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Something is eating me up........

I attained puberty quite early and lived a sheltered life,I didn't know alot about men and relationships before I gained admission into the university,the first guy I had s#x with in my second year travelled out few months after we started dating without informing me,I was devastated, 7 months after, A friend later linked me up to her boyfriend's friend as I was always mopping about my Ex that took my virginity and left me in the cold..

I would call this her boyfriend's friend" K"..

K was advanced in age and told me he has been heartbroken a lot of times, I made it clear I was not going to have premarital s#x,he spoilt me silly with gifts within his financial capacity,then one day he started complaining about being committed to me getting anything in returning,one day I slept over and he said we should make out whatever that was,I obliged,few days later we had s#x,he said he didn't release in me but I told a friend who told me the precautions to use after...

The drugs I bought was fake as few weeks after I was expecting my period but it didn't show up,K had begun to show me he wasn't the nice guy I thought he was,I saw chats of him asking matured ladies out,sometimes when I go visiting I see men that weren't in his house before we slept with him in the living room,any question asked about their presence was diverted,then he started saying disrespectful things to me,me that my parents could give the whole world...

something snapped in me and I made up my mind to break up,few days after I complained to a doctor friend I hadn't seen my period ,he advised I took a PT test,I did and found out I was pregnant, I broke down in tears ,my life was finished before me,in my confusion I called K and informed him,he insisted I kept the pregnancy....

how was I going to inform my parents?

I settled for an abortion though I was scared,K and I fell out which was what I wanted eventually, we never really understood each other, he always took whatever I did or said the opposite way,we had over 10 years age gap between us,afterwards I moved on with my life,faced my studies,then I met A a year after,A was nice,pushing to meet my parents, in between I told A about K,it got messy but we put it past us as K kept telling everyone till this day I left because I met A richer man,no lady should ever go through what K put me through...

This was a year after I left k and K had married o,a year into my relationship with A, he and his friends kept nudging me about marriage,I insisted on graduating first,few weeks later I found out A was married,I was shattered everyone knew us together in my school's town::

I kept it a secret and tried breaking things off,he kept coming to beg,threatening to kill himself,6 months after,I met a new friend,we got talking and invited me over to his place,my biggest mistake,I went there,helped with cooking,it was too late for me to go back,I stayed over thinking I was going to have the room to myself,my new friend started pestering me,I opted to go into the living room to sleep,he promised he wasn't going to disturb my sleep anymore,I believed him,he let me sleep,first thing the following morning ,my new friend jumped on me and raped me....

I ran off,took precautions,few weeks after turns out it was fake, I was pregnant again,I was stupid enough to tell my new friend,he called me names,an opportunist and all,I started thinking of what I had become albeit unintentional,I had a medical abortion and moved on,I kept myself busy with school activities,there I met A high profile politician in my school town,he claimed to be impressed with my foresight and tenacity and started mentoring me,before I knew it he invited me over to his place,we had s#x may be twice,one day I thought about all and I wasn't proud of all that happened to me...

I graduated and found Christ...

I try to counsel young girls around me using my experience, I am not a bad person,friends and family attest to my kind nature and good heart,i was only naive and stupid,I am presently at the peak of my educational career,10 years after,I met someone that loves me,his mum is late,his elder sister is like his mum..

One day I went through his sis's facebook page and found out she is Facebook friends with the politician in my school's town and also with another of my Exes,I am wondering if I should come clean or keep quiet about my past,I have told him some parts but didn't mention abortions I did,I am eaten up by guilt..

*Come clean and tell him about what?So your mumu didn't end in school?confess to what?Didn't you say you found Christ?All your sins are forgiven and washed away,you are a new person...

The worst that can happen is that the politician and the other guy will say something bad about you right?Well the best that can happen is that you have a mouth to deny it and you have legs to move on with your life if your man believes them....

Do not 'fess up what will be used against you later!!!