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THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON A MAN WILL NOT DO

Hello Stella,


Thank you for all you do.....I have been a blog visitor for so long but I hardly comment.


I decided to send my chronicles today and to also correct the impression that all men who dont find s#xual satisfaction with their wives are closetly Gay as widely believed by your readers and people at large......As you do for others, please hide my identity.


Straight to the point. I have been married to my beautiful and lovely wife for 15years and we live in the "abroad" though business brings me to Africa about 3 times a year.


Not so proud of my past, but before marriage and living in Nigeria, I had my fair share of women. I dated and undated a couple of women to the extent that from a woman's shape of lips or kisses, I know how s#x with her will be/feel...lol


Then, I relocated abroad in 2001 and dated oyibos too. However, because of my/African values, I knew marriage to oyibo was out of it. (I am old sch like that. For example, why should a woman smoke cigarettes). I kept searching for a Nigerian/African woman to marry. Then I met her....on one of my trips home.


She was so beautiful, respectful, nice and tender. Looking at her, all you want to do is to love and protect her.
I put on my best behaviour and romantic side to woo her. Because of her, I suspended my high libido exploits and concentrated on making her my own. I succeeded!

Because of the love and good intentions I had for her, s#x wasn't a priority.


However, From kissing her, I suspected I have entered one chance but I prayed (yes, even in my sinfulness, I do pray) that God should help and my gut feelings will be wrong when we eventually do the do.


We dated for months before we did "the do" it sucked. Every other thing was near perfect.

I consoled my self that it was her "good girlness" and took up the job of a "do" educator but subsequent "doing" suggested it cannot get better.
Now, it wasnt the acrobatics or the frequency, it was just the feeling down there.


To better understand what I mean, ask anyone who have had multiple partners, imagine you are blindfolded, and each of your, say 3 partners sleep with you, without talking or any sort of body fragrance, the feel will make you know who did what round. Lol. Some of us are that very sensitive down there.


This became so traumatizing for me. From my years in the world, I know how and what good s#x can do to/for a man (woman) but I also know women like her who bring nothing but happiness are very rare to find. Furthermore, I had made promises and commitments to not just her but our families.


My predicament (To continue with the relationship or Not) continued until I got back to my base after a 3 months working holiday in Nigeria. 2 weeks later, she called to say she missed her period. Ordinarily, this shouldnt be a problem as we were already engaged but with this predicament, decision became tough.


I am not one to shy away from commitments and responsibilities and she doesnt deserve to be ridiculed after years of closing her legs like a mermaid before she met me...

To make matters even more complicated, the scan showed she was having a set of twins. A boy and A girl child..... We got married.

I consoled myself that with faithfulness in marriage, when congea hold me, I will find "doing" with her fulfilling.


8 months after marriage in Nigeria and when the twins were 3months old, I brought my family over.

It's been 15years now and 1 more child but I have not enjoyed s#x. We can count how many times we have had s#x in those 15 years. I dont enjoy or initiate it.....not because I dont want to or stopped loving her....not because she is not attractive (she is a beauty goddess). The few times, we did the do, I hardly come and end up masturbating which leaves her in tears.

We live in a country with all manner of counsellors and psychologists and have visited most of them, did all the things they asked us to do, yet, to no avail.


Like the famed Nigerian comedian-Okey Bakasi- will say, a man has 2 brains, 1 on the head and one with the D. The D has a mind of it's own.

I belive you and the readers will not understand this just like my beautiful wife never did initially, until you feel it .


BUT I use one analogy to try to explain: just imagine there is a very bad cook, whom you have eaten their food a couple of times and found tasteless/bad, you wont long for food from this cook (even if they are the nicest person arround) and even when you are extremely hungry, you will rather eat something else....(BTW, my wife is a wonderful cook when it has to do with the kitchen)


In my case, the "something else to eat" is masturbation when I cannot help it anymore since I dont believe in cheating.
Cheating? Only once in 15years, 5years ago and of course with a woman......just to find out If I was still a Man since my joystick had not been in use at the time for 3 years.


In conclusion, Everything other thing is fine with us, Finances, investments, our own houses. The kids school. I love my wife, my kids and will not trade them for anything in this world and have come to accept my fate with regards to "do" BUT I am not gay and will never be.


PS: madam refuses the use of vibrator and will rather we suffer together. Lol

*WOW!!!....I understand!!!