Chronicle Of Blog Visitor Narrative -UPDATE

WOW.....

Hello Stella, I am the lady that sent in a chronicle last year October, I saw all the advices and I am grateful... so I made enquiry on Domestic violence and I couldn’t get any good information, please keep me Anonymous.


I have a bigger issue at hand and I need advices on what to do. After sending chronicle to SDK, after reading advices, I decided to speak to our counselor which since then his been taking classes for me on how to heal concerning the hurtful statements my husband always uses on me. So our counselor told me to talk to him about the issue and then I decided to talk to hubby about it and it even turned into a Bigger fight, he told me that why would I be carrying forgotten issues in my heart something that has been since almost 7 months that I am still bringing up. 

Then I told him cause it was still hurting me and moreover he never apologized. So when I started explaining then I said he was a lier due to so many lies he had said to me, he then flied up and started reigning insults on me saying: 1,That he never loved me that it’s cause of pregnancy that made him marry me that if not for pregnancy he won’t even look at my face 2, That I should go and thank God I saw husband because no one would have married me cause I am after 1( meaning I already have a child) 3, That he regrets ever getting married to someone who has given birth before 4,That I am not his type of woman, 5, Started insulting my son saying, if I don’t see how useless my son is that his life is useless, all what I told him about my past life and the ones he knows he used it against me that night ....

 Stella and Bvs I almost fainted the only thing I could say was please the kids are sleeping don’t wake them you can continue with the insults tomorrow morning. Cause he was shouting on top of his voice, when he finished talking I didn’t know when I started crying and what he said was that if I like I should cry to death... He went to work the second day and when he came back I begged him crying because I wanted a happy environment for my kids. I also told him I was the one whom you hurt and I am still the one apologizing that he has told me many things about himself and family but never used against him, but whenever we both have misunderstanding his quick to tell me my life history. He quickly put on a loud video to over power my voice and i just kept quite.. 2 days later he came begging that he was sorry and never meant anything he said he only said it for me to get hurt and he knows it would be hard for me to forgive. He was sober when saying this. I did not just say anything I was just looking at him.


Now my problem is how do I live with someone I no longer have trust for and someone who told me to the face that he doesn’t love me, someone who said past months that my breast was so soft and it’s frustrating him and his just managing it, I even forgot to say these during the misunderstanding I saw him checking on sites where to get prostitute to go sleep with and also making advances to some females on his WhatsApp contact that’s after 2days of our fight.. NO I did not snoop I saw this on the laptop when I wanted working with it, he forgot to log out on all the sites he opened.


Since I got married he has refused getting a business for me.. he always give 1excuse to another... he doesn’t buy recharge card on my phone whenever I need to call i would have to use his phone... he woke up one day to say he would start giving me monthly allowances but never did which I kept reminding him.... when I started learning on how to make pastries on YouTube to sell he makes statements like, you are wasting Gas and these is not the right time for all this.... the only thing he does for me is cloth, food and water....


Please NO one should tell me to leave the marriage cause I don’t even have 5naira in my account to go anywhere or start up a little Business on my own, and my family is still struggling All I need is how do I let go of such a huge scar in my heart?


YES I Sweared for Him, 1, cause he knows fully well he never loved me yet he led me into marriage. 2, Before we started the relationship I told him about my child he said my child is not an issue that his okay with him.. why did he now say he regretted getting married to one who had a child before


Thank you Stella I Appreciate you.

*Gbege oh.............You locked yourself in this prison and threw the keys away...