The 27-year-old Condell, from San Francisco was found dead with a cloth around her neck inside the bedroom of her home on West 10th Street around 4:30 p.m. Wednesday after police were called to the residence for a wellness check, sources said.
Worried co-workers called the cops after Condell did not show up for work at the Midtown office of Top Balance Nutrition on Wednesday and saw that Condell posted the note to her website, according to sources.
In addition to the note left on her website, Condell left another suicide note in a folder in her living room, sources said.
Condell who, according to her website, is a registered dietitian nutritionist specializing in general nutrition, weight management, gastrointestinal disease and diabetes care, apologized to her mother at the end of the note posted to her site, saying, “I’m really sorry mama.”
The young woman began the note which was titled, “I Hate The Word ‘Bye,’ But See You Later Maybe?”I have written this note several times in my head for over a decade, and this one finally feels right. No edits, no overthinking. I have accepted hope is nothing more than delayed disappointment, and I am just plain old-fashioned tired of feeling tired.”
“I realize I am undeserving of thinking this way because I truly have a great life on paper. I’m fortunate to eat meals most only imagine. I often travel freely without restriction.
“I live alone in the second greatest American city (San Francisco, you’ll always have my heart). However, all these facets seem trivial to me,” Condell wrote.
She continued: “It’s the ultimate first world problem, I get it. I often felt detached while in a room full of my favorite people; I also felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life.
“No single conversation or situation has led me to make this decision, so at what point do you metaphorically pull the trigger?”
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sad indeed.
ReplyDeleteThese are the kind of things Nigerians learn fast from social media and not the good old west of purity and charity.
Eeya, She doesn't understand the meaning of life and why she is living.
ReplyDeleteAnyway you are still selfish though because you fully understand the pain you are putting your loved ones to.
Dear people of the world, even if you see no reason to remain alife, just try to remain alife so as not to put your loved ones in pain and shame.
When you don't understand what people go through, Please don't say they are selfish. The fact that you can take somethings in life doesn't make someone else can. She might have been hurt over and over again, failed over and over again. She couldn't just bear it. Please don't judge her.
DeleteWow.
ReplyDeleteLots of people are really unhappy.
You do think one with her kind of life would have plenty to live for.
She can't even figure out how she got there. To the point where she just got tired of tired and just ended it all. Is it just me or the world is getting lonlier? That's maybe the only reason someone would want to kill themseleves.
if not for the thought of going to hell fire, i would have committed suicide. but i dont want to suffer in this life and still go to hell. its not worth it. i will continue to believe God for the best.
ReplyDeleteI have been in this position several times and just like you, the thought of hell was the major reason I didn't do it.
DeleteOne thing I realized is that God ends up coming through. He is truly faithful. Please hold on and trust Him fully. God will turn your story to glory.
As if I typed this.....
DeleteStay strong and hold onto God. Talk to someone, a counselor or a confidant or a man/woman of God. Share your burdens with God and by His Grace, you'll come out in top
DeleteThere's always a light behind every dark tunnel. Keep believing, stay strong for the storm won't last long! I totally understand you all. Never lose hope 🖤💜💛
DeleteSame here, so scared of hell fire and wouldn't want my kids to suffer, if not I would have gone since. After losing my husband,life becomes meaningless to me.
DeleteThis is soooo me
ReplyDeleteThis is so you, how?
DeleteNo even try am o!
Jokes aside, how do i help?
How do we help? 💚
Monkey face a abeg o. Nne I have ben there and I promise you your life has meaning o. Don't make a permanent decision on what might be a transient feeling.
DeletePlease you aren't like this. Talk to someone. Talk to me, I will listen.. Stellz please reach out to this person or get someone to reach out. You build a family here and have favorites, not everyone knows how to suck up to people.
DeleteThis is a typical example of mental health illness
ReplyDeleteWhat a pity!
ReplyDeleteDeciding to be happy is a thing of choice because when you think about this world sometimes its worthless but I will say I encourage myself with the word of God hoping to make heaven. This life is a facade.
ReplyDeletemy sister, this life no fair rara. but wat can one do if not keep striving and hoping for the best.
DeleteI have written this type of note many times both in my mind too. But I always remember my mother and cancel my flight to heaven. I hope I don't make up my mind someday...it's hard really especially when no one loves you...
ReplyDeleteThat’s not true because l love you Stella. I love you, with, the love of God. I love you, as a human being.
DeletePlease, stay strong.
You can see, write and do other things you like so you are loved and appreciated by all please. Stay cool 😎 . Whatever it is will pas away honestly. Cheers
DeleteJesus saves. Jesus heals. Jesus hears. Go to Him if you ever feel this way. He is the resurrection and the life and in Him there's fullness of life. Sometimes, life makes no sense. Sometimes, life loses its meaning, but in Christ there is always hope, joy and peace that the world can never give whether you are rich of poor, old or young. Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength...they shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and nor grow faint.
ReplyDeletetrolls will put on a pity face here
ReplyDeleteIt is well!!!
ReplyDeleteAnyone that goes out of her way to be a dietitian, vegan, feminist is a suicide waiting to happen. It usually is a cry for help. I could be wrong
ReplyDeletejust like that? not that she was in one gbese or the other one. depression is a devilish disease😢😢😢
ReplyDeleteGlamour life of a stranger. A picture is not necessarily worth more than a thousand words. It could be a optical illusion. To others, she had a great life. But only her knew the demon she was battling with. Don't tap into what you don't know. A curse could be disguised as a blessing and you will tap yourself into penury.
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