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LOVE AFTER MARRIAGE?

Hi.
Good day.
Please i need advice from people with high IQ.

I come from a very respectful and successful family. Where we reside, everybody know about us. My dad especially is strict and don't ever let go of things. He kinda bear grudges, and reminds you of your sins even the ones you made as a child. My parent's marriage is the not the best, or should i say not the kind of fun marriage that other people experience. 

My dad is not romantic with my mom, he doesnt hide it. He provides all our needs and more. But, there is no spark in their marriage. I have seen a lot of uncles and aunts married and acting like lovers or fresh graduates in love.

 I have always wanted my mom to know what that means because she sometimes envy those people. And my dad is someone you cannot communicate with freely and comfortable, but he is the most generous person i know especially to the less privileged. Now, why am i saying this? Am sorry that my Chronicle is lengthy.

 I dated a guy in my year 1, that was in 2010, we broke up in 2011, and he was my first relationship and i was still a primary virgin before and after the relationship. We continued as friends though i didnt have any more feelings for him. I have dated other guys and he has dated other girls and we have still friends. 

Its been 5years. Early this year, he said he wants us to try again and work things because he wants to settle down with me. He is very successful and is really in love with me. Me on the other hand, i don't know how i feel about him.

 I like to talk to him because he listens, i have never asked him for a dime, and am not interested in his money. With the kind of world we live in, he is someone that will love, protect and always be there for me. The one problem i have with him is, i don't know if I love him, am scared of agreeing to marry him and tomorrow, I find out that I have never really loved him. 

My sister and friends keeps saying with time i will learn to love him. He sometimes mix his spoken English, like using a past tense for present tense , aside from that everything about him is good. Am not a VIRGIN now,and he knows. I have been in love and i have been loved, so i understand the feeling. I have been celibate for a while now because i want to understand him more and i want to give him a try, i have even tried sending him away but he keeps coming back. I, my sister and my mom are putting it into serious prayers for him to be the right choices. 

Is it possible that i will learn to love him later? I don't want to make mistakes. I want to live a fun filled married life even better than that of my parents because am a lively person and i am a romantic person. 

N:B. Instead of curses, why not just give some good advices. My problem might be small, but i see SDK as a big family, and can easily relate, lets stop pointing fingers and help one another. In high anticipation for your helpful advices.
Thanks Stella.