I Am At My Wits End...Blog visitors Please Advise Me!

Dear Stella,
 I have a very long story to tell and don't know if u will be patient enough to go through it and post it.I am a young woman of 31yrs, married for 7yrs with 3 children.

I met my husband in June 1999 when I just finished secondary school. He was doing NYSC, one thing led to another and we started dating. He was my first lover and he helped me gain admission into the university(My parents sponsored my education throughout). When I entered the university in 2000 I left him and started dating someone else because I noticed that he was very jealous and controlling and l didn't need it then.

During the year I dated someone else he was always on the sidelines begging me and asking everyone around me to persuade me to take him back. After a year I broke up with my boyfriend and continued with him. During this time I fell madly in love with him, his jealousy wasn't so bad but once in a while it reared it's ugly head. We always tackled our problems and somehow remained together for another 5 years . 

He always said he was going to marry me and we would laugh over it. However in 2005 I got pregnant , he said that he was with me no matter my decision. I kept it and we decided to get married at once. However during the marriage introduction my father was skeptical and refused to give me out to him. I insisted and almost committed suicide, so my father had to agree and we got married in 2006. I also had my baby that year. During the time of my child birth we had an incident which has marred our relationship till date.

I met a friend of my elder sister (a doctor) in the hospital before I had my baby and after I had her he decided to visit me at home. On the fateful day my husband opened the door and invited him in. He then came to call me that I had a visitor. He however told me to go to the sitting room and tell him to leave. I refused asking him why he opened the door in the first place? I took the baby and went to see the visitor who stayed for about 30 mins. During this time my husband had gotten so angry that he starting harassing me after he left asking for the doctor's phone number so he could call and warn him never to call me or come to the house again. 

I refused to give him, this caused a lot of problems and our wedding certificate was almost torn apart in the cause of the quarrel and fight that ensued.I tried to tell him that there was nothing between me and this doctor and that he was my sister's friend. I even involved my parents and siblings and he still insisted. He somehow got hold of the doctor's number and his wife's number also and started calling them. 

The doctor reported to my people asking them to talk with him and tell him to stop harassing himself and his wife. Before long my husband told me the doctor said he had slept with me and that the doctor was telling everyone who cared to listen ( I have never heard it anywhere else so I don't know what to believe). 

After this incident my husband started insulting me calling me different names and slapping me whenever we had a quarrel. In 2009 I had enough I packed my bag and went back to my parents, I was there for about 2 months before he came asking me to return home. My parents intervened and I went back but since then there hasn't really been any improvement just that he doesn't hit me anymore. He still insults me at the slightest provocation calling me a prostitute and that I chase men. 

The funniest part is that he tells me everyday that he loves me, that he can't live without me and that he can kill for me. That he is simply jealous and he doesn't want any other guy to talk to me, greet me, or even look at me. Sometimes I wish that I am actually having an affair just to be guilty of the accusations but my mind doesn't accept it and I really am not attracted to guys anymore, I see them as wicked, selfish, self centered and liars the whole lot of them. I am at my wits end.

 Please help me ask your blog visitors to advice me on what to do.
Thank you in advance and continue in your good work, God will bless you. (