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Stella Dear .....

I read a chronicle of a lady the other day who wanted to be a doctor but ended up studying something else, got back to Nigeria got a job of 100k resigned cos she didn't like it and now wants to relocate for greener pastures.
When I read her chronicle it felt like I was her.

My name is ******, I'm a 28 year old unemployed, used to be depressed and unhappy young lady. 

What happened? I got out of school as early as 21. As at my 23 years I was done with studies and served but I was not fulfilled. I realised I was blaming a lot of people for my own weaknesses, my parents for choosing a course I really don't like, my siblings for not protecting me while growing up, my friends for being too nosy about other people's life(wrong but in friendships a lot play out and you choose what you want to allow and trash the rest) but I shut them out cos of my insecurities.


I got a white collar job later on after trying out some of my supposed likeable jobs that didn't work out. I had nice bosses, challenging staff members, and little cozy office that can make someone envy me but my dear Stella my Job description to me then was stressful cos it involves here and there movements. At some point I started disliking going to work but honestly I had zero work experience before that job and I learnt a lot from there. If only that had challenged me to stay but no I had to resign because I felt I was misunderstood by everybody.

Stella the issue wasn't my workplace , the people or the job description. I was the issue. I had a very terrible bad attitude. I remember my boss advising me once in Interpersonal relationships and emotional intelligence. He said if you don't learn to control your emotions when things happen and learn to handle conflicts you will find it hard relating with people here or any other place. He said your attitude follows you except you make conscious effort to change it. Well something played out and I lost that job, got another one, attitude still didn't let me shine.

 I had to talk to myself cos at that point my family were getting tired of the instability in my life and my friends were all gone cos I just didn't know how to build friendships, my relationship suffered too cos Im terrible at opening up and had serious trust issues. I was all alone and I knew something was just not right.

I needed a change, cos the instability was too much my dear Stella I had to ask God for intervention. I started making conscious efforts to change at this point I was close to loosing it mentally, I was blaming others for my misfortunes with talks like if I had studied something else, if you had understood me better, If I had travelled to another state a lot of ifs.

Today I'm a work in progress, a lot has changed. I've lost jobs, Friendships even some family members got tired and at a point it felt like I was being tolerated. I had opportunities to be better at my work, with my relationships and so many others but I closed all doors for reasons I really can't figure out today.


I stopped blaming others for my failures, I'm taking responsibilities for all my wrongs, I'm trying to build new friendships cos the old ones well I'm sure they are hurt cos they had some good celebrations which I never showed up or congratulated them for. It's not been easy but I'm grown. Leaving a job God graciously brought my way, was one mistake I'm living with. I don't know if he allowed all that happened in my 20s to play out so I can learn from them and do away with any bad traits I have in my personality for something better that will come my way. I really don't know what to think maybe Something better is coming and I've been trained for it I really don't know but if I could turn back the hands of time. I would have made better choices. He brought something once and I couldn't handle it. That Job I prayed, fasted and believed God for it and the way I got it was just grace but I ruined it. Now, I'm hoping for another job miracle because business has never being my thing.

The bad attitude I used to have almost ruined me. Today i call on God to continually fill me with his Godly ways. I'm facing life now spiritually, mentally sound and alive. I've made mistakes but I've learnt too but I lost a lot.
I think the poster should search herself well, no job comes easy, she's already resigned I pray she doesn't make more mistakes that will drag through the years to come. I pray God opens her eyes to see and know his leading for her.

 I pray she meets someone that will help guide her with strong hands so in time to come she will look back and be grateful God brought someone like that her way. its not easy living with regrets I tell you. it's not.
I'm not happy with where my life is at the moment but it's a mess I created with wrong choices and I pray i find my way again soon.

WOW...Thank you for sharing your story!!!..I am sure we all will learn from this.