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Things fall apart and the centre cannot hold.....
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THINGS FALL APART ........

 My story is long but I’ll try and cut it short. I was born into a family of four and my parents are divorced. They divorced when we were still little and we stayed with our mom until we got into secondary school, we then move in with our dad and stepmom.  It was not easy living with our dad and his wife but God saw us through. We are all graduates and living our various lives.

 I grew up in a Christian home, thanks to our maternal grand mom. I got born again at age 13 and had my first crush at 18. I got married to my hubby at age 24 as a virgin. I am a hopeless romantic, so I had this dream of getting married to a man that will love and adore me for the rest of our lives. I had a boyfriend while at the university that loved me and I was looking forward to marrying him after graduation. 

He had no job then but I didn’t bother because my parents catered for me and I had a scholarship then. So I help him out financially now and then, which I gladly did. We didn’t get married because he found someone else and I was heartbroken. I dated my ex for 4 years and we both agreed no sex till marriage and he said ok. I met my hubby later and we were married in 8 months. He was not rich but comfortable. 

I helped out financially any which way I could in my little capacity. Before I married my hubby, I prayed and fasted and I had peace in my heart to marry him. A month to my wedding, my ex came back begging and crying to have me back, that it was the fault of his brothers and mom. But it was too late. I married my hubby and settled in for happy ever after. 2 years into the marriage, I realized my hubby wasn’t romantic, flowers and all, but I was fine with it. I started realizing he was changing. 

Did I mention that he was born again then, almost a pastor. My hubby started making money and started keeping late nights. His excuses were meetings, work, work. I started snooping. To cut the story short, I saw some texts from girls and I asked , he said they were just friends.  years later I was convinced he was seeing someone. I snooped again and my dear stella, I almost died. I saw texts, emails and pictures of girls. I cried for days and months.

 I confronted my hubby and he just pushed me away and told me to do my worse. Stella my sister, I won’t wish this experience I had on my worst enemy. I lost interest in life, my beautiful 4 kids and I contemplated suicide. I begged, I cried, I fasted, I prayed, I fought. I did everything possible to save my marriage but to go to the native doctor. I questioned God, why me. I was a committed Christian, a caring wife, a virgin when i married.  What sin have I committed to deserve this? 

I was ready to satisfy my hubby any way he wanted Sexually, I will always ask for directions and ready to learn to please him since I knew little or nothing about sex. I loved him to a fault, was ready to die for him. But he threw all that to the dogs. I contemplated suicide, the day I was ready to take my life, the picture of my kids flashed in front of me and I heard a voice say,” how will your kids cope without you”. That stopped me. I stopped talking to my hubby but he didn’t care, was sleeping in hotels around town. 

I forgave him without him asking for forgiveness. He pretended to stop but continued again. This lasted for 2 years. I always begged my hubby to have sex with me. Stella, I’m a beautiful lady after 4 kids and men still ask me out. For the past 10 and half years, I have never left the house without my wedding rings. I sleep with it, wash with it, everything. I have been married for almost 11 years now, I never cheated ,not thought of cheating on my hubby. I kept hoping he will change and we will be happy again but instead it got worse. 

 I have not been happy for a whole month stretch. I fell into depression for years. Our sex life was reduced to once or twice a month, there was one time we didn’t have sex for 7 months stretched, I had to beg for sex. My hubby stopped having sex with me for close to 2 years now . I was dying gradually until 1 beautiful day last year, I reconnected with my first crush. I opened up to him and we got talking. Stella, I fell in love again. This is not my ex o. one thing led to another and we met. My hubby was out of town and I also was out of town for training from my office. We met and started a relationship.

Well I broke up with him because he is married and I don’t want to break another woman’s home.  He refused but I stood my ground that it was over. But I was glad we met stella, I felt beautiful again, I felt desirable again, stella I got my groove back.  You know, when I use to pray to God before, I was  always on the defensive, feeling holy and righteous  without sin. But now I pray with humility . I now shop for clothes, make my hair and hang out with my friends. I'm alive again. Now I don’t care what my hubby does, how many girls he sleeps with, I just don’t care. I’m happy again. I’m ready to date now. 

Please stella, I want to be friends with any BV who is a widower or divorced with kids of his own, don’t want a married man o, don’t want anyone to go through what I went through. ‘Im in my 30’s so would prefer any sincere guy in his 30’s or 40’s. I won’t stand lies and cheating please, it’s going to me and only me. I can’t share my man with any other woman. 

I’m comfortable and won’t depend on any man for financial assistance and vice verse. This is my email. Thank you stella. Love you all. Please feel free to advice me, contact me and curse me out. I actually enjoy the curses, some are so hilarious, I laugh all day. God bless you stella dear.

Babe you didnt include the email you said you attached so i dont know if its the same one you sent this post with.......

You also did not indicate if you are still married or not.

If your husband was as bad as you explained up there,why did you stay back for so long?

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