Oh Dear.........
STAND ALONE NARRATIVE
TIRED OF LIVING WITH EPILEPSY
Hi Stella, I am sorry I choose to write via here. I am one of your bv, I live on your blog.
I have never Witten any chronicle or write a comment, I have been waiting for years for someone to write or at least talk about my predicament.
I am a pretty lady, 27 years old. I may not be alive when you will post this chronicle, I have had enough, I have tried so many solutions, white and black, local and international. Now I am done, I can't even step out from my house. I have had couple of seizure in public places with loved ones and friends. I have had seizure during dates, my last date, after talking on fone, chatting.. We decided to meet, I remember we ordered for food, drinks and we were about to toss.. Gbam..
I opened my eyes with sore mouth, I am used to having that, people will shrove spoon inside my mouth.. Chai, I have suffered. I looked around and saw him in tears, they had beaten him up, accusing him of being a yahoo boy, they said he wanted to use me... Chai I Don suffer. He was saved after I told them what I am suffering from. That ended the relationship.
I have been sexually molested, all in the name to try to stabilize me, I become stable sometimes with sperm dripping from my vagina, sore breast. I was dis virgined when I had seizure.
My parents died from trying to find solutions, we are OK, I am an only child, my family members are good, they gave me 2 helpers, I was home schooled because I was being stigmatized at secondary school, I was called so many Unimaginary names, from Ogbanje, Warapa, edo, imbecile etc.
OK now to what I have, I have epilepsy, I have epilepsy, I even got nervous writing it, I had to write it last.
I am tired, I have scares from different incidents.. I have been rescued uncountable times, no one wants me, no friend, no one is talking about it. I have sore mouth, don't put spoon or try to help me, Leave the environment and make it safe for me, remove hazards... They won't obey, they think I am insane.
Stella I wish I can stay, I love this world but the pain is too much, I have sniper insecticide, I will wait for this chronicle to be posted and I will have opportunity to read comments one last time. I Don try with epilepsy, no more embarrassment, no more injuries, no more pains.. I will be free soon, yippee, Chai, see this fine babe about to be eating by worms, nawa oh.
I forgot, I wear handband to let the public be aware but not everyone knows.
I get seizures at least 3times or 2times a day. It comes uninvited, a day I felt like eating banga soup and starch, I got stable with the food allover the floor and on my face.
I have been stabilize from using toilet there was poo every where. I am so conscious, I take my medication but mine is something else.
So my dear, the abroad couldn't help, all our money couldn't help. Thanks to my paternal and maternal family, they kept me indoors, they visit and occasionally take me out, I have had fit in present of their friends but they didn't stop supporting me.
The little ones get scared when I sneeze or cough, they run away thinking I am having seizure. They sacked one house help who videoed me and showed me how I behave when I was having seizure, something I was never allowed to see, that video affected me, I saw my self like a... I am crying now, I saw myself, that person wasn't me, not me, sob sob sob.... Not me, why?
I had very foamy saliva, stiff muscles, twisting and slithering, making unusual sounds, gush.. That day... But it's over, I have my sniper.
Everyone be nice and enjoy your health and freedom. I love you Stella and all the bvs. R. I. P in advance..
Bye to epilepsy... I wish I had other disability like no hands, no legs, blind, deaf, bedridden, not this epilepsy
*Will drinking the Sniper free you from pain? Maybe yes but you will face God in Judgement for ending your life.
I dont know what to say further than, PLEASE DONT DO IT... Hold on for God, you have tried everything else and it didnt work, try God!!! Please try replying in the comment section.
AND THROW THAT SNIPER AWAY!!!
This brought tears to my eyes. Poster, you've held on for a long time, why take your life now? Don't allow the devil get in your head. Suicide is NEVER the way out.
ReplyDeletePoster PLEASE PLEASE DON'T DO IT!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOU CAN OVERCOME EPILEPSY..DON'T COMMIT SUICIDE PLEASE STELLA POST THIS COMMENT CONTACT THESE NUMBERS 08091116264 OR 08111680686 PLEASE I BEG YOU..THEY ARE READY TO HELP..GOD HELP YOUR DAUGHTER FROM THIS PAIN...
DeleteThis is mind boggling and terribly sad
DeletePoster please don't give up now, hang in there.
DeleteThere's so much waiting for you here while you still live. Where are you atm? Please see a neurosurgeon asap and follow his instructions.
You have tried everything, right? Now, it's time to try God; I'm a witness that there's nothing impossible for him. You sending this chronicle here means something and I will appreciate if you have a little more patience.
Please tell us you're still here. Sending you lots of love and ehugsπ€π€π
Same here πππ. Poster z please why not lay all your worries at the feet of the Lord? He will help you. This is so sad.
DeletePoster PLEASE I BEG YOU DONT DO IT. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE YOU. YOU CAN OVERCOME EPILEPSY. I HAVE NUMBERS OF PSYCHOLOGISTS I FOLLOW ON IG. PLEASE DONT DO IT I BEG OF YOU
DeletePoster please throw away that sniper.
DeleteMy mum use to hallucinate, shouting at things, sometimes she goes mad, sometimes she's ok but never for long. She could be so aggressive that she is taking or fighting spirit (so she say). We used to think it was spiritual until we took her to Yaba neurologist center. Please poster take a visit to this place cos I know that epilepsy have to do with the
brain. You will be okay. I don't know you but I love you. Please throw that bottle away!
Now poster read this:
Delete1. God is about to remove the ailment; Satan has seen it that's why he started whispering to you to end your life.
2. Your destiny is so great that the devil had to bring something really bad so you cannot fulfil destiny.
Now do this and all the nonsense will evaporate.
Go to any catholic church and buy "thank you Jesus" rosary. It has 200 beads. Hold each one of them and say THANK YOU JESUS. Go round the roll 5 times, making 1000 times everyday. You'll be shocked at what will happen in a very short time (shorter than you can imagine).
Please make sure you send a chronicle of testimony when they start rolling in.
NB: I do this everyday of my life and if I tell you what has happened to me, you'll know God is real.
Also after the thank you Jesus, declare Matt. 8:17 and Isaiah 53:5
If you can, go out often and give alms to beggars. It speeds up answers to prayers.
I see a great woman who the devil wants to silence. You are healed in Jesus name. Amen.
GOD BLESS YOU!
My darling, listen to everyone and throw that sniper away. Please I beg you.
DeleteI offer you my heart in friendship. I am very funny. For instance: knock knock... who is there??? Reach out to me for the end to this joke. I don’t know much about epilepsy at the moment but I promise I’ll read up and learn how to support you. I will call you at every turn and help reignite your ginger.
Please stay and be my friend, I beg you.
My contact email is with Stella should you choose to take me up on my offer. Please stay, 1day, 2days, 50yrs and the world will be brighter for it.
I love you.
Poster abeg you hold on i know somebody who will help you by God s grace let me go look for the number
DeletePoster,pls don't do it. I'm a pharmacist. Try a keto diet. Google it. As a pharmacist, I still know there are some ailments just drugs can't cure. Kids with seizures are placed on the ketogenic diet and it works wonders. Trust me. I know. God bless you.
DeleteHmmmmm..... this is so painful.
DeleteI have no help to offer, I can't even pretend I know what/how you feel..
A medical doctor once said anyone who suffers seizure shld stay away from cooking cubes (maggi).
Now to the real solution that I can prefer. When matter gets out of hand like this, we go back to the ultimate power who has power over all, God through his son Jesus Christ.
My prescription:
1) Next Level Prayers with Pastor Bolaji Idowu of Harvesters International Christian Center, Mondays tru Friday @6:30am on Instagram n YouTube.
2) NSPPD prayers everyone weekday with Pst. Jerry Eze of Stream of Joy International, every weekday from 7am. Pls search YouTube for videos.
The testimonies are mind blowing. God is really kind, loving and merciful, turns around the most hopeless of situations. Too many testimonies have come out of these prayers that leave me in tears most of the time.
Pls join, God loves you and is aware of your pain and embarrassment.pls give His one last try and see Him come thru for you. He had a plan before creating you, pls don't let the enemy have the last laugh. Your victory is certain, pls try Him one more time and come back with a testimony chronicle. We are eagerly waiting to read that.
God loves you, Jesus loves you, the Holy Ghost loves you and they are waiting to here you call for help again. I love you too and belief with you that your testimony chronicle soon be read here by us all.
Jechix, that thank you rosary is like jazz or magic. The few times I have had cause to use it I got a phone call while stil holding it pertaining the reason for the prayer.
DeleteGRATITUDE moves all mountains. The poster is doing the very opposite.
Please poster gluten foods should not be in ur food that's what oyibo people are using to stop seizure s
DeleteDon't end your life please.
DeleteI have prayed for you and still praying for you.
DeleteHold on
Your change is coming
Am so sorry this is coming late . But poster am a mental health nurse and epilepsy is treated as a mental disorder. You have nothing to be ashamed of darling. I understand you must have gone through alot of stigma because of the illness. Pls visit a mental health hospital. I don't know your location or I would have directed you. Pls pls don't give up. It can be managed successfully. You are loved.. stay strong sweets
DeleteI think they have local medicine for epilepsi in uganda. I feel sad for you please dont do it.
ReplyDeletePlease visit the neurology unit in any teaching hospital near you. There are many newer medications for epilepsy. Also you may be a candidate for epilepsy surgery. Dont give up. Every problem has a solution.
DeleteMaybe there's something triggering it.
DeleteI love so much Poster even though I've never met you.
You're strong.
You'll win this. You can do it.
Suicide isn't the way.
If you want, we can do this together.
You're strong.
To have gone through so much π₯°π₯°π₯°.
Many people are going through worst situations than yours my dear and they're still very hopeful and alive.
Don't give up on yourself my friend.
I love you ❣️❣️❣️
I love you too @ Poster.
DeleteYou are strong
You have held on this long
Throw away that Sniper
Eternity is endless.
Explore the option of surgery and newer medications as mentioned above.
I wish you well.
Hugsssssssss❤️
Dear Poster, I feel your pain,you resilience and courage. It is hard to live with a disability like the one you mentioned. I will encourage you to explore options abroad. As a health worker in “the abroad “ I have seen people well managed and the live an almost normal life rid of epileptic fits. Since you noted that your family can afford this please do not give in to suicide. Love life and protect it. I pray God continue to guide you.
DeleteI am currently reading a book,When Breath Becomes Air by Paul Kalanithi. There is probably something in your brain that triggers the seizure and surgery can help.
ReplyDeleteI don't know the solutions you have sought in the past, but if you have not consulted a neurosurgeon, and gone for brain scans, you could try doing so.
I totally understand how you feel, and since you have the financial capability, keep going through every option presented, you'll never know the one that will proffer a final solution.
Please don't give up, God is still in the business of answering prayers.
Sending you hugs π€π€π€π€ππ₯°
Poster have you tried Cbd oil? It works. Reply this. And I will send you one free. Pls reply me. Don’t give up yet. Your miracle may just be round the corner
Delete@ anon 16.37 yeah CBD oil is great,better still try medicinal marijuanna, it works wonders and always keep your body temperature normal or a little cold,avoid heat by all mean,HEAT triggers epilepsy,I believe you will see changes except your epilepsy ailment ain't ordinary cos it could be spiritual,some evil people do cast this ailment on people.one aunty I know has a son that suffered epilepsy for so many years in Nigeria,till they relocated abroad,the Doctors did numerous test on him and his tests came back Good,they were advised to start keeping him away from heat and make sure he is kept cool all the time,his parents didn't believe such a simple thing could work for all they have been through with their son's condition but they started doing as instructed anyway,to their surprise the boy stopped having seizures,and it's been 6yrs now that the boy had a seizure last*******PLEASE POSTER DO NOT KILL YOURSELF
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DeletePlease don't commit suicide..
ReplyDeleteIf you have no friends let me be your friend..
I know someone very well who was healed of your kind of sickness,it was gradually but she was healed..
Please don't give up, when God has not given up on you..
If you want to talk with me, you can get my email address from Stella..
Please suicide is never the solution,God loves you and I'm ready to be your friend..
Good God, please intervene.
ReplyDeleteYou are the God of all impossibilities, please intervene. Do not allow the lie of the devil to work on this Your handmaid, Jehovah please intervene and show this loved child of God that You love her so much, and wants her to live.
Dearest, please live, stay alive and God will remove this shame and reproach from you forever ,in such a way that it will only be a memory.
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So u want all ur parents labored for to be in vain? My nephew has epilepsy and like u say it truly is not easy but once there is life there is hope. U will find some people who will accept u for who I are and life will go on well. U are even lucky u got a medical diagnosis. What if u were taken to church for spiritual cleansing? Pls my dear dont kill urself. Live and give hope to other sufferers. It is well!!
DeleteHi Poster,
ReplyDeleteMy first advice is THROW THAT SNIPER AWAY.
My second advice is dont give up, try another hospital, a specialist hospital, you might be surprised, your case isnt unique, it can be managed.
My third and ultimate advice is seek God. He indeed has the final say.
It is well with your soul.
Dear poster, are you willing to talk with someone about this? Can we talk?
ReplyDeleteIf you are, let me know under my comment so I can reach Stella for your contact.
My dear please dont end your life like this. God has a plabln for your life. Try watching New season prophetic prayers and declaration (NSPPD) God will definitely visit you.
ReplyDeleteDon't give up, no dear not today..Jesus came to defeat the works of Darkness..Please hang on Join the NSPPD, you can go on youtube now and watch the videos by Pst Jerry Eze..yeah I know you just smirked..but atleast give your beautiful future a fighting chance, the loving husband and wonderful children you will birth.. Epilepsy will not be your r end..Come let's fight for your dreams...
DeleteThank you. I was hoping to see this type of comment otherwise I would have stated it. Poster God works wonders, what he cannot do does not exist. He will visit you soon, please join the fire prayer (NSPPD) by Pastor Jerry Eze, 7am Monday to Friday. Our God does not fail. Stay safe and stay alive to see your testimony manifest. You are beautiful.
DeletePoster, I love you so much. Please stay alive for God loves you too.
DeleteWatch NSPPD Monday to Friday 7am on Instagram or YouTube or Facebook...
God will deliver you from it. Just hold on...
Oh dear, this is the first time I'll be nice with my comment, this poster just brought out the soft part of me, my cousin had this same problem when I was younger, but thank God today she's completely healed, I just want u to know that if u commit suicide, u are going straight to HELL and I don't think hell is a better option, if u live in Port Harcourt, I will like to visit u, who knows, I can be of help, plz don't kill yourself, think about your family who has stood by you all these years, all Stella's Bvs loves you, plz don't do it.
ReplyDeleteHmmmm. It would have been better you kept quiet you sadist!
DeleteSo you are human?
Oh you have real life issues too?
But chose to be pouring frustration out here right?
Truly, broken people break others!
Smell off abeg!
Ps: poster I sympathise with you. This imp knows why this comment came. Has nothing to do with u ok?
Angel u didn’t prefer any solution or what your cousin did to get better, what’s the point of your comment when u didn’t say anything about the solution? Nawa e for better u keep quiet and continue your bad comments as usual
DeleteHmmmmmmm life....this life no balance at all.
ReplyDeletePlease poster its time you surrender all to God. THERES NOTHING GOD CANT DO.
Please trust God again,hes h able and capable to heal you,hell is where you'll go to if you take your life,why suffer here and suffer worse in hell,my sister,God is willing and able to take it away,please please trust him again,it's ending in praise
ReplyDeleteGod has a purpose for your life. Please i beg you don't kill yourself
ReplyDeleteWhat God cannot do does not exist, please don’t take ur life. Type nsppd on YouTube or Facebook and join the prayers, I am a witness that God is able
ReplyDeleteStella had to bring this here because a lot of you ignored on the ig picture post.This person needs all the encouragement she can get and this blog is supposed to be a family.I have seen people suffer from epilepsy and it’s bad,very very bad..poster,if you are abroad in a country that has good healthcare,I thank God for you but if you’re in Nigeria,I feel very bad for you but pls don’t kill yourself cos if you do,you not only lose the chance of getting better(which is very possible)you also will commit a great sim.pls get close to people that truly love God because they will treat you with dignity and respect,cry to God and he will answer.
ReplyDeleteI was surprised too that nobody replied the poster yesterday
DeletePoster the solution to seizure is God, be anxious for nothing but with prayer and supplication look unto him ππππππππππ
Nobody ignored the poster, you people shouldn't be typing just for the sake of it. I myself dropped like two comments for the gorgeous and strong angel but didn't see it. I personally felt that Stella didn't want that particular segment filled with a comment that didn't Correlate so yes, i commented.
DeleteDear poster, please mi amor, don't take your life hun, please don't. Take it to God in prayers and please kindly read all the solutions and advice here, God shall make you testify you drop dead fine ass warrior QUEEN π❤️.
Dear poster I'm sending lots of e-hugs.. I may not particularly understand what you are going through but trust me sucide should not be your last resort.
ReplyDeletePlease don't do it.. To be honest we don't have it all everyone is struggling with one thing or the other..
I pray that God will heal you,I pray you find solution.
This brought tears to my eyes. If you are reading this and you live in Port Harcourt, I will like to be your friend. Pls don't take the sniper. Pls I beg you.
ReplyDeletePoster please hold on, don't take your life mbok. Join nsppd morning prayers mon-fridays on either YouTube, Instagram or Facebook. It starts at 7am and Watch this affliction from the pit of hell end and your life will be turned around for good. Please try God since you have done everything else and it's not working. You can even watch today's replay on YouTube. NSPPD!
ReplyDeletePlease contact me if you are in Nigeria.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing God can't do.
Dont take your life after everything you have been through. Instead keeping pushing and soon it will be like a dream
It will a thing of the past. Juat imagine you not remembering you use tibhave seizures bcoz it just stopped
Oh my God! If I say I understand exactly how you feel, I'm not saying the truth but please I beg you in God's name. Don't end it all, there's still hope my dear sister.
ReplyDeleteWe are all covering our pains with our outfits, I'm sure you understand what I mean. I'm encouraging you to please hold on, your freedom is so near.
I love you dear!!!π€π€π€
This is so sad.
ReplyDeletePoster you didn't create yourself so don't try to kill yourself.
This life na as person see am e dey live. Hold on to God and all your shame will e wiped away. Keep hoping upon hope, light will come.
It is well with you.
I do not normally comment, But Somehow I feel I have to stop you. please reach out let us discuss. I know supplemements that can help added to your drugs, I know common triggers because I have friends that experience it. I dont want to leave my contact, ut please mail me on herbalfrontprescriptions@gmail.com. Please
ReplyDeletepls dont do it. pls
ReplyDeletePlease don't do it poster.plese
ReplyDeleteMy darling, I won't even try to understand how you feel because I can't. Know that everyone has their version of darkness they pass through! Google NSPPD, GOD is real and what HE cannot do does not exist!! You are freed from this affliction! GOD will locate you, I pray for you in JESUS name, Amen!
ReplyDeleteSo SAD. I can imagine what she's been through. Many of these individuals, if they don’t lose their lives to EPILEPSY, may lose them from the sheer weight of depression and other psychiatric sequelae that are simply too much to bear. I don't know the answer/solution. Perhaps, a multi-team approach is needed in managing these patients and allowing for them to live as normal lives as is feasibly possible.
ReplyDeleteTry KETO DIETING - because it forces the body into ketosis, a state in which the body burns its reserves of fat. Doctors don't know why, but this state seems to reduce epileptic seizures.
Omg rockstar, I was just about to type this. YES to Keto diet. She needs to cut out anything white carbs and go on very very very low carbs with whole grain food. This little girl I was reading online went on keto diet and she’s on day 16 seizure free so far and counting...so yea try KETO
DeleteRockstar, you are really a Rockstar! The poster should get on Keto diet and intermittent fasting. Stop all carbohydrates right away and dose up on healthy fats-Olive oil, kerry gold butter, coconut oil, fatty meat- you'll see a remarkable improvement in your condition.
DeleteDear poster if I can talk to you. If only you can read this. You're not alone. Yes I said we. I also know the feeling(though mildly). You're afraid of being mocked. Struggle with telling dates about your condition for fear of being rejected. You keep asking if you'll ever be entirely happy.
ReplyDeleteI'm a testimony to all of the above. God saved me. I'm not healed completely but God showed me my triggers. Yes, there's a trigger. For me it was stress and anxiety. For others it's overcrowding, heat, cold, mild illnesses, anxiety, depression etc.
You're not alone and you too can survive this.
Be proud of who you are and what you've become. Be proud of what God has given to you over the years.
But once you end your life, you've lost. We all have lost. I hate being in a loosing team. I'm team you. I'm rooting for your testimony.
Try a neurosurgeon since money isn't a handicap. Please try hard to keep a positive mindset, I know it is not easy but your healing is possible. Hang in there, my dear, God has a plan for you.
ReplyDeleteIf money is not setup a go fund me I will contribute. Just reach out to Stella to announce it but make sure you are referred to a neurosurgeon cos that's the only cure to this. If you can go to Tanzania cos I read a story of a lady who had a free brain surgery the cos their govt hospitals are free please by all means go the.
DeleteI'm upset! Like really boiling inside of me..so many situations could have been averted if you were surrounded by family or help. You needed a CHAPERONE at all times, why were you even allowed to move around on your own?! π‘π€¦π»♀️
ReplyDeleteCouple of things should be your constant companion and never leave you side:
* A monitor for your heart rate (Theres always a spike before seizure)
* Steam controllers to reduce blackouts
* Most importantly, a chaperone with your doctor and guidance numbers on speed dial.
I'm sorry for all that happened to you but you can salvage this, sweetheart. If you are abroad, there's a support group for epilepsy/seizure and it's not even hard to find, just visit any reputable org and get all the details.
Suicide isn't the way out, we fall down but we get up. Sis, it's time to get up and stop feeling hopeless. God is not through with you so don't give up. You will overcome this, hang in there. ππ»❤
Many people with epilepsy get dogs. When they grow with u they can study when a seizure is coming and alert u. My nephew has bad seizures and its being managed.
DeleteSuicide is never and can never be an option. Poster pls don't take your life, trust and hold God tight, whatever HE can't do doesn't exist.
DeleteHold it before you gulp the insecticide.
ReplyDeleteFollow the instructions below as a matter of urgency.
Go get a 10 naira biscuit and a carbonated drink - I prefer Pepsi.
Unwrap the biscuits and place it in a plate.
Pour 2-3 spoonful of soft drink into a cup.
Get at least two people to stay with you. Tell them you need two witnesses for the Private Feast.
Look for a Bible and open it to John 6:53-57.
Read the Bible verses out loud and pour out your soul. Ask the Lord Jesus to prove His power in your life before the two witnesses.
Declare the biscuits flesh of Jesus and the drink His blood.
Eat the flesh (biscuits) and drink the blood (soft drink/juice).
**I understand you may not be a Christian. Just follow the instruction, please.**
Ask Jesus to deliver you from epilepsy.
One of two things will happen:
1. You will have a seizure. (As a reaction if evil spirit is involved)
If not..
2. You will experience absolute peace. (You will need a follow up if #2 happens)
I will intercede for you here.
The instruction is obviously foolish and a joke, but do it anyway.
If you pull through today and need further help, post an update and I will reach out.
Stella, please approve.
My cousin got healed from the same problem at Anambra. Try and investigate, ask questions. I know that you have been doing that . Don't give up. The Lord is on your side. Get healed in Jesus name.
ReplyDeleteThis your predicament broke me but I still believe there is nothing God cannot do,because what he cannot do does not exist,God is the Master physician,it is true that nothing holds value when health is in jeopardy,but the state of perfect health is the will of God for all his covenant children,3rd John 2,James 5:3,stop speaking what is happening for death and life are in the power of the tongue,inside God's word lies God's life and inside God's life lies the health you desire .
ReplyDeleteIs there a way to reach you personally?
Dear poster, I read you say you have tried all the medicine you know but have you tried Jesus, he is our messiah(saviour), what Jesus cannot do doesn't exist. You need to go to him not for healing first but because you want him to abide in you and I trust you will overcome by the Blood of the Lamb and all things will become new in your life Amen. Your testimony is just around the corner why don't you persevere a little longer.
DeleteVickiie
My dear, where there is life there is hope.
ReplyDeletePls, let me be your friend.
What part of Nigeria do you live pls?
I really want to be friends with you.
Oh Dear poster
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your ordeal
Please don’t do anything irrational
There’s hope
Medications, surgery, dogs that let u know when a seizure is coming, support groups.
Please be patient there’s hope.
The frequency of your seizure occurrence is too frequent that tells me you are probably under medicated
Please hang in there solution is coming.
Also ask Stella to share a generic email so those of with ideas n suggestions can contact you.
No o it doesn’t mean. My nephew is over medicated and still has over 3 seizures a day.
Delete@ Anonymous 15:59. Has your nephew tried medical marijuana/CBD and Keto diet? Asking so we can get feedback from others who have used it. Seen documentaries on both (separately, not together) for this type of condition and it may help the poster eliminate or adopt natural remedies
DeleteI don't usualy comment but i want you to know that if you take sniper you will go to hell.
ReplyDeleteJesus loves you with a wild love and Nothing can separate you from the love of God he knew you even before you were concieved in your mothers womb and trust me inspite of what you are facing he has a plan for you a very special one he wants to help will you let him? Turn to him completely today all you need is jesus.#what God cannot do does not exist!
If you need a friend i can be your friend/prayer partner drop your contact with stella.
You are loved!!
You won’t see Dante in this post
DeletePoster please don’t take your life. God has purpose for your existence, trust in him for he is God of miracles and he never fails. Please don’t give up. Oh God please heal your daughter!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to say to you poster but I will only beg you not to give up. There is a local remedy for this condition. And it works. Please go to all those Yoruba women that do herbs. They have solutions for you. Don't give up. Please I am begging you. Please discard that Snipper. I think the govt really needs to stop the sales of this Snipper. Or they should do something with the packaging and the content. Please πππ don't give up. Please.
ReplyDeleteDear Poster, i hope you are still alive to read these comments, please if you are kindly heed to our advise, i am sure you still have hope hence your writing in for us to encourage you.
ReplyDeletenow you have done your part as a human being, now let go and let God take control, let him take charge of this situation, there is nothing too hard for him to do, he just wants you to surrender to him so he will show you himself. please kindly discard that poison, that's the Devil talking to you, because he can see that there is hope on the way but he wants you to miss it.
if nobody loves you, all of us at Stella's Blog love you and we are your friends please. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF the devil will have the satisfaction he wants, pleasee sweetheart God has not forsaken you, he wants you to turn to him ok. i love you
My room mate in school had this same issue back then. His case was just as bad as yours.
ReplyDeleteWith time, it stopped.
I know you might not want physical visits at this time, but I strongly believe that you need someone to talk to. I promise to call, chat and talk to you every single day if you let me.
If you believe in God or fate, then there must be a reason why God allowed me to read your post at this time.
I understand your pain and I know that the life you're currently living is hard. It's easy for us to sit down behind our phones and pretend as if we care, but I really mean it when i say i want to be a friend.
Can you please postpone the suicide till just another week? I strongly believe that by then, you will realize other reasons to live.
Please give all the genuine BVs a chance to prove to you that life can also be wonderful.
Just one week, i assure you that you'll see things differently. Just one week please.
Oh Dear!
ReplyDeleteGoing to Hell is never an option,
No one can understand Your pain right now but GOD.
I know You must have prayed hard for solution,
Don't give up now,
Help is on the way,
You are no longer alone,
A million and One people who read your post offered Prayers on your behalf to Him who created You , believing Miracles for You, I am one of them.
Instead of drinking that poison,
Why not start Praising GOD and Blessing His Holy for sending Help Your way.
Pray to read your Testimonies very Soon,
You will be fine in Jesus Mighty Name Amen.
Poster, please don't do that, that road you're about to take is so lonely and you will probably end up in the worst place
ReplyDeleteA friend sister was healed of it, someone here should know what you should use to stop this seizure
We will all come together and bring our ideas, so you can try new methods of medicine or help. Just hold on please. You will always be in my prayers.
Please don't do it. God loves you and I know with time you will be fine. You've come this far already.
ReplyDeleteRebuke the devil and his lies. There is no peace in hell. Please don't do it..
If you need someone to talk to, you can click on my name and send me an email. Don't do it please.
*hugs* at 2/3 times a day, the seizures are quite frequent. Have the doctors talked about surgery before? Hang on hun, throw that sniper away, hang on, let's find a solution. A lot of people have successfully overcome epilepsy with time. Forgive the ones who treated you bad and took advantage of your challenge, they acted out of ignorance and in their own dark volition. Please hang on. Keep hope burning, please hang on.
ReplyDeletePls I beg u in the name of God, don’t kill yourself, remember ur parents who died trying to find solutions to this. Pls pls my sister. Can I be ur friend, am miles away but we can talk and chat whenever you want. Pls there is light at the end of the tunnel
ReplyDeleteDear poster, sorry about all you have been through. please throw away the sniper. God is doing amazing strange miracles. Please search for NSPPD online, God has remembered you. He will restore lost years. Please dear poster,i beg you in the name of God, throw away the sniper and do not do anything to harm yourself. It is well with you
ReplyDeleteYou know what God cannot do doesn't exist. Take it to him in prayers. Please don't take your life. I will remember you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pains dear but please do not commit suicide. Hold on. Have you tried God. Give your life to Jesus, read your bible daily and God will come through for you, for with God, all things are possible. Pray and praise God. Be grateful for life cos some people have it worse. Your miracle is here already, don't quit now.i love you. God loves you. Jesus loves you. It is well with you. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteDear Poster, please do not take your life, you're precious to God. Why don't you join NSPPD on Monday at 7am on either via Youtube, Facebook or Instagram, you'll see the wonders of God happen for you. Meanwhile, you can search on Youtube for past videos of NSPPD prayers, listen to the testimonies and be encouraged for WHAT GOD CANNOT DO DOES NOT EXIST! I await your testimony. You're loved.
ReplyDeleteThere s solution to it na. Very simple thing. They dont even charge for it sef cause whoever's charges for it takes the curse. But the truth is there is a solution.
ReplyDeleteYes yorubas have a solution for it and you must not charge for it.
DeleteThere a solution and yet u guys are not saying what the solution is or where to get the solution nawa
DeleteAnonymous talk the solution. Tell her what to do or who to meet or how to contact you.
DeleteJust here π π π crying my eyes out.
ReplyDeletePls poster I beg u πππ don't do it.
You can drop your number so that we all can share your pain and burden.
Please try God. Can you trust Him, that none of your hairs can fall off without his notice?You are that important to Him. I know it has not been easy but dont give up when God has not and to be frank with you, there is nothing impossible with him. Jesus did not die in vain because your health and healing was one thing he died for! Search the the scriptures and use the word of God and the name of Jesus because they are instruments
ReplyDeleteRecently on BBC Yoruba, I watched as a woman shared her story. She had carried pregnancy to terms Nine times, and lost the baby nine times. she never went home with the children for once but do you know after the lost of the ninth baby she was introduced to a woman that knows about her case and she gave her the right medication.
ReplyDeleteGuess what? After taken the drug, she conceived for the tenth time, deliver the baby safely and not only that went home with her child, as at the time she did the interview the child is over ten years old. What am I saying my sister, your solution is around the corner. A problem shared is half solved, by sharing this testimony here, you definitely get your solution.
Please THROW that snipper or whatever the poison away now. I will read your testimony in Jesus name. Take my virtual hug
PLEASE DO NOT TAKE YOUR LIFE DEAR. GOD IS STILL IN THE BUSINESS OF DOING MIRACLES. TRY TO BE JOINING "NEW SEASON PROPHETIC PRAYER AND DECLARATION, NSPPD" 7am MONDAY TO FRIDAY ON INSTAGRAM OR FACEBOOK IF YOU CAN. GOD IS NOT ASLEEP. HE WILL SURELY REMEMBER YOU. WHAT GOD CANNOT DO, DOES NOT EXIST. IT WILL END IN PRAISE, AMEN
ReplyDeleteOoh dear,
ReplyDeleteListen what God can't do doesn't exist dearie. There's solution for every problem.
Please don't take kill yourself πππ
Have faith please no matter how little, just believe..
Please poster I'm begging you in the Name of Jesus Christ The Healer, throw that sniper away!
ReplyDeletePlease give Jesus Christ a chance, He will heal you completely. Just Surrender your life to Him, right now, and He will do the impossible in your life - permanent healing. He endured so much pain and humiliation so that you don't have to undergo an pain whatsoever.
Please give your life to Christ, that's the first step. Please and please, it is so worth it. Please.
Kindly say this prayer with faith, please:
Lord Jesus Christ, I come to You just as I am. I ask that You forgive me my sins. I believe that You are the Son of God. I believe that You died for me on the cross of calvary for the salvation of my soul. I believe that You rose on the third day for my healing and perfection. I accept You as my Personal Lord and Savior. Thank You Lord.
I Pray for you poster, by the Power of the Holy Spirit, I bind the spirit of infirmity in your life and I cast it out in the Mighty Name Of Jesus Christ. The Word of God says in Isaiah 53:4, 5 that He has borne your griefs and carried your sorrows... He was wounded for your transgressions and bruised for your iniquities, the chastisement of your peace was upon Him and BY HIS STRIPES YOU ARE HEALED. I declare you healed from the crown of your head to the soles of your feet, In the Mighty Name Of Jesus Christ, Amen.
I love you poster and I'm praying for you, for total restoration in the Mighty Name Of Jesus Christ, Amen.
I prayed for you Dear Poster and I know you have received your permanent healing.
DeleteYour case is easy in Jesus Mighty Name, Amen.
There is a similar case like this in the Bible - Matthew 17:14-18; Mark 9:17-27 and Lake 9:14-18. Please Poster read these verses and see that your case is truly easy.
Jesus Christ, He's the Ultimate Permanent Healer.
Hmmm. Reading your Chronicle brought eyes to my soul. Let me be your friend, someone you could talk, walk , play and pray with. THROW AWAY THAT SNIPER. What God cannot do doesn't exist. If you're in port Harcourt let me take you to Pastor David Ibiyeomie of Salvation Ministries. You cant suffer like this on earth and also suffer in hell for taking your own live. Cause the voice the devil telling you to commit suicide with the blood of Jesus
ReplyDeletePls poster do not take that sniper. You do not have any right to take your own life. Pray and believe in God, he will heal you perfectly.
ReplyDeleteNothing else to say
ReplyDeleteLovely bvs have said it all
Please hold on,God will do it,He's able to do ALL things.
You are loved.πππ
Dear poster, God has kept you alive for a purpose, please don’t cut your life short because your deliverance is near. Keep being hopeful and faithful in God, he’ll send help your way and cause you to smile again. Sending you love and light.
ReplyDeleteDear sister, this chronicle broke me into a million pieces, I truly understand how you feel but trust me yours isn’t the worst. My younger sister became deaf as a child when she fell ill with children’s convulsion and ended up with a bad doctor who damaged her ability to hear, after a while she couldn’t speak words one could comprehend and few years later, she became epileptic, don’t know how that happened, it stopped her from going to school. She dropped out from primary school due to epilepsy and now she’s a grown woman with no education or a job. Worst is when we lost our mom, I pray God keeps our dad long enough for her. In his words- “the day I die, I pray to God that he takes Rita too” because he fears, no one will understand her and be patient with her like he would. The first day I experienced my sister’s episode, I literarily died and came back to life. It was the worst reality to me cos while I was still praying for a miracle for her to start hearing, then this?
ReplyDeleteThat day of my discovery, she kept having seizures from night till the evening, she couldn’t eat anything al through because it was from one episode to the other. I kept wailing like I’d die. She lost so much weight that day. Ever since she been on daily medication and the day she forgets it? Hmmmm
I narrated all that to say this, as difficult as what you are going through is, you are not with the worst experience in this life and you must push harder to overcome this evil, haven’t you heard that when there’s life, there’s hope?
Please throw that sniper away sis, I know that you have tried, but please try again, push more. Don’t give up now. Stay with God and plead your case before him. The life of hell after death is worst than this monster. The lie the devil tries to tell you is that the pain will be over once you take your life but that will only open the door to greater torture.
If you need a friend, I am here to talk and walk with you, so we can both find a solution to this monster for you and my sister.
Oh lord.. this brought tears, I don't understand why God allow some things, I'm happy you are strong, please poster let this story encourage you, you will overcome!!!
DeletePls connect to the 7am prayer on NSPPD for deliverance for her , people are testifying
DeleteYou guys should try hearing aid for your sister. She might greatly benefit from it. Also heard keto diet works. She needs to cut out white carbs as it triggers seizures a lot. Goodluck your sister and family
DeleteDear poster please hold on a bit... If you can, just drop a contact or a number, you will be amazed how all of us here would look forward to talking to you and telling you how awesome a person you are. My fellow Bvs right?? Let's show her love.
ReplyDeletePlease don't take your life. Suicide is never an option.
ReplyDeleteMy baby sis had this, despite her medications she was always having episodes though not as bad as yours. Her misdiagnosis worsened her case till she was asked to see a neurologist, did MRI. For years she battled this,she had episodes almost everywhere- classroom, lecture hall, gatherings, e.t.c. Whenever she was out of the house we were always expecting calls so our phones was never out of sight.
On one her appointments, she asked her neurologist what's the worse case scenario if she stopped her meds as she doesn't think it's working. He advised her against it but her mind was made up. We also advised against it even though I had my suspicions on why she took that decision.
Then she continued to pray about it and was hopeful. Since then (2015) till now she hasn't had one epileptic episode. There was something I noticed about hers, it most times had a trigger.
I'm sharing this because I understand how embarrassing and frustrating this can be, but I also want to let you know that there's nothing difficult for God to do. Just have a little faith please, the Balm of Gilead is still the same and the word of God already says you're healed by His stripes. God will heal you and perfect all that concerns your health. Don't stop declaring God's word on that situation. Suicide is never an option. Don't take your life please.
Oh dear. This is sad. Very sad. Dear poster, I may not be wearing your shoes but I understand exactly how you feel. Also I am not in the best position to rekindle your zeal to live, but from your write-up i deduce money is not a problem to you. Sometimes medications does not solve the problem, surgery does. Why not visit a Neurologist. I was reading about John Hopkins hospital and how they operated on an epileptic patient one time. All hope is not yet lost my dear.
ReplyDeleteI wrote under the IG post, Poster plz just hold on. I know that must be hard but plz hold on❤.
ReplyDeleteHold on! Hold on.
ReplyDeleteFor the lord has remembered you,your miracle is near,just hold on sisπ€π€π€π€
Poster you need to cut out anything white carbs and go on very very very low carbs with whole grain food. Like brown rice. White carbs damages the health a lot and heard it affects the brain which triggers seizures. Eat lots of vegetables. Limit fruits and anything sugar. Good fruit and food to eat while on keto diet. This little girl I was reading online went on keto diet and she’s on day 16 seizure free so far and counting...so yea try KETO
ReplyDeleteDon’t do it.... don’t take your life. Throw that sniper away.
ReplyDeletePlease report this to the police in Nigeria. Hopefully, they can find her before she harms herself. I am of course assuming that she is in Nigeria.
ReplyDeleteIn the name of our Lord Jesus Christ who bore your sicknesses and diseases, BE HEALED THIS MINUTE!. Please do not take your life. Your help is on the way. It is already here.
ReplyDeletetheir is cure for that if u will live for me to ask my mother i believe u dont have to take ur life cos there is plenty of good things to live for.
ReplyDeleteanyone who will treat u on that wont take money that is the only cure for that so wait cos my mom has help someone like u before and now shes free plzzz live for better things ahead plzzz u dont have to take ur life.
ReplyDeletePlease mail stellakoko to be linked to her. Please...
DeletePlease don't kill yourself
ReplyDeleteI feel so sad now reading this chronicle but sincerely there is a way out...
ReplyDeleteGive God an opportunity to make things change for better in ur life
Please don't take your life
ReplyDeleteIt is easy for people to talk. But he who wears the shoe, knows where it pains. I hope you see this Poster Z. I can't say you will be fine, I'm not GOD. But I don't think dying is the answer. I'm offering to pray for you. GOD has a plan for you. I don't know what else to say.
ReplyDeleteThis is sad. I cried reading this and dont know how you feel but pls dont commit suicide pleaseππ
ReplyDeleteThis brought back memories of a loved one. I understand most of your pain. Don't harm yourself, the lord that kept you alive up till this moment has a solution for you hold on to him. I pray you live to conquer this, I will always have you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteSo am writing this with tears, i pray you read my comment. Praying is great and God is awesome but have you ever thought that this might be your purpose? To inspire someone, to motivate someone? WEAR WHO YOU ARE LIKE AN ARM BAND AND NO ONE CAN EVER USE IT TO HURT YOU. I can't imagine why you are hiding your beautiful self? Tell your story through youtube, through blogs, let people see you. Become that inspiration for millions of people, research doctors around the world, who knows God might lead the right doctor your way to help you out, eat healthy, worry less. I am ready to sign up on your channel and embark on this journey with you. Don't let the world shame you.
ReplyDeleteDon't let what people would say keep you back from living. You can beat this with God on your side and a beautiful mentality..
I love you so much. Help is on it's way. We don't give up until its over and i believe that you have a beautiful life ahead.
Poster please take note of this too. God has not yet finished with you. Your story has just begun.
DeleteWe are rooting for you. XOXO
This is my very first time commenting here, pls dear don't take your life. It is true you have tried everything humanly possible and I feel your pain. please try God!the one that has solution to every situation.
ReplyDeleteDear Poster,know this,you are loved and you are not alone.Suicide is never the answer no matter what.There is no problem in this world that doesn't have a solution as long as there is life.I'm praying for you,by the stripes of Jesus,you are healed.We the SDK family are rooting for you,you will come out of this bigger and stronger,sending you hugs,love and lightπππ
ReplyDeleteOh dear reading this alone broke me completely. Please stay, don't take your life. Just when you think it's over, it's actually the beginning of new and better things God will do in your life. Please read through and write back for us to know you have taken the right decision which is to live. We will always be here encouraging and praying for you. This too shall certainly pass believe it
ReplyDeletePls my dear,don't do it.. There is a live broadcast on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube from Mondays to Fridays every 7am. Just type nsppd on your search button,and God who had healed autistic children,brought the dead back to life,you definitely healed you of this.. The orphans have a special place in God's heart. I'm very sure that your situation is a very easy thing for God to do.. Pls my dear,join this on Monday,you can even listen to the previous broadcast, God will heal you my love...
ReplyDeletePlease DONT do it poster. I am in tears as I type this. Jesus loves you soooo much and He has a story only YOU can tell. I love you poster. PLEASE DONT DO IT.
ReplyDeleteI am not imagining what u are feeling. I know it cause I battle it for 18yrs. The shame, the pain and stigmatization is better horrible but I conquered, I overcame and I am a much better person. Here is my number, contact me and I will help you bu telling all I did, which was contrary to what my my neurosurgeon at the national hospital told me..08139132157. Stella thanks for all your work. I have been here for years but never contributed or commented but I need to let her know she can overcome
ReplyDeleteI overcame it after 18yrs. It was hard and tough but I did. It amazed my neurosurgeon. Here is my number 08139132157. Contact me. It's not a scam please but to encourage u not to give up
ReplyDeleteHello my darling poster. Don't take your life. Like Stella Said God will judge you. Join NSPPD ON MONDAY TO FRIDAY 7AM Nigeria time and see God take it away. Check for streams of joy international on Facebook. Pastor Jerry Eze. God bless you. Am waiting for your testimony
ReplyDeletePlease don't do it.
ReplyDeleteI reject the spirit of death hovering around. You are not taking this one . Loose your hold on her right now in the name of Jesus. Amen.
What God cannot do does not exist
You are loved and its the purpose and plan of God that you live a life of health.
I declare healing upon you.
Your health is restored
Your peace is restored
Your joy is restored
In Jesus Name .
Poster if i say i don't understand what you're going through, I'm a liar. My late elder brother was a victim. We did everything possible to get a cure, nothing worked. This brought so many bad memories to me. May God give you a testimony like never before. Please don't commit suicide please
ReplyDeleteThank you poster for pouring out your deepest emotions sincerely.
ReplyDeletePlease we beg you to hold on, the same hands of yours that typed this chronicle, will also come back to testify of God's curing miracle.
Stella thank you for all you do on this blog, I appreciate you. Pls give us update.
Poster you are loved and highly appreciated.
Please Stella, can you do a separate post on how we can reach out to the poster. At least to chat with her and for her to have people to talk to whenever she’s feeling down. I would love to talk to her please.
ReplyDeletePoster please don't end your life. God will take care of you still to the end, suicide shouldn't be considered as options. Holy spirit take absolute control, devil is a lier. Poster we here are your family and friends on this blog. Listen to us and desist from poison. I pray for permanent healing upon your life. God bless you real good π
ReplyDeletePoster pls don't take your life. Pls contact bv Leomasluv and other bvs whonsaid they have the solution to it. May God come through for you
ReplyDelete@ Poster, pls don't kill yourself yet, there is hope for you because nothing is impossible for God to do. My wife just told me the story of her former teacher who had epilepsy too years back, but today she is married and also a grandmother today. Pls kindly contact me so she can give you her facebook details for you to search for her, maybe she can be of help. It is well with you in Jesus name
ReplyDeleteI know you said you have tried so many medications from *abroad but they are so many new ones. I work with neurology a lot and yes, some of my patients have seizures several time a day but they also have underlying conditions. Is a vagal nerve stimulator an opiton for you? Do you have Lennox-Gastaut syndrome? I do not sense any intellectual issues from your post which is quite common of you had that many seizures as a baby/child. I will advise that you relocate to a developed country and see a neurologist/neurosurgeon before giving up..I hope you find some comfort in all the comments..
ReplyDeletePlease don't do it Poster. God will come through for you. You may have tried all you could. I am sure that your creator has not given up on you. Can you please hold on one last time because there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
ReplyDeleteOh Goodness!may Allah Grant u total healing, please hold on.
ReplyDeleteNO MATTER WHAT, YOUR FIRST AIM IS TO BE ALIVE. WHEN THERE'S LIFE,THERE'S HOPE.
ReplyDeleteSituation only get worse before they get better.
May God grant you the courage to stay alive to witness your better future.
BTW, you need to flush that sniper and trash the container..
Blessings
By the stripes of Jesus you are HEALED.Pls do not take your life. I believe in miracles. I am a witness.I was healed . All he requires is your FAITH.Even if it is as small as a mustard seed...
ReplyDeleteMy dear poster, you're not alone. My oldest daughter has epilepsy. We live outside Nigeria and we're blessed to be high earners, but epilepsy almost rendered us homeless. I'm sorry to read your parents died while trying their best to get you help. I'm sorry to read wicked men took advantage of you on occasions. But I can tell you, its not going to define you. I don't know how long each of your seizures last, but for my daughter, she used to have hour long fits. She could have back to back fits that went on for so long. Nothing helped. She always used to end up in A&E. All local paramedics knew our house. Once they sent a chopper to evacuate her. She had stroke at about age 10 as the pressure of the seizure was just too much. I prayed. We prayed. Do you know what I found out? Something minor that even specialists at the best hospitals could not tell me? I started observing that my daughter had seizures AFTER eating certain foods or drinks. The better I kept a food diary, the clearer the image became. Now, the picture is clearer, my daughter does not tolerate artificial colours, artificial preservatives etc. I don't know if certain foods or drinks could be your own trigger. Please make note of things you do before you get a seizure. Try and remove yourself from dangerous situations. And please don't lose hope. My daughter is almost 20yrs now. We pray she doesn't get any more seizures and we pray for a blessed and thoroughly happy life for her. Yours can be a blessed life too. This is not your end my dear. Please have a little more faith that things can improve no matter how bad things are.
ReplyDeletePoster, no matter what you do, please do not take your own life.
ReplyDeleteThrow the Sniper away now.
Poster, please don't use that sniper.. Help is on the way for you...❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€
ReplyDeleteDear poster,
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you. I can imagine what you are going through. Please don't do it. Have you done MRI of the brain to rule out tumors.
Are you being followed by a neurologist at all. Are you on any medications at all for this condition. Have you tried phenytoin? Epilepsy is definitely not a death sentence. A lot of people live a normal life with it, with little or no episodes at all.
Above all, take it to God in prayers. Alas, if you need someone to talk to respond to my comment and I will send my contact your way.
E-hugs. Sending you love and light.
Hang on, The Lord will perfect all that conserns you.
ReplyDeleteDear Poster, a lot of us are rooting you. I love you and this is not cliche. Don't take that dark road. Give us the opportunity to walk with you.
ReplyDeleteDear poster. Please hold on I have got a solution for you. I have a drug that can take care of epilepsy. My twin had it and the drug healed her. I still have it with me. Please dont kill yourself yet, if you tried this and it didn't work, then you can loose hope. Please drop your detail with stella and I will get it to you anywhere you are. Jesus, why am I just seeing this now. Hang on, hang on, hang on I beg you.
ReplyDeletePlease Stop all gluten foods u will get better
ReplyDeleteDon't eat dairy foods too
ReplyDeletePoster please I do care alot about you, do not attempt to kill yourself. Please I know there is solution for you. Please I would want to be your friend. I am in Lagos.
ReplyDeleteDear poster, I won't say I completely know what you are going through but I atleast have an inkling. I have struggled with severe mental illness and know what it is like to just want the pain to go away. That is what we crave when we have these ideations. To just have it all stop. I am so sorry for all you have been through and can't over emphasize the importance of a strong support system. Those people who understand and will never judge. The truth is sometimes medications and therapy might not be enough. Those friendship help and that has been a huge plus for me. I really pray that you don't take insecticide and decide to give it one more try. I am not a doctor but I can be your friend and help you however I can. I
ReplyDeletecan share my support system with you. Let's start from somewhere. We can try again please. I have struggled with severe bipolar disorder amongst other things for years so yes I have a little idea how it feels when everything seems to fail. I have been in your similar situation so many times. Please let's try one more time. You can reach out to me via ulomavo@gmail.com. Getting a mail from you will be the best birthday gift. I love you and no matter what you may think, you do matter.
Hold on, poster. You are greatly loved.
ReplyDeleteJust saw this ... Broken..remember the battle and let God help us win this struggle.. we love you!
ReplyDeleteI've just been crying all through.Please don't do it. There is nothing God cannot do. Remember how so loved you are by both families, for their sake and ours too on this blog, don't do it. All will be well. I don't know you but I love you, Can't stop crying
ReplyDeletePls don't take your life. Jesus loves you. Jesus can take it away from you completely and you will never have to experience it all the rest of your beautiful sojourn on earth. Jesus has never failed anyone. God bless and keep you are you consider turning it over to Jesus.
ReplyDeletePlease don’t do it. With God all things are possible.
ReplyDeleteDear, please don't do it. This is a demon at work, wanting to cut short your destiny. We love you and God loves you so much more. I know someone who can help. Please do send your number. PLEASE DON'T TAKE THAT SNIPER!!!!
ReplyDelete“Come to me, all of you who are tired and have heavy loads. I will give you rest. Accept my work and learn from me. I am gentle and humble in spirit. And you will find rest for your souls. The work that I ask you to accept is easy. The load I give you to carry is not heavy.”
ReplyDeleteMatthew 11:28-30. Jesus healed all diseases. He has healed epilepsy too.
“Come to me, all of you who are tired and have heavy loads. I will give you rest. Accept my work and learn from me. I am gentle and humble in spirit. And you will find rest for your souls. The work that I ask you to accept is easy. The load I give you to carry is not heavy.” Mathew 11:28-30. Jesus has healed Epilepsy before, He healed me of something worse, He will heal you too. Just give Him your life and watch.
ReplyDeleteSad chronicle. Stella please can I be her friend? How can I reach her please?
ReplyDeleteVisit a neurologist in any teaching hospital in Nigeria. That is the solution to your health challenge. I empathise with you. There are new AEDs to improve your condition. We see them in seizure clinics here on a daily basis and they are okay . Some have been seizure free for years while on their AED. Your case is not different.
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