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CANT STOP LOVING HIM

I reconnected with my ex and I'm just sad we didn't fight harder for our love.

We are both married now, my family rejected him for tribal differences, and my baby cried. He begged me to move in with him but I wanted things to be done correctly, so I declined. After a while, he felt we weren't really moving forward so he asked that we end our relationship. 

We both agree now that it was the biggest mistake we made - listening to all the vision-seeing people too who had nothing good to say wasn't helpful. I wish we were bolder and wiser. Maybe we'd have eloped sef.

Anyways, years down the line, we are married to other people. I'm luckier, my home is peaceful, I just never fell in love again anyway, so after 2 years of not being able to get over him, I picked the next good man from my list of chykers, we didn't even date because I really wasn't interested in relationships, I just wanted to start a family. He on the other hand seems to be having a messed up married life and it breaks my heart all over again.


I know there's isn't really anything we can do to be together again, but sometimes I wish I was a bit more stubborn back then. I for just carry belle mehn.

I just needed somewhere to vent because each time we reconnect, the emotions are so raw, sometimes I delete everything that reminds me of him and ask him to do same so that we can have a go at making it worthwhile for a d with the people we married. It just never works. Stella I've stayed away from him for 5 years straight, no happy birthdays, no merry Christmas, nothing. But there wasn't any single week in those years that I didn't think of my baby. Countless times I'd typed out a text or keyed in his number and just managed to restrain myself from pushing that send or dial button.

 We've reached out again and it's like we never took a break. We never really admit our feelings to each other now, out of respect to our spouses, but something tells me that if I'm left alone with him in a room, I'll darn all consequences and fulfill my fantasies - for someone that married as a Virgin, that huge, it's not a thing I'm proud of, I'm just saying how I feel.

Don't worry guys, he won't break my home and I won't break his, I just want to know what coping mechanisms I can adopt. I want to stop missing him, I want to stop having daydreams. I want to stop being aroused at the thought of the good times.

*Your story reminded me of Ray parker Juniors song ...The one about being all confused and not knowing what to do ''cos i still cant get over loving you.when i hear your name,im filled with Jealousy cos i want you for myself....''

I will not be advising you on this one cos its bad advice i feel like giving...I am a sucker for these kinds of emotions so lemme leave those who ''Mary Amaka good two shoes'' to advice you.