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Hello Stella and SDK fans, with a heavy heart and fright i type this chronicle, i posted a bit about it some days back and BVs like Kiks said i should send it in as a proper narrative, i might feel better afterwards. Lies eh, the lies some ladies tell scares away Jesus from their life and neighbourhood, and they wonder why their prayers arent answered.

 I have soaked myself in lies, infact totally immersed from top to bottom, its been choking me for years, some how i found a way to suppress it but i feel it building up daily almost reaching the point of eruption, the feeling is when you try not to cough in public but after much trial it busts out... Apparently, some things cant stay buried, they germinate and come up as weeds, i have managed to keep mine buried for 8yrs and counting, deep down i know the truth will come out some day as German Juice said, but the truth will tear my family apart literally, but the question i am asking BVs is how do i break the news to my husband of 9yrs, see me even scared to say it out loud to BVs reading this, how much more my husband, and 3 lovely kids... 

The nightmare is in the face of my 1st son, starring at me daily and calling me mummy, as he grows daily he's beginning to look and act like his biological father, thats the major reason why the nightmare is becoming so real, reminding me of a mistake i made out of pity.

My husband has cheated twice on me, of which he confessed one to me and i snooped and discovered the other, who am i not to 4give him when i know the huge lie am carrying around, i dont even have the right to vex, i just form vex sha, hes a good father and husband to the girls and 1st boy, i like him a lot for that, but my one true love i have ever known was my Ex, at a point it was obvious he wasnt ready to settle down and my husband was practically drowning me with calls and attention.

 I admit my ex and i didnt use our heads to think but our genitals, when he whispered to me "lets make our last night a night to remember" indeed it WAS night to remember but sadly its just me having a constant reminder in the face of our son, i wasnt even sure who the biological father was, but i prayed and did everything possible to believe the pregnancy belonged to my husband, he was so excited and the wedding came so fast.

They say when you tell a lie for so long, you start believing its true, i experienced it for awhile till my kids school conducted a mandatory genotype and bloodgroup of all their pupils, it was done that Ebola outbreak period, thats when my nightmare became a reality, my girls are AA, same as me and DH, but our 1st son came out AS, in my 32yrs on this earth eh, i dont think i have ever discarded a paper so well, i burnt it to ashes, leaving no shred of evidence, i no fit shout. 

I know most of you would suggest i take that secret to my grave, i have also tried doing that, trust me... but each time i go to church its kinda like the pastor is directly talking to me, each time my gals cough or sneeze i fear it'd land them in the hospital and a blood sample would be required, each time i pray i wonder how it'd be answered when i am living a lie, each missed call i see from my Ex once in a blue moon i fear he has figured things out and needs to see his son,and the constant nightmares no be here i tell you...etc.  

We're not all wired the same you know, what works for A might not work for B, so i have decided to drop this expired load i have been carrying around and face the consequences, God help me. i wish i could come back and tell you'all how it all went and if i'd be writing the feedback from my husbands house or God knows where.

If telling the truth will set you free from this bondage you just described,then do it,I wish you all the best.please let us know how it goes.