Be Thankful Today.

Some 10 years ago, I didn't want the 'Hings' singlet dad always bought me. I wanted BYC or any other the neck line didn't drool past your chest zone down to the stomach after being washed. I wasn't happy not getting BYC. When I finally got the BYC singlets, I basked in euphoria of the moment. It felt like the best thing in the world had happened to me - just me.

DAVID BALLER

 I would guard my BYC and put them to sleep like they were some newborns. Occasionally, I washed them when they weren't even dirty. 3 weeks into that, I got accustomed to the singlets and times and time I would find them laying in reckless abandon and wouldn't care so much about them. I got used to them.

Some 4 years ago, I was 17 and everyone else had a phone. I wanted a phone as well albeit not knowing what particularly I was gonna benefit from it. I couldn't sleep. I was sad and almost occasionally slid into depression. Nobody was gonna get me one and I, dogged and stubborn as can be, did a lot of stressful jobs in a bid to get one. I was gonna get a phone, lest sadness and depression kill me. On the eve to my being a phone owner, the night was long; very long actually. I would wake by 1 and then 2:20 and then again 3:10 hoping the day had broken but, no, this night was very long. It felt like the heavens were playing games, however, I knew it wasn't going to deter me.

I got my phone. A Nokia Torchlight phone. Obasanjo wasn't any tad bit richer than myself at those moments when I first beheld my phone and held its chiseled curves in my hands, closing my eyes to savor the moment. 1 month down, I got used to my phone. I wasn't any happier than I could be anymore. The euphoria was gone and I was returned to equilibrium; the point where I had started. I didn't care about the phone no more, I would forget it in the toilet, friend's house, and once I was carefree enough it fell into the water. I was used to it.

You cannot be happier than you could possibly be or possibly permit yourself to be. I had cravings and yearnings. It felt the world would shred in bits if I didn't get them, I was sad because of them. I was depressed because I wanted them as much as each breath I took in. I got them. I basked in euphoria. I was living in the moment. I felt a kind of blue energy rush through me in those moments. Time came and overtook events and I got used to the things I was sad and depressed about not having. I wasn't any happier than I was without them. I was back to base. And they made no significant difference anymore. There were greater cravings.

So you have needs and wants. And your world feels like its caving in on you because you don't have them. You feel worthless, incapable and unfortunate without them. Can you pause? Can you pause to recall things you wanted this bad previously? Where are they now? Do they contribute a unit to your happiness right now? You rarely even notice them, isn't it? That's how these you are feeling dead about not having will be three months after you get them.

 So why worry? 

Why get sad and all depressed about things you would get used to anyway? Why give arrangement of circumstances the monopoly of determining your mood? You can't be possibly happier than you can be. A billion wouldn't give you that neither a trillion. There's more to happiness than money and material things. You can be happy on little. Its about your mindset and how you structure it.

You are not where you are but good thing is you are not where you used to be and the hope of tomorrow even makes it more amazing to be where you've come so far.

Thing is everyone has something to be thankful for; even the dying. The opportunity to have lived, loved and be loved, laughed and cried, hugged and fought; is a beautiful thing. A thing to be thankful for. You can chose to look back, be thankful, grateful and hopeful or you could chose to look forward at the unachieved, whine and cry on your pillow. Truth is, the mindset of the later would hit desired goals at a much slower pace than the thankful heart.

Its independence day, I hope you get yourself independent from arrangement of circumstances determining your mood. You are beautiful, strong and laced with potentials known and unknown, you can make it. Yes you can. Happy independence day.

BY BLOG VISITOR DAVID BALLER

Beautiful piece!....thank you David Baller,thank you!