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ADOPTION REGRETS

Stella, please i need BVs opinion on this issue,I Am writing this with pain in my heart on my way out of the Country. I never knew i will not have my own child. I never knew i will not marry.

I Am in my late 40s doing well materially and financially in life. I had a lot of ups and down in my growing years without parental guidance or love. But I was determined to become someone. 

My younger sis allowed Our parent separation affect her and she started sleeping around breeding children upandan before she even turned 25, she had 5 for different guys, none claiming responsibilities. Unfortunately i lost her but before she passed on i collected one at 8 months. She is 24 now. I trained her up to Masters degree in USA. 

She returned to the country and had a very good job earning about 700k monthly. I never noticed any sign of rejection in her when she was in secondary sch in Nig. In fact we were friends. She calls me mum but when she turned 16 i had told her she was my sis child. did say i was the only mum she knows. I provided everything for her. 

Invested in bank shares for her. Opened account for her at age 1 and handed the account to her when she turned 18. She is my sole beneficiary of anything that concerns me. She is signatory to all my account though she has never touched my money. Now am having issues with her. She does not talk to me. 

She is like a stranger to me . We don't relate. I have called her a couple of times to talk with her and ask if anything is the problem, she does not admit to having any problem. She acts lovingly towards me at times. Within 2 years She has changed 4 jobs. Even this one paying well she is complaining about it. That its not what she wants. All these i gather from nosing in her diary.

 That's the only way i can get information about her. I became worried. Even when you call her to the room to talk or even cry that i don't understand her, she does not respond, when you are done with the talking , she will say good night and goes to her room leaving you rejected, confused and bitter. Her job is demanding i know and she leaves the house by 5 30am everyday and does not return till after 11pm. Everyday.

 I paid for her driving lesson. Later I gave her one of my cars to be using. Thinking this will improve the situation, Nooo, still the same, comes home after 12. When am already asleep. Even if she sees light in my room does not bother to come in to greet me. 

Am loosing it. Am having feelings of regret. I travel a lot. 

My domestic assistant tells me she brings home different guys. Can you imagine that? You dare not talk to her, she will give you attitude. She is always moody in her room. 

Sometimes in April she travelled out of the country on official assignment, she refused to communicate with me throughout that period. I was the one who dropped her off at the airport. Told her to let me know when she is coming back.

 She arrived and took Uber home without calling me. From then on i made up my mind to ignore her in the house, never to interfere in anything concerning her. Can you believe from April she returned from that trip till today we have not communicated and she has not bothered to find out from me why am not talking to her again. 

She lives in my house, drives my car but does not greet me. She has stopped eating in the house. All she does is wake up by 4:30 am ,dress up , leave for work using my car and return at midnight straight into her room. I am travelling out of the country today. She does not know cause we don't talk. She will only get to know from my domestic help.. I guess she may move out by the time i return , is it the money she is making that is shacking her? I don't know. Am confused on what to do. I was thinking of collecting my car from her.

 Let her go and buy her own since she feels she has arrived and doesn't need me in her life again. She does not know anybody apart from me in the family. Nobody knows her where about or her other siblings. She does not even want me to search for them. I was told one is doing house help in Onitsha, has never been to school. I told her history will never be complete without me. 

My consolation is i wouldn't lack in my old age. My pension is far enough for me not to bother her. Am feeling depressed having hope she will be there for me at old age. How do i start adopting now at late 40? Am living in my personal house which is should be hers when am gone.She has access to all my account. Am planning to remove her from my account when am back cause she may conspire with a guy to ruin all i have worked for for 27 years. 

Am depressed. Can anybody learn me a thought? If i return and she has moved out i wont look for her. Am becoming bitter towards her. I never expected this.

 I talked to her friends and they called her wanting to speak with her, she has refused to even relate with her friends. They told me she used to act up when they were on campus, refusing to talk with them but they never knew she has extended to family. Am hypertensive. Do you know what it means to stake so much on someone you call your own and she does not appreciate. But on my birthday she will always send endearing messages on how much she loves and cherishes me. Saying she is lucky to have such a strong and caring woman for a mother. Maybe she does not know what she is doing, maybe she knows and is calculative.

 Normally i would have done shopping for her but no on this trip. I will not buy a pin for her. Maybe she will rethink on how she is hurting me. I travel all the time do shopping from head to toe for her. The room she sleeps in is master piece. Pls what do i do. Is she taking advantage of me not having anyone to call my ow? Is she capitalising of my financial state thinking she will hit a jackpot if am gone? Or its just outright naivety? I need to have suggestion on how to deal with this when am back. Should i still allow her use my car? Disrespecting me by bringing men to my house? 

My maiguards are watching and am not comfortable with this. I don't know anything about her going out or coming in. What if one of those guys plan her kidnap with the intention of getting money from me seeing i live well. She has never told me she had a boyfriend. Even on weekends where we can be together, she goes out and comes back very late, no greeting.

 What is the meaning of all these? What is she up to? Who is brainwashing her? So many questions unanswered. She writes down her thoughts. That's how i get to know one or two things going on . She is even repaying a loan she collected for God knows what. I feel like stripping her of all. Sell off the bank shares, Tell her i want back the money in the bank i handed over to her. Am pained. Am feeling betrayed Am feeling rejected. 

She was all my hope at old age but that may not be from this behaviour. I may be wrong though. Pls lend a voice.

*Ah ah,what kind of bad behaviour is this?Please first things first...GET HER NAMES AND SIGNATORY OFF ALL DOCUMENT...

She is an ingrate....cant deal!!!

Why dont you look for her other siblings and upgrade them the way you did her?