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STAND ALONE NARRATIVE

CANDID ADVICE AND ENCOURAGEMENT NEEDED

Hi Stella, kudos for allowing people to air their pains through your blog

I am a very private and shy person and I am just reaching out hoping

my identity will be kept private.

I am a lady of 27 years in a relationship with a guy of 32 years and

the relationship is 9 years old already.

We were both each other's first and have been committed to each other

since then with no cheating problem from both parties.

We tried to stay pure for a very long time and just started having sex

of recently even though I avoid this as much as possible.

We don't stay in the same area due to the location of my school and it

had really helped us in keeping our hands off each other.

The reason for this epistle is that I have some issues I want answers

on and am a very private person who can't start saying this to friends

for the fear of hearing the issues outside and I have gone to my

school counselling unit several times but they look hostile so am

using this anonymous way to air my pain.

The issue is I don't understand my self and it is beginning to take a

toll on my relationship. I love my bf senseless and am sure he feels

the same way too.

I am beginning to feel lonely and whenever I tell my bf, he will want to

come over and as much as we try to avoid the sex ish, it stills happen

and I will begin to feel bad and I will just close up on him and start

telling him to go back even before Sunday, he feels i don't love him

again and I have tried explaining to him over and again that I can't

continue to have pre marital sex as getting pregnant outside of

wedlock is going to kill me and I can't even consider an abortion

 (please am Not trying to sound self righteous or holy, it's just what I have

believed in since childhood, I still cry whenever I remember I lost

my virginity outside wedlock).

We did our introduction last month and from what I deduced we cannot

get married anytime soon enough cuz one his salary is so poor and

meagre, he does 2 jobs, he doesn't rest at all and am also not lazy, I

run a business on campus, make up,catering bead making ushering, and the likes to pay for school fees,house rent and feeding and to help my younger ones.

The question is should I just scrap this love thing and just settle

down with somebody who is ready as I don't want like this state of

loneliness, and i am always making myself busy till am exhausted, it

just crops on me suddenly in the middle of the night and I start

getting emotional.

Please forgive the long epistle as I can't believe i am doing this, my

thoughts are not coordinated, spur of the moment decision. I pray I

don't regret it.

Ps : I really love him but that pressure is beginning to mount

Forgive errors, my phone Is a smart phone that is not smart at all

The most important thing is to Marry someone who loves you as much as you love them...Whose love tempo matches yours.

If he is not ready to settle down cos of finances and you find someone who does- marry the person and dont look back!

If you can wait then please do but from your Narrative,it sounds like when one says ''if wishes were horses....''

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