nd praying earnestly at midnight n 3am.
Pray with passion. Pray until belief and faith. Make a promise to God. If he grants you this ————— thing you prayed for you will do this —————— thing in return. ( for example, donate half of your first salary to the poor/ church or tithe) Trust me, at the end of 7 days or even before MIRACLE!!!!!!!
Do these things and please come back and give testimony so others can be helped too.
This advice Eka gave poster is apt. Anon bitter leaf, what's your problem with it because I could have said same to poster.
DeleteI have been in your shoes in Nigeria where I worked for
ReplyDelete24 hours/daily, 7 days a week and for 8 months, I wasn't paid.
(I was the only medical doctor in a whole LGA in Northern Nigeria)
And I could be woken up at midnight for mass casualty or pregnant
women fitting or delivering and blood everywhere etc. Due to my being
a Christian, I could not allow another to die while I could help
I had nobody there as I lived alone.
The only problem I see you (think) you have is "no husband"
All those things you listed there do not guarantee happiness.
What you really lack is joy; actually righteousness, peace and
joy in the Holy Spirit (Romans 14:17). Yes, for that is the
Kingdom of God.
God won't take your life because he still has plans for you here.
You aren't even ready for eternity and he will still give you chance
to make it right with him. Eternity does not end and you don't know
Jesus the way for you asked if he exists; meaning if he died for you?
Give him your life today and being to read his teachings in the new
Testament. Fast and pray, not because of what you will get from him
but in order to know and understand him. Shallom 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗💕
This is wonderful. God bless you for this
DeleteKai.... I refuse to be ungrateful. I will forever thank my maker all He has done, the ones He is doing, the ones He is going to do and the ones He has not done.
ReplyDeletePoster, jump out of that demonic mood before you do something drastic that will make you regret in life and eternity.
You think marriage is everything? I pray you don't get married and experience being broke. Both you and your husband practically begging to feed and you have a child or children (story of my life).
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wish I was single. I would have only myself to worry about and the be able to take care of my parents who did their best to give me an education (2:1, no job).
You have 1500 and you're complaining. If I see that 1500, I will sing for joy. At least be able to feed my kid. My last 250, I bought sanitary pads and gave 50 as offering in church yesterday.
I'm grateful for life. Me, want to die? Never! The sweet life I dream of is still ahead.
So my dear, brace up. Bathe. Stroll out in the evening. Sit somewhere and drink coke. Breathe fresh air and be happy.
Hope you're encouraged by my story? Keep your head up, babe.
May God come through for you. It ll end in praise Amen
DeleteMake you dey take an easy o. I no sabi wetin your problem be. Hardliners dey naija, your matter no be the worst, dey give yourself hope na. E go better
ReplyDeleteNo commit suicide o, u dey hear? You go sey ok
@poster, it is well with you. Please don't give in to any spirit of depression and be grateful for little miracles for been alive shows that God has been merciful to you. A lot of people are going through many things. God will surely come through for you in Jesus name Amen. Please read 2 Timothy 1:7.
ReplyDeleteMost people will go through the phase where nothing seems to be working. Where you have prayed and cried, prayed and cried, yet it looks as if it's not getting better. It doesn't mean you are ungrateful for life and health. It just means as long as we still have life in us, we want to advance in every area. No one was created to be stagnant or enjoys being at a spot. We want to move forward and make progress, not just going around in cycles.
ReplyDeletePoster, where you are now is a hard place to be. Your prayers now should be for God to give you His PEACE in the midst of this storm. When you feel the gloom or despair settling over you begin to quote the Scriptures and rebuke the spirit of heaviness. Trust me, it's a spirit. It makes you focus on the things that are not working and forget the many blessings you have.
Pray for a heart of thanksgivings as well. With time, the worries will recede and you won't freak out or remain depressed.
Hold onto Jesus Christ, He'll never leave you dearest 😍😘🥰♥️💖💋
What is the difference between all you wrote and what others wrote, yet you are jumping all over their comments.
DeletePoster you don't have any problem, you are waiting for death gp come take you when you can hang yourself or take sniper sharply you are gone. When ladt did you treat malaria because I feel that is your problem right now.
ReplyDeleteYou have a job, you have a father who is not poor, you have friends and family members yet you are complaining, you should be greatful you got a job. Some don't have a job, there father is poor, no relative to talk to and no friends around.
Look I am single, have a job nor like the pay is everything, my parents are old so I have to send monthly upkeep with the little pay I get. I am not married, don't have a relationship, no children but you know what this life is the sweetest thing that could ever happen to me. I am very greatful to God eas passing day fir all he has done, my hope and faith is alive cos I know someday he will make everything beautiful.
Why don't you sit down and be greatful for the little you have and expect more. If you feel killing yourself is the best please get sniper or rope and do it yourself since life is all about marriage, children, bf, money. All what you see on social media are Lori iro so be warned ⚠️😏
Apart from your first sentence.✖✖✖✖❎❎❎❎
DeleteBe very happy my dear. You don't know what you're enjoying now.
You are such a sweetheart excited courtesy, always cheerful. Wish you the best dear.
DeleteGod will surely come through for you dear E.C.
DeleteKeep hold on.
Keep up the faith.
My dear God has not failed you ok?
ReplyDeleteYes you might be unsatisfied with how your life turned out but my sweet sister life has more to offer you.
Don't give up on yourself ok?
How about giving time to studying and meditating on the word of God and asking him to speak to you?
Am glad you aren't considering suicide!!!
My beautiful darling baby girl, you don't need a boyfriend, you need your life partner and hold on a bit the right man will definitely find you ok?
How about praying more.
Study the word
Pray more
Meditate more
Try to live to please your maker more and watch him SETTLE YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU.
ALL WILL BE WELL.
Exactly focus on you first poster and God. And every other thing shall be added unto you
DeleteDont loose faith Poster. You're praying to God who has the power to change circumstance and situation. He has heard you just be a bit patient with Him. He never fails and is never late. Just trust Him one more time.
ReplyDeleteLook at this my sister even complaining. This life no just balance Yes I've been crying and begging to God to take my life which I mentioned the other day on the blog. You are not even happy you have family, friends and parents.
ReplyDeleteI don't have any of the aforementioned, no parent, no family, no friend, no job, business is just the way I started it 6months ago, no boyfriend (of course that's not my problem), house rent will be due by May. No hope, nobody to run to for help. I don't even have#500 in cash or in account.
Yes I even asked God this morning to take this miserable life he brought into this life.
My sister, cheer-up, if it's disturbing you too much at least you got folks to run to for assistance.
At least if I had even a mother I would have been grateful.
Not that I've not been grateful but the best God can do for me now is to take my life because I don't want to feel any pain in the process of doing it myself. And I mean it.
I have been in very hopeless situations, i always feel like my whole world will come crashing down, but guess what? It passes and most times i don't even remember.
DeleteOne day i sat down to count my blessings and i realized that every prayer request i made had been answered, as in all!
You may be praying and it's seems like God can not hear you, but my dear, he does! He makes everything beautiful in his own time, he will do exceedingly and abundantly than you ever ask for or imagine.
God is not a magician, that will just say abracadabra and all your whims are met, he knows what is best for you and he will show up just in time.
Please do hang on, you and this poster!
Look at this my sister even complaining. This life no just balance Yes I've been crying and begging to God to take my life which I mentioned the other day on the blog. You are not even happy you have family, friends and parents.
ReplyDeleteI don't have any of the aforementioned, no parent, no family, no friend, no job, business is just the way I started it 6months ago, no boyfriend (of course that's not my problem), house rent will be due by May. No hope, nobody to run to for help. I don't even have#500 in cash or in account.
Yes I even asked God this morning to take this miserable life he brought into this life.
My sister, cheer-up, if it's disturbing you too much at least you got folks to run to for assistance.
At least if I had even a mother I would have been grateful.
Not that I've not been grateful but the best God can do for me now is to take my life because I don't want to feel any pain in the process of doing it myself. And I mean it.
Oh dear.
DeletePlease keep holding on to God.
Your testimony is about to happen.
This phase will surely pass, believe me.
It will end in praise
DeletePoster this is part of L.I.F.E. The book of Ecclesiastes talks purely on it. Why are you still on that job when they are not paying you salary. You keep spending and nothing is coming in. Look at your hands dear poster. What can they do. Remember when God used Moses to remove the Israelites from Egypt. When God ask Moses what is in your hands? His response: A staff! What is that 'staff' in your hands. Have you got skills or handwork? Can you make cakes, chinchin, puff e.t.c; can you make clothes or hair?
ReplyDeleteYou said your parents are not poor why not go back to them to help you with some funds tell them what you are going through. Don't die in silence. Prodigal son know say adulthood na scam so he went back to his father. My dear prayers without action without works is DEAD.
Nigeria is tough all over. Talk to friends, family, cousins, former office colleagues, church members that you need a new job. Take some days off go and drop your cvs with recruitment firms, offices, check websites and email addresses of corporate firms and tell me whether one or two firms wont call you for interviews. That is throwing your 'seeds' around.
No problems when you cry when you feel down, but what happens after crying. Read your bible and apply its principles in your life. Are you gonna cry and wallow in self-pity or you get up like King David and go after the 'Amalakites' in your life. You choose. All the best and Ehugs
Beautiful.
DeleteSo aptly written Phoenix baiby!
Dear poster, I don't even know what advice to give you and no you're not going to die. I understand what you are going through because it's similar to mine. Just be strong. Try to invest time in something that makes you happy. In my case, I worked on my singing skills and in one year I've had vocal progress- I'm still surprised at myself. I also read books ( business, Christian Fiction etc). I also don't have a lot friends or people who care. I also keep praying and fasting and I have faith that God will change my story like the dream of the night. Please and please. Hang on and have faith. You should also try to tackle things from a spiritual perspective... You might need to pray deliverance prayers. Stay strong sis. Sending you love and light.
ReplyDeletePS: You guys should stop being so judgemental, it's like adding salt to injury. Majority of the comments are just too harsh.
-Ms lami
Dear poster, there's a lot of tough love from BVs to make you strong. I am almost 50 in the same boat as you. I struggled to come clean to my folks and trying to pick up. Talk to them so that you can start a biz. I pray you testify soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm 47, no husband, no boyfriend to call my own but I still dey hope. 90% of my families problem they push on me, I'm the youngest in my family. I've lost all my brothers and have to look after some of their children from nursery. Some of the children are in university now so you can imagine how long I've gotten these load on my shoulder. Some times I get so depressed being alone in a foreign country but my consolation is that God kept me this way for a reason. I used to cry almost every night before but today I let go of all the pains and face the assignment God has given me.
DeleteI believe God knows what you are going through and He alone can get you out of it. Submit to Him. Let go of every bitterness let God lead. Go to your parents, open up to them, accept whatever help they offer. May God be with you. You are loved, you are special and you are above untimely death.
This poster ended up not saying anything. Well thank God you said you have a good job but what good job is that that they owe salaries???
ReplyDeletePoster, I have been were you are right now and I remember earnestly praying for God to take my life because I couldn't do it myself. There was a time I kept a knife beside my bed hoping while I'm asleep I will roll on the knife and that would be all. That was 6 years ago, what has changed now for me? Nothing the situation still persists, no good job, no relationship, no money, nothing really just aging without changing. If I thought my situation was that terrible 6 years ago, it still hasn't changed now and worse still I'm 6 years older. You just have to get up every day and deal with it.
ReplyDeleteYou have to be grateful for what you have now, might not seem like much but be grateful anyway that's the only way to get what you want. What I do is to remember how God got me through my primary school and all, my academic achievements and it gets frustrating if the only testimonies you have happened 20 years ago but still be grateful. Bless the Lord oh my soul and forget not all His benefits. I don't know if you are a Christian but I've always meditated on this verse, David basically instructed himself not to forget the benefits of God because it is so easy to forget. We dwell on things we don't have or the level we have not attained while forgetting everything God has done. You have to be intentional about it, I have only shared my depth of depression with one person and it is funny to me now when family members tell me "you are not even thinking of your life". I laugh because that I'm not frowning or crying upandan doesn't mean I'm okay with my situation, the same family would be shocked at the level of nadir that I once found myself but glory be to God that they even think I'm too happy even in the midst of it all.
I pray you draw strength and divine turnaround becomes your reality very soon. Chin up and hold your head up high, God gat you. Then rebuke the spirit of depression, suppression and oppression everyday. The bible says oppression maketh a man mad, so there's always a spiritual angle but rest assured that all will be well and your tomorrow will be better than you ever imagined.
I love you dearest 🥰😍♥️🤗🤗🤗, you are an inspiration. God bless you really good. 😘😘😘😘😘
DeleteYou ll testify soonest and it ll end in praise
DeletePoster, i know you're in a bad place now but just to be sure you really are tired,please take a walk to the hospital and to the morgue or rather go to the prisons, then come back and tell us you want God to take your life.
ReplyDeleteI understand what you're going through, continue to hold on to God, praise him instead and give him thanks and see how God works.
Everything will work o3for your good.
Be grateful for your 1500 naira.
Don't give up on God, because he hasn't given up on you yet.
Are u ashamed to ask your own parents who gave u life for help? If your job isn’t paying , u can talk to your dad for assistance to start up a business, as it is u are already miserable and depressed , so how would u look attractive for a man to ask out? I know it’s not easy but pls confide in your mother , some people have parents that they have to support financially every month and they are struggling , y not seek help from your parents ? There is no shame in it , u need to get your life back and be bubbling again and mix with people , there is more to move than boyfriend, some people had boyfriend and just got heartbroken recently
ReplyDeleteBe grateful to God for everything about you. Stop listening to the voice of the Devil.
ReplyDeleteSorry dear, Good doesn't kill but he care for you, he loves you. Take a bold step you are single look for work that pay you salary at the end of the month. Through your anxiety on God he will care for you. If you were my neighbour I would have collected your problem then give you mine just for a week.From there will see that God has not fail you.
ReplyDeleteYou still options but you're too scared to take any because you care too much about what people think about you as if they care.
ReplyDeleteGod will not answer such a cowardly prayer, because the plans he has for you is not for quitters. I will pray for you for divine providence and self discovery.