Soliloguy Of A Runs Girl -The Virgin Road HO

''Despite working as a ho I'm still a Virgin. ....''

I almost became an official road prostitute. I live in Italy, came here since I was little. Did all my schools here until I couldn't stand the abuse inflicted on me in my uncle's house and left their house at 16 years old. 

I lived for a while in a shelter for children and after a while I left. Since then I've been doing petty jobs, living in women's shelters and sometimes relying on the kindness of people that would sometimes allow me to sleep in their homes. Until one day, in a shelter for foreign (mostly African girls) I met one Nigerian girl, Lilian. By the way I'm not Nigerian. 

Anyway we became friends and I used to spend my little savings to buy foodstuff for us to cook. She told me that she was a prostitute and she used to prostitute on the streets. It was in 2016 and I was 25 years but still a virgin but I lied that I was not. I didn't think it was her business to know plus I didn't have time to explain why I was still a virgin. Anyway she told me that she had an apartment with her boyfriend and I could go and live with her.

 I was surprised because I couldn't understand why then she was in a shelter for women and she explained to me that she needed help for her documents because she didn't have her resident permit. Anyway, after a while she left while I remained and she kept calling me to go to her place. One time she even shouted at me that if I didn't want her help I should tell her. Mind you she was 23 while I was 25. I felt disrespected and I decided not to go to her place because I did not want to be maltreated in her house. Unfortunately after a while my little savings finished and those at the shelter only gave you food that people gave out of goodwill and most time it was expired or about to, plus I didn't even have money to buy panties or pad or recharge my phone (I needed Internet to look for job online).

 Anyway I was desperate so I finally accepted to move in with her hoping to make quick money. From what she had told me she was making good money, sending money to her parents and siblings and building her own house in Nigeria. My plan was to make money and go to school to complete my education and if things became too difficult with Lilian, rent my own apartment. In the beginning everything was OK. I enjoyed the Nigerian food, spent time surfing the net to try and look for a job and watched movies with Lilian and her cousin. After a few days we decided to go on the road because rent had to be paid. We waited for evening and got dressed in ultra mini skirts that didn't cover our panties and bra with a jacket on.

 I was so nervous but I couldn't tell anyone. They told me that for a round of s3x in the costumer's car I had to charge 20 euro, for only sucking 10 euros and if the costumer wanted to go to the apartment to do the do it was 40 euros. I felt it was not much but better than nothing and if I had many costumers I could make enough good money in a month. After an hour standing in the cold and trying to imitate the other girls that were expert in stopping potential costumers, one car stopped and honked at me. 

On my heels I cat walked to the car, agreed on the price and directed him to the designed area where the customers and the girls usually stopped to do the do. The costumer was very young, 22 years old. I felt comfortable because he didn't seem dangerous (remember that this is a dangerous job, many road prostitutes and even big class runs girls are killed daily) and he was actually very shy. I asked him if he didn't have a girlfriend and he said no. We made small talk then I took out the condom. As a virgin it was my first time putting a condom on a penis so I was scared to break it but everything went OK. 

I used my hand to make it hard but his penis did not react. After a while it was semi hard so I told him to get on top of me but he said he wanted me to be on top of him. I was scared because it was my first time so I thought if I was under I could have handled the pain. Well I took his penis in my hand and tried to insert it but it did not enter. We tried everything possible but it failed, apparently I was too tight. After a while the guy got fed up and told me we should forget it. He gave me 20 euros and took me back to my spot. I told him to pass by again anytime he felt like. I was hoping that he would be the one to take my virginity if I had to lose it in the streets but I never saw him again. 

When he left you could see that he was so embarrassed. Anyway for that night my luck run out and I didn't have any more customers. The girls told me that at that period of the year the customers were few so I should not get worried. In the next days I had only one customers who gave me only 5 euros for sucking his dick. I was totally broke so I accepted at least to show the other girls that I was trying and hoping to find more costumers later. The next few nights it rained non stop so we did not go to work then when we were able to go to the road side again after a while a customer stopped and asked me for a home service. I was happy because it was 40 euros. 

I got in his car and directed him to Lilian's house. During the short drive he saw that I was nervous and kept pestering me with questions so I ended up telling him that I was a virgin. He then talked about himself a little and I got to know that he was married and had two little daughters. Finally we reached the house and we got inside. I went to the bathroom to remove my cloths and when I got in the bedroom he was sitting on the bed and I asked him if he was ready. To my surprise he told me that I should wear my clothes back and that he had two daughters too and couldn't imagine them losing their virginity with a stranger through prostitution. He gave me 40 euros which I initially refused but he insisted and I was glad.

 After wearing back my clothes he took me back to my spot on the roadside. All the girls were happy because I finally had a good pay for the night but I didn't tell them that we did not have sex. The following day we did not go to work and on Sunday Lilian wanted to do a thanksgiving in church because Her brother in Nigeria had finally got a job and she persuaded me to go. To my surprise after church service I discovered that the pastor was the brother of my aunt's husband. He dashed me 20 euros and told me to leave Lilian's place. I confided in him that I was not happy at Lilian's place but I didn't have anywhere to go and he offered to let me sleep in the church.

 I accepted because Lilian had changed. From the seemingly good friend I shared laughs and gossip with all she did now was insult me, ignore me and boss me around when she didn't ignore me. When I was ready to leave and go and stay in the church, Lilian called me telling me to have patience that the hustle will pay, that in the beginning is always hard and that we need to make money for ourselves. I thanked her for everything but I told her that I had already made up my mind and I left. I lived in the church for almost 4 months and later left because of a disagreement with my uncle.

 Now I live in a shelter for women and waiting for the low rent apartments the government gives. I work and even tho the pay is not much I can buy the little things I need. I already saved 1300 euros so that next year September I'll start school and complete my education. I'm praying to become a doctor. Well this is part of my complicated life story. I've been through so much that if I wrote everything it will be a book but I thank God for his mercies. Despite working as a prostitute I didn't lose my virginity and I'm still virgin. 

My prayer is that I will get my degree, get married and have my own kids.