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VIRAL DNA BROUHAHA AWAKES AN OLD STORY

Hello BVs, my last written chronicle to Stella was 2015 and it was posted, i got advices of all sorts, including insults but i just filtered as i read thru, lemme attach it and refresh BVs memories and new BVs to understand the root of the problem, so i wrote;


"Hello Stella and SDK fans, with a heavy heart and fright i type this chronicle, i posted a bit about it some days back and BVs like Kiks said i should send it in as a proper narrative, i might feel better afterwards. Lies eh, the lies some ladies tell scares away Jesus from their life and neighbourhood, and they wonder why their prayers aren't answered.


I have soaked myself in lies, infact totally immersed from top to bottom, its been choking me for years, some how i found a way to suppress it but i feel it building up daily almost reaching the point of eruption, the feeling is when you try not to cough in public but after much trial it busts out... Apparently, some things cant stay buried, they germinate and come up as weeds, i have managed to keep mine buried for 8yrs and counting, deep down i know the truth will come out some day as German Juice said, but the truth will tear my family apart literally, but the question i am asking BVs is how do i break the news to my husband of 9yrs, see me even scared to say it out loud to BVs reading this, how much more my husband, and 3 lovely kids...


The nightmare is in the face of my 1st son, starring at me daily & calling me mummy, as he grows daily he's beginning to look and act like his biological father, that's the major reason why the nightmare is becoming so real, reminding me of a mistake i made out of pity.


My husband has cheated twice on me, of which he confessed one to me and i snooped and discovered the other, who am i not to 4give him when i know the huge lie am carrying around, i dont even have the right to vex, i just form vex sha, hes a good father and husband to the girls and 1st boy, i like him a lot for that, but my one true love i have ever known was my Ex, at a point it was obvious he wasn't ready to settle down and my husband was practically drowning me with calls and attention.


I admit my ex and i didn't use our heads to think but our genitals, when he whispered to me "lets make our last night a night to remember" indeed it WAS night to remember but sadly its just me having a constant reminder in the face of our son, i wasn't even sure who the biological father was, but i prayed and did everything possible to believe the pregnancy belonged to my husband, he was so excited and the wedding came so fast.


They say when you tell a lie for so long, you start believing its true, i experienced it for awhile till my kids school conducted a mandatory genotype and blood group of all their pupils, it was done that Ebola outbreak period, that's when my nightmare became a reality, my girls are AA, same as me and DH, but our 1st son came out AS, in my 32yrs on this earth eh, i don't think i have ever discarded a paper so well, i burnt it to ashes, leaving no shred of evidence, i no fit shout.


I know most of you would suggest i take that secret to my grave, i have also tried doing that, trust me... but each time i go to church its kinda like the pastor is directly talking to me, each time my gals cough or sneeze i fear it'd land them in the hospital and a blood sample would be required, each time i pray i wonder how it'd be answered when i am living a lie, each missed call i see from my Ex once in a blue moon i fear he has figured things out and needs to see his son,and the constant nightmares no be here i tell you...etc.


We're not all wired the same you know, what works for A might not work for B, so i have decided to drop this expired load i have been carrying around and face the consequences, God help me. i wish i could come back and tell you'all how it all went and if I'd be writing the feedback from my husbands house or God knows where."


OK! That was 2015, and i didn't write a feedback to update you all.

Fast forward to June 2017, and I'm writing this from my matrimonial home with chilled coke by my side and our family portrait with all smiles. i never wanted to breathe life into that topic anymore let alone put it down in words for fear of leakage or decoding, but I'm good in covering my tracks, trust me, I've done a damn good job over the years, So this recent viral DNA topic forced me out of my shell and i had to write down my quandary, i just might be helping or giving an insight to someone reading this. 

The guilt and fear that was consuming me each day has finally been put to coma by the help of my husband himself, i hope it dies a natural death from there, yes his words were enough to fight off the invisible hands choking me. i took the advice from a particular BV Atheists and it helped greatly, he suggested i find a movie with a similar story line to mine, not necessarily with the wife keeping a secret though, he listed "switched at birth" "Like father like son" "The fosters".. i should download it & try sitting down to watch with my husband on our free day, if we do such atimes and then ask questions psychological questions and see his reaction and responds, then i can key into my personal plight. 

So i finally downloaded the movie, but it took almost 2 months for us to watch it together, i couldn't just spring up that particular movie and have a zillion questions, that would have been a tad bit suspicious, so i took my time to make sure we watch other rubbish 1st, so while the movie went on, this kid was in search of his biological father, after going through the yellow pages he found an address, of course the man had no idea he had a son outside his loving family, so i threw my question "Honey, do u think the wife will divorce the man if truly he knew about his son out there and kept it a secret, i mean how could he do that?" lol..... i eagerly waited for his response, so he said "I don't think he was aware"..... that wasn't the answer i needed, so i pressed on and strategized saying.... my colleagues cousin kept such a secret from her DH for yrs and she felt so guilty and opened up, he divorced her immediately and did a DNA for the rest kids.... that got his attention and he yelled "Chai"... *my heart skipped*... 

he added, she has destroyed 3lives with her selfishness, she should have dealt with her guilt a different way, hmm.... na their i pick brain oh, i had to utter something, so i said "some women have guts sha"...

i knew it was a secret i should take to my grave, so with each passing day my 1st son is starting to act like my husband, as he brings him up like his son which he truly is *winks*.... I'm starting to see them in same light, and I've totally cut off my ex and changed my number long ago, #closedchapter #Bookburnt.