Hmmm!!!...This too shall pass,it must!!!
STAND ALONE NARRATIVE
THE VICE THAT WONT GO AWAY...
OKAY HERE IS MY CHRONICLE.
I am a fourtish year old woman , successful in every sense of the word with a 6 figure salary that can be envied, a good husband and lovely kids.
God could not have done better for me. So what is my story,? Am on a Self destructive path way. At the age of 6 years , I had been molested by a male cousin staying with us and remembered giving him multiple blow jobs and tasting something salty, which later I realised was sperm.
He had a stash of Porn mags which I soaked up without reservation. I felt special because he was so big and kind and always attended to my needs before my other sibs. My poor parents had no clue what was happening.
This horrible affair continued fill I was 12 years,. At that time, a female house help introduced me into the world of Lesbianism. She was about 25 years and used to blow air into my vagina and then the orgasms started. As I grew older, I found out that I get more attracted to the females than males.
I tried dating but could never reach the orgasm that females give unless with nipple or clitorial stimulation. Penetration no matter how long and good just was a major turn off, even up till now, I fake it with hubby. With a woman I can have multiple orgasms. Now I hate that feeling. I am someone who loves God so dearly and who strives to do his bidding and keep to his words.
However, I have continued to fail woefully when it comes to the attraction to females. Yes I have prayed and fasted, talked to men of God, gone for deliverance and so on, so peeps don’t come giving me the advice to turn to God bla bla bla. I succeed for about 1 year or 2 and suddenly from no where the urge comes again, and then the cycle repeats.
Would be nice to know if anyone has gone through similar problems and how they solved it. Meanwhile any one who comes here to abuse me should make sure they come to equity with clean hands. If you know you do not have a weakness that you have kept praying to God to help you out with and therefore without sin, then abuse me, but if you like me are struggling to make heaven and are hampered by a particular vice then join me in prayers asking for Gods grace to overcome the weakness
Well the earlier we let people like you speak up without us discriminating you the better for us.
ReplyDeleteI've accepted the fact that some people can be naturally attracted to same sex as them,
*Larry was here*
Larry please go and read Genesis 1-3
DeleteGod made them males and females
He saw everything he created and it was good
The Serpent was the enemy of mankind and he introduced sin
The lady that wrote was not born "being attracted to females"
She was stolen and imprisoned in it as a child and she knows that it is wrong
And that is why she is seeking help.
She will not like any of her children to be so initiated
If you do not have any piece of advice, you must not comment
I'd written and posted mine below at 15:17
Larry please stop this.Can you sincerely stand in front of your maker and say what you just typed? Even the poster knows that such urge isn't right. Abi must you write so people will like u?
DeleteTo the poster,i pray God helps u,amen.
Larry she is not 'naturally' attracted to same sex. Her childhood was tampered with hence this. Maybe if you open up to your husband about this weakness he will walk in it with you. I. Am of feel if he is very gentle with you, you might enjoy sex with him. Maybe days for gentle sex and days for rough sex (if he likes it rough)
DeleteLarry is right. Her childhood was tampered with by both male n female yet she held on to dis side of her. If d househelp didnt do it she still wudve found a way somehow. Its in her.
DeletePoster please keep fighting it. Good thing u want to quit. To me, thats a start. A lot of women are in ur shoes but only a few will accept it. Goodluck.
@Tessbaby
DeleteI understand that you probably are a lesbian or swing both ways.
That does not make everyone same
Let's re-read a line from that poster up there;
". . . With a woman I can have multiple orgasms. Now I hate that feeling."
How can someone HATE something that "was in her all along?"
She clung to lesbianism because the maid transferred that spirit to her in her 12th year and
true to her person, she has been doing her best to get her freedom which she will by the grace of God.
Please, this woman came here for solution/suggestions not for validation.
It seems that some of you really gets off by commenting or you comment to be "seen"
Keep trying, it will stop
DeleteDear poster, please see a clinic psychologist or Psychiatrist. You need in-depth counseling and therapy.. Go to a Teaching hospital and enquore how to see one. There are techniques that will be applied to help you overcome.
DeletePlease get this messages by Joseph Prince. Grace and victory over sexual sexual sins.
DeleteGo and fuck ur father bitch!
DeleteLord hear her prayers
ReplyDeleteOga o🤔
DeleteI sincerely think you need a therapist ASAP that can also function as a "life coach" for a very long time.
DeleteThe most important thing here is that you have identified that you have a challenge and you want to change. Why the circle always happen again after about 1-2 years is that you have been struggling alone and trying so hard to fight this challenge all by yourself without anyone to encourage you and help you up when you cannot continue anymore.
If you say your husband is as loving as you have said, I think you should tell him about it. You cannot go through this all by yourself, you need someone to help you walk through this path till you overcome it.
YOI CAN OVERCOME IT!
GOD BLESS NIGERIA.
Madam,please don't ever tell your husband no matter how loving you think he is. I know someone who in a bid to marry another wife,he used that information to send his wife packing. This was years after the confiding /confession
DeleteHow can something so sweet be so wrong at the same time, God help us. Poster its not only you oh. Just a terrible vice.
ReplyDeleteHaba nau poster...
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing wrong with you!!..you are normal abeg...
Most women are lesbos!!!...
Yes most!!...
The ones that are still pretending not to be have not seen a babe they like...
I don't blame you joor..
Lesbo sex is the sweetest!!...
You trying to fight that urge will be hard oh!...
DeleteDid she tell you that she likes it?
If she did; she would not be here asking for solutions.
The fact that you are a lesbian does not make every woman one
Face your life and stop deceiving the rest.
Many who were initiated into this evil way as kids have overcome it and this poster will too.
DeleteSo keep your advice to yourself.
She is not asking for a validation of what she is into, she is asking for solution to stop because she doesn't like it. save your advice for your daughters in law
DeleteI hate to agree with Queen and Boss but alas science has proven that most women are bisexual while men are homosexual or heterosexual based on an arousal experiment but na them sabi. I don't know how I can ever be attracted to another woman. Maka why? God I thank you that my vice isn't lesbianism. Poster you are absolutely right, no one should condemn you. Psychologist have also proven that early sexual exposure and encounter in children determines their sexual preference albeit not everyone acts in it.
DeleteYou shall overcome this in Jesus name. Amen
ReplyDeleteOh dear! Let me read comments!
ReplyDeleteOk so am reading this late but all I will say is that some people are just erred differently.
DeleteYou can pray all you want bt it won't go away except you find some other habit whigh gives you better satisfaction to exchange it with.
Liking sex with women is no big deal and touch may feel guilty because you have been told it's wrong by people who have no understand of people with other sexual preference.
You can try a therapist but the urge won't still go away.
Dnt be ashamed of what makes you happy,it's who you ashamed re embrace it and stop giving yourself HBP over nothing
I LIKE G***LS and am unapologetic about it
LEP😛
I guess some women are wired that way. I don't think it's a lesbian thing because as am writing this now, I have never kissed a girl in my life before but I found out that I can never orgasm even if a man fucks me from morning till night if you don't suck my clitoris. So you just have to tell your man what makes you to orgasm and the places to touch you during sex. I know that will solve the problem. Discuss with your hubby ok. And yes I didn't go anonymous on this.
ReplyDeleteMake I fuck u first nah
DeleteOkay I don mark your face for future reference..lol
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In a way I agree with her..
DeletePoster talk to your hubby about what makes you satisfied...
Sometimes it's just not enough to pray you have to exercise self control and discipline...
With a billion dollar some men will never ever go down on u. ( if i dey lie ask my ex) worse is d moment u voice it out b sure uve killed a part of ur home. I mean, how do u tell a man uve lived with 4 so long that uve never orgasm with him, uve been faking it unless ure ready 2 confess to ur hubby that ure attracted to women.
DeleteMy own vice is stealing.i am very comfortable yet I pick people's stuff.God pls deliver me too.
ReplyDeleteWho did you this?...
DeleteChai!!..
You are a kleptomania
DeleteMake sure you dnt do it in a market place before dem burn or strip u naked.
DeleteSee a therapist na
DeleteI'm not mocking or judging ypu...im praying for you..
DeleteMay God help you...Amen
Am my Bee, she is a kleptomaniac.
DeleteSorry oh. You need to decide what's more important, that thing you are about to take or the shame it will bring when you are caught
DeleteGod will deliver you
Delete*Larry was here*
'Queer and bus"
DeleteType simple English or go basically pigeon
What you typed up there doesn't fit into any
Please send my comment above to the poster. There are some in depth psychological issues going on that need to be dealt with
DeleteYou don't love God madam.
ReplyDeleteI am sure you have abused and judged people too.
Did you go to equity with clean hands?
May God help you and deliver you from your weakness.
Typical Nigerian mentality. You probably think you are one sensible person now with a pure heart and can quote scripture die. Yet your heart is black. You might fool man but not God. posters need to know that this isn't the place to bring your woes. These chics on here are vile and looking for who to pull down. Tueh
DeleteHow did you know that? Are you sure you are better than her,? Poster all I can see in you is a contrite heart and God does not despite. Keep pushing harder, you will overcome.
DeleteBlack butterfly.
DeleteOshey!!!! Saint Michael .
DeleteLord have mercy,may the Anointing of the most high locate you in Jesus mighty name..
ReplyDeleteWow
ReplyDeleteTalk to ur husband about threesome, ud feel less guilty, knowing hes a part of it n approves
ReplyDeleteShe's talking about obeying God and you are talking about threesome, some advice are better left unsaid.
DeleteEwooo!
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Are you normal @anons
DeleteHave not experienced such things except being molested as a 5 year old child.
ReplyDeleteI will tell you about someone who has and what she did.
Her journey to freedom started when she gave her life to Christ;
She began fasting morning till evening for ONE YEAR.
Subsequently, she does not eat in the mornings and she loves the self control and concentration it gives her.
The urge left her within middle of the year she fasted.
She is married with kids.
It is not a "hit and run" kind of thing.
It does not mean that she is not tempted; yes Satan tempts through the flesh desires.
But she has continued to overcome for years now.
Had been offered 1.5 million just to service one old client like that.
This lady is totally devoted to God and her family.
She refused to go near her house.
You've got to persevere.
I will just join you in prayers for deliverance.
ReplyDeleteReaching orgasm through penetration does not work for every woman, get Hubby to indulge more in foreplay.
Let him concentrate more on plate washing and nipple play, you need to also try and blank out that imagination of it being a woman.
Since you have come this far, keep fighting Mama.
All the best
Fuck me from morning till night without sucking or massaging my clitoris no show.
DeleteYes poster, I am kindha in your shoes. Hapilly married, successfully but in my twenties. I had a few lesbian encounters as a kid in an only female boarding school years ago and then I had one more experience during my NYSC year. I haven't had it ever since, but I feel the urge every one and then, what is keeping me is that I am not quite bold and I fear to destroy my marriage. It took awhile, but I finally figured how to enjoy sex and orgasm with hubby. I close my eyes and fantasize during sex that I am someone else and he is someone else. I esp draw from the characters I used to read in those mills and booms novels as a teenager. Also, hubby takes his time on foreplay which goes a long way, and I realized that I come faster when my legs are closed, when my clits are stimulated with the D and when I am quite (not screaming). So far, sex has been great between us
DeleteDiscuss with ur husband nah...
ReplyDeleteIt's very rare for a man to leave his wife bcoz she enjoy sex with a other Woman.
He might now mind a 3some self
Very rare you say!
DeleteNot true.
Yes you have said we shouldn't tell you about the God bla bla, I am happy to hear that it stopped for a year or two. The the solution lay on deliverance my dear. Download these messages from Bro Gbile Akanni from YouTube.
ReplyDelete1.Blood provision for deliverance
2.activities of Mr flesh
3.Efficact of the blood.
thanks
Linda pls seal for yourself not every lady is a lesbian nnugwo?
ReplyDeleteMadam there is nothing that is too hard for God to do,you are just beign the human that you are going back to your vomit, why not see a psychologist and also back it up with intense prayers..this a chain that must be broken,my God deliver you.
Hmmmm this one-click is strong. Buts it's ok. I can say that you are making headway - to have met men of God for solutions and then seeking advice here. I think the best thing you have done is deciding to want to stop. I guess this is what working out your salvation means - you must deliberately discipline yourself. You must consciously kill it. God can not give you a load that you can not bear. You have to really take a decision. That's what you need. Deliver yourself.
ReplyDeleteIt is well with you. You still need more prayers. May be you have never seen the man of God that will dethrone that stupid spirit that won't let you be great.
ReplyDeleteGod is there. Keep praying and keep going to your church. You won't know when you will be set free
It is well with you. You still need more prayers. May be you have never seen the man of God that will dethrone that stupid spirit that won't let you be great.
ReplyDeleteGod is there. Keep praying and keep going to your church. You won't know when you will be set free
Poster...there is nothing the Blood Of Jesus cannot do. Try fasting. It weakens your flesh and strengthens your spirit. Women naturally are attractive and I'm a woman. So sometimes it is okay to see a beautiful woman and acknowledge she is beautiful. But don't dream or think of sexual desires with her. I had a dream last night where a woman was telling me she likes me and was coming too close. In the dream, I rejected her and said I'm not interested. And pleaded the Blood Of Jesus inside the dream. So know that there are many that struggle with this as well.
ReplyDeletePlease confide in your husband. I'm guessing you haven't. Talk to him. I tell my husband whatever I'm struggling with and it has helped him mature as a Christian. He is now always sending me scriptures we will use to pray about any issue, and even follows up more on our couples fast day. So tell him.
Also, You are not the only woman to achieve orgasm through other means. Penile sex doesn't give all woman the optimal satisfaction they need. That's where foreplay comes in. Let your man cuddle you. Talk to you. Tell you how special you are. And explore your body with his eyes, and hands. And do your best all through to focus on him. When any image that is not him comes to mind, brush it aside. Remind yourself that this is your husband. Not that image of someone else in your mind.
Please reduce watching movies that promote sex on the screen. Be it lesbian sex, gay sex, or heterosexual sex. These things plant images in our minds. I recently stopped watching Grey's anatomy, and orange is the new black because of such. The obscenity is everywhere and it's our mind that becomes the dustbin for these.
Above all, know that it is only by God that you can scale over a mountain. This is a mountain. And it's only by Him. If you find yourself falling into this again, cry out to Him and tell Him that it's only by Him you can overcome this. Give me Grace Lord to overcome this.
May God be with you.
Wow. God bless you, I have learnt a lot form your comment.
DeleteGod bless you Anon for this advice. I hope the poster gets to read it & let it sink
DeleteThanks.
DeleteGoing through smthing like this. I realised that everybody has smthing they are tempted by. To each, his own. What I can do is try to overcome it whenever I am faced with that temptation. Smtimes u overcome, smtimes u fall into temptation. U dust urself up, ask God for forgiveness nd U continue to try to overcome. I dnt think d urge t sleep wt females will ever go away, but it can b such that whenever u have d urge, u push it away. My advice is keep trying. U are nt d only one going thru it. We all have our vices, doesn't mean lesbianism is a good way of life. Nt at all. Try, try, try. Keep trying. That's all.
ReplyDeletePoster place what do you do six figure salary is all I saw there.
Delete@Anon 17:21 'Please' don't bother asking. Your English (at least the written one I can see there) isn't 6-fig worthy. 😂
DeleteSharap dia Chiquito! person nor fit make typo again! Abeg poster what do you do jor!! Six figures oshey!
DeleteTell hubby to do the exact things those ladies do to you...Make God answer your prayer,.
ReplyDeleteOr hubby can dress like a lady while in motion, get him fake yansh and breast...lol
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@Elastic seriously? Fake yash and breast? Ah don die 😂😂😂
DeleteYea we all mostly have habits we struggle with. Sometimes you find yourself succeeding with some victorious leaps to overcoming them while at other times you find yourself retracting some steps backward. But you just have to keep pushing until victory is gained. I will like for to get and read this book If you've not done so already- The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg.
ReplyDeleteVery sensible comment.
DeleteIts funny that people think gay people won't make heaven.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing wrong with you poster IMO.
If you've tried to quit and you can't, you have fasted and prayed about it and the urge is still there, just live your life, and as long as you maintain a good relationship with God, you will make heaven.
Angel Micheal have spoken. Poster ngwanu.
DeleteBe deceiving yourself!
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???????? Hmmmmmm! Really? North???
DeleteBabe you're not God, don't say such things with such certainty. The person experiencing it says she does not feel okay in her conscience about it, you're here acting like you Know God the most.
DeleteThe poster asked for advice, I just gave her mine same way others did too.its up to the poster to pick whichever she wants.we all cannot think alike now, can we?
DeleteDon’t you realize that those who do wrong will not inherit the Kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, 10or are thieves, or greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people—none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God. 11Some of you were once like that. But you were cleansed; you were made holy; you were made right with God by calling on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God. 1 Cor. 6
DeleteBeen a while.so busy these days that I hardly come in here.
ReplyDeletePoster,you almost lost me when you talked about people not telling you about God and judging you,
No one is judging you but your conscience is,Unless you bind a strong man,you cannot go and take anything from his house even your freedom. Jesus still remains the solution to all your problem.
First,you have accepted that you have a problem,and seeking for way out.And unless God intervenes that this will lead to total destruction. You have fasted and prayed but nothing happened ? Are you spirit of God filled? Jesus is the stronger man to bind the strong man that kept you in bondage. You have to accept Jesus in totality. Repent genuinely of this sin and hate it and the power behind it.
Accept Jesus wholeheartedly,begin to read the bible everyday.desire the holyspirit and be filled with it and let the holyspirit help you. You have done enough now for yourself,let the holyspirit come in and help you do the rest.
In your weakness,God's strength is made manifest. Let the holyspirit help you. Cut off every friend you have that is into that act,avoid anything that lures you back to it.
Stop taking your life back from God after surrendering. Get committed in serving God and continuously walk with the holyspirit who will strengthen you. Bible said "flee fornication". I ask you today dear poster,appreciate God for making you understand that this act is evil,despise it,ask God for forgiveness,get born again,read your bible,pray in the spirit and above all flee all appearances of this evil.
For you still learning to put your thoughts and imagination in check to avoid evil,please listen to gospel music anytime you are alone.
I think it's of the mind. Luke Chidimma Grace said, maybe you tell your husband to touch you the way a female touches you. I don't even know what to say
ReplyDeleteGod bless you anon 15:50.
ReplyDeleteChief, the poster wants to quit you hear.
Poster, stop thinking about the act you have had back then, resist the feeling, work on yourself and pray too... You will be fyn..
ReplyDeleteThis stuff is scary. See what uncle and house maid has done to this lady.
ReplyDeletePls let's be watchful of our kids especially those extremely attached to a particular "uncle" and "aunty".
Many are initiated into homosexuality and perversion through childhood molestation.
Pray for your kids,be close to them so they are free to come to you at all times. Bath for them atleast once a day. Let that be a ritual so you notice changes in them.
Then watch them like a hawk always.
Madam I have no advice really. All I know is it's not everything you enjoy that is good for you.
I will like to eat choclate cake for breakfast,lunch and dinner. But I know it isn't good for my health.
Keep praying I don't even have advice. But don't let an evil urge wreck the home you spent so much building. Remember your poor kids and what breaking your home will do to them.
You are not alone ma.I am always attracted to women especially the busty ones. In other not to fall into temptation, I avoid getting close to such category of women. You will overcome because you're more than a conqueror.
ReplyDeleteFast at least twice weekly before your flesh overtakes you.
DeleteSee Matthew 6:1-16, Luke 18:12, Mathew 5:20,
Blow air into your vagina, how? Is that a form of clitoral stimulation too? Nwber heaed of it... Jesus pls fix this?
ReplyDelete... Jesus is my worth!
Poster if you can afford it, please speak to a good psychologist. I wish you well.
ReplyDeletePoster......I think its a thing of the mind. If you consciously remove your mind from involving in such, you will forget about it gradually. Any woman can like or admire a fellow woman without having sexual feeling towards them.....The Lord is your strength. Keep praying.....
ReplyDeletePoster, so many women out there are in your shoe and they don't bother looking for solution.. Is good you are looking for solution. I believe there is nothing prayer can not do, or better still visit Tb Joshua. Have see so many delivers, lesbian is a spirit which is hard to overcome. You cant do it all alone, that's the fact! God will see you through.
ReplyDeleteMine is masturbation I can rub my clitty from morning till morning!!! Pele
ReplyDeleteAwon Rubin who.....lol
DeleteYou too can stop masturbating if you are determined. I can masturbation for Africa but when i decided enough is enough i got determined to stop and i stopped. Except you determine in yourself you cannot stop it.
DeleteWaawuu! So you can 'masturbation' for africa? 😮
DeleteWow Poster I learnt not to judge Gays and Lesbians..I understand how you feel even me am as straight as a ruler but if i read or watch any lesbian act, i experience orgasm too..Me thinks sometimes that i swing both ways..I think You need to see a counsellor to help and one person I recommend to you is AUNTY LANDA..She is very professional..I understand your struggles very well and you need to decide in your heart of heart that you want to stop...so take these steps..1)Burn all your stash of pornographic materials(films, book, movies) 2)Engage your self with activities, spend more time with your family and hobbies cause when you are alone or lonely, those urge will come 3)disengage yourself from Strip bars or Gay Clubs 4)Forgive yourself most importantly ..I feel somehow you are stuck in the cycle of that 6 year old beautiful innocent girl whose innocence was taken away that has not grown but with time you will be that woman that God wants you to be..What I think is you are trying so hard to stop and it doesnt happen that way..Take it one step at a time..A renowned Pyschologist said ''to break a habit will take you at least 3 weeks''..Just take all your sweet time,even if na one year dear..You will be fine in Jesus Name..
ReplyDeleteThese things break heart so much,how do I let my kids out of my sight with these?so sorry for such childhood poster,you can do it if you set ur heart to it,be determined and like others have said,guide your husband to pleasing you,gradually u will loose interest in women.....!
ReplyDeleteHmmmmm, this poster just said exactly what i am battling with. When i was less than 10, a neighbor's daughter above my age will always touch me down there whenever we all sleep outside to take cool breeze. This girl was so perfect in doing this that she dies that to virtually every child in the compound. I started avoiding her, but the seed had been sown. I started having urges i could not understand. Its like a drug addict craving for cocaine. I sometimes will run to different parts of our house and put cloth in between my legs till i get an orgasm. I hated myself for this and so did not keep female friends bcos i cannot bring myself to doing that with any female. Life was HARD or let me say life has been hard. I prayed, fasted, joined religious group, love God , want to serve him more, but this weakness of mine restricts me. I have gone for deliverance severally all to no avail. Fasting nkor, hmmmmmm i got tired.
ReplyDeleteIf u have never had those urges, u cant condemn this poster. I've seen terrible days while fighting it off.
What has helped me so far?
1) I go back to God for daily grace
2) I dont get close to females no matter how hard u try
3) a righteous man falls 7 times but still rise again
4)anytime I'm having those urges( bible go don fly comot from my head), the holy spirits reminds me if certain words or verses and smtimes he gives me windows if opportunities to walk out.
Solution in your own case ma.
1) pls try discussing your weakness with your husband. 1 will chase a thousand 2 will chase 10000.
2) Avoid female friends and close ones at that.
3) Ask God for daily grace to overcome the flesh
4) whenever u fall ma, pls dont hate urself, ask him for grace to overcome the next temptation and look back, try to find the loophole s that made u fall back
5) forgive ur self. Your father has already forgiven u and has blotted out your iniquity
Am i there yet?
No i am not. But i have gotten better i barely masturbate any longer as much as i used to and i can say i have overcome lesbianism. Waiting to get married to the love of my life who has joined me in fighting this battle.
The Lord is your muscle 👏
DeleteFather show your daughter mercy,we pray for your grace upon her, save her set her free, hold her and deliver her. Amen
ReplyDeleteThe best is that you have accepted it's wrong so God will help you from there ,I wish I had your contact I would have sent you a number of a woman you can talk to
ReplyDeleteI am a sinner who has fallen short of God's glory. I strive to be holy and it is a running battle but I also know that having a right relationship with God includes keeping your vows and in this case, poster is cheating with women. Anyways the solution starts by recognizing the problem which you have. I know we have the ability to overcome whatever we want to overcome and I hope you overcome since this is what you want.
ReplyDeleteMine is bed wetting 23 yrs old still bed wetting av prayed av fasted still God pls help me🙏
ReplyDeleteMy dear poster be realistic ,what you need is therapy.don't be too hard on yourself. If GOd despiced you u won't have these good things of life.everyone has his own challenge mine is porn .don't kill yourself over it .God saw what they did to you as a kid ,he understands! Take it a day at a time.let everyday u don't succumb be a victory. Don't judge yourself too harshly cos God doesn't. E hugs
ReplyDeletePoster truth is "god" can't save you. If we're to go religious like people on this platform, ill say why did dis god allow you to be molested as a little kid under his nose? He allowed it, you've tried to overcome it. Why would you "die" to impress a god that let what happened happen to you at an innocent harmless age? Enough of the stupidity. Accept yourself. If you don't like your vice, manage yourself. Avoid bn alone with ladies and keep living your life. Or you simply succum to your wild side cause its in you and no amount of deliverance or god can save you. He fucking let it happen.
ReplyDeletemy dear, all you need is still God and nothing else. Tell your self the truth that you need to drop this habit. search the word of God that centers on liberation - ie freedom from bondage like isaiah 49 vs 24- 26. use the word of God to pray and strive to avoid imagining things that will take you back to what you dont want again. Aso you can google PRAISE FOWOWE- He is very good in that area. God Almighty will deliver you from the grip of that spirit in Jesus name. amen. # Estate owner
ReplyDeletemy dear, all you need is still God and nothing else. Tell your self the truth that you need to drop this habit. search the word of God that centers on liberation - ie freedom from bondage like isaiah 49 vs 24- 26. use the word of God to pray and strive to avoid imagining things that will take you back to what you dont want again. Aso you can google PRAISE FOWOWE- He is very good in that area. God Almighty will deliver you from the grip of that spirit in Jesus name. amen. # Estate owner
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