Diary Of A Raped Angry Woman ......It Is Finished.

Ms XYZ started off telling her story but from most comments here,she felt people judged her and some even said she was writing a novel.....''no one understand how rapes feels unless they are wearing the shoes''.

She came out of a closet to tell her story but has decided to end it because she got discouraged by the comments and doubt and people judging her and asking why she went back to her rapists.

Let me assure you that this story was not made up,i know Ms XYZ and after a long talk with her i saw the reason why she wanted to close it.

She was going to reveal her identity at the end of her rape story and i am sure people would have fainted knowing who she is but......

She has found some sort of healing though and i pray God perfects the good work.


She closes her story with....

''I realise some people may read my story and doubt, question and ponder on the genuineness of  it. Sometimes I think back and remember my past and even I am amazed by some of it.

 I am amazed that I was able to resist suicide! But my question to you is what do I stand to gain by making up a story? People ask why she went back to the specialist. Why didn’t she scream? Some even say if it was them this will never happen?

 I say a big Amen to that because I do not wish my life experience on even my worst enemy, However until you have walked in my shoes you can never know where it hurts, until you find yourself in the same situation I was you cannot say with 100% certainty that you know what you would have done if it was you.

I must say I am glad that many ladies have also shared their story here as a result of reading mine, except you have walked in my shoes you cannot understand fully……So I am happy more girls are opening up and hopefully together we can put an end to child abuse, sexual abuse and rape.

I do not want to bore you with the details of my life, however after being raped a second time in University and narrowly escaping the same from an extended family member, a different version of me was born, an angry one, resentful with a deep hatred for men.

 This took me down a path that today when I look back I wish I hadn’t because I missed out on love because all I focused on was the pain men had caused me. 

It took me a few years to realise I cannot punish every man I meet for the sins of a few in the past, my advice to rape victims is simple….

Never bottle it up, discuss the event with at least one person or the silence will eat you up and one day you wake up an angry bitter woman.

Do not make the new man that comes into your life a surrogate for the ones that tried to ruin it

You have to love yourself first before you can accept love from someone else

Do not feel ashamed because you were raped, I spent many years of my life ashamed, it affected my self-esteem, my confidence and pride as a woman

And Above all always pray because God is the ultimate healer at the end of the day……..he forgives our sins and makes us whole again. God does not care about your past he cares about what you plan to do with your future 

These are my life lessons, these are what I have realised today, I look back on my story and I see the positives in all the negatives it has made me a stronger, determined and focused person.

I have my life back, my career, my education and above all God in my life, I am still healing the fact is to forgive is easy to forget is almost impossible because I do not have amnesia. 

They say time heals all wounds but the scars are forever…… 

This story was not shared to generate pity from anyone but to inspire ladies out there to speak out and together we can fight against rape.

 it happened years ago to me and it took me years to be able to open up about it, it shouldn’t have taken me so long but we live in a society where you are judged before your story is even told.

God bless you all and thank you for taking time out to read my story''.

You can read her story here
DIARY OF A RAPED ANGRY WOMAN - THE RAPE
DIARY OF A RAPED ANGRY WOMAN - WHO IS TO BLAME?
DIARY OF A RAPED ANGRY WOMAN- WHOSE BABY AM I CARRYING?