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JESUS PLEASE FIX THIS

Everything typed in here is no lies,fictions or imagination but my
true life story even though some details aren't mentioned. Please all,sorry for my long epistle and mistakes.

 I happen to be the first child of my parent. I was molested as a kid
 at the age of three by a far relation and this prompted me having sex
 especially lesbianism till I was 12 but this didn't stop the gift of
 having dreams which come to pass afterwards. If I'm gonna loose
 anything being it my properties,friends,family etc I'd sure dream
 about it and only prayers can avert it.

 I was in Jss when strange things began happening to me. I would find
 myself in another room having sex spiritually with animals mostly goat
 and sometimes with my father or other known/unknown faces. There were
 other times I found myself in witches convent naked with a bible
 firing them with holyghost. How I got there remained unknown to me. I
 never took this issue serious until I grew other. I was born beautiful
 that I started having marriage proposals while I was in secondary
 school but never had any relationship till I finally got admitted into
 Uni after several years of trying. 

There were times I would meet up
 with the cut off marks and other criteria but would never be picked.
What about Waec? Just a subject which was no later useful made me
 re-wrote.

 Men would fight and beat themselves to get my attention. It got to an
 extent that even peacemakers fought themselves also. Even cultists
 were threatening and monitoring my movement. Everyone wanted me
 including their friends. But once I agree to date whosoever I
 wish,they just leave for no reason.

 The only long lasted relationship I have ever had was 7months to the man I lost my virginity to at the age of 21. They would beg,cry,promise for a relationship(even agreed to no sex) but would leave for no reason after two months. It has now gotten to a point where they don't even come again and the ones who I was almost considering would just picking up calls only to insult me.
 I have had lots of weird dreams. My lights either go off itself and
 then three spirits on black appearing to me or seeing an huge image on
 my wall with a very big head but no eyes trying to kill me until I
 mutter Jesus. I sleep no single day without eating/sex in the dream.

 I see myself writing exams unfinished,bedwet at times and being
 pursued in the dream. I also get spinning 360 on the bed and waking up
 to strange marks on my body after almost getting killed from
 strangles. I have seen deaths both spiritually and physically.
 I have been with men that loved me endlessly all about marriage talks
 but would just dump me with enough beatings with cuts from cutlass as
 reward.

 I have always been of good attitude portraying a wife materia
 but all of a sudden,hatred comes into them. People just hate me for no
 reason. I can give my last to someone I'm meeting for the first time,I
 could go hungry for anyone but I end up being an enemy. I have been
 stabbed severally by people I trusted.

 Failure,disappointment,rejection,stagnation has been my other name. I
 have had court case for a crime I never knew. I was beaten terribly
 and made to suffer until the court finally granted me free after
 several prayers.

 I don't even know where my education stands right now
 after several years in Uni. I would read hard only to fail or havemissing scripts. I managed to pass my carryovers only for another

 pending issue to arise coupled with Asuu strike. I'm always broke with
 no help from anybody but you will never know as I only shed everyday
 tears just in my room. My room is my all cos I've got no friend.
 There's no deliverance I haven't done mfm,cac,winners,tbj etc with
 our fellow bv's bishop all to no avail.

 I have been told severally
 that I carry a very big glory on me,some say crown and as a matter of

fact,there were times unfamiliar people will just walk up to me and
 say I've got a big glory but I should be careful of friends.
 They say the root of a problem is the solution but I'm being confused
 about which is mine. Could it be as a result of my lesbianism since
 some prophets made mention of being careful of friends saying I had
 intercourse with them. This was a long time ago and I already seek for
 forgiveness (2) could it be as a result of a curse?

 My dad younger sister died at a young age from a spiritual attack after a man she jilted bodly said it to her face he would kill her. She cheated on the
 man,duped and deny him of love but later went ahead to marry someone
 else. She was hit by an incurable sickness,died and her husband
 followed. The jilted man denied placing a curse on her;the family
 didn't believe him and couldn't do anything since there was no
evidence. I wasn't born then but my parent told me separately. (3)
 could it be that my paternity grandma is responsible?

 According to my mum, my granny's father was a core herbalist. My granny acts so suspicious. She's always scared of death but never felt really
 concerned when she looses any of her blood. She has children for
 different men. If any of her son dies,the wife must follow strangely.
 She most times says my dad enemy(God forbid my dad) is dead. My mom
 once traveled to the village,had a talk with her only for my granny to
 keep mentioning my dad's name in place of her last son that died while
 my mom keep rejecting it in her mind. The last prophet I visited told
 me that there's a shine in my father's house and once anyone in my
family's name carries a glory, your life would be frustrated. They
don't want you to amount to anything good and hence oppresses your
 destiny.

 He mentioned that I have a glorious crown on my head. That I
was born to be great but forces from my father's house are against me.
 My dad has refused accepting any shrine belief. He says they never had
 such but my mom on the other hand once told me my granny's dad was a
 core herbalist and she practiced it. My dad has been attacked several
 times spiritually. He would have been dead if not of prayers from men
 of God who visited his village with his elder brother for prayers. I
 love my dad so much,he means everything to me. He's one brilliant and
 intelligent being. He lost his dad at the age of 8(his mother has
 other kids from other men) leaving him to hustle and survive on his
 own self.

 He managed to finish his education with a first class and
phd included;working in a reputable company but nothing to show for
 it. My family remains stagnant. We are just managing but you won't
 know. Nothing works fine at all. We aren't leaving up to expectations.
 I have done series of deliverance,prayed,cried,seek for forgiveness
 all to no avail. I have been of suicide thoughts this days.

 I'm just so lonely,no one knows what I'm going through not even my neighbours.They even collect from me thinking I have enough.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born. I can't recollect what it is to be
 loved. My life is so boring. What have I done to deserve this pain?
When will God wipe my tears and make me fulfill destiny? Who is
 against my glory? My past,Aunt's ex or grandma?

 I have been contemplating on suicide cos nothing is moving. They give
 the right prophecy but the deliverances,prayers and fasting for so
many years have never changed anything.
 I need help seriously. I want to know what exactly those who used to
 be in my shoe did. Am I to appease any gods or what? I'm too over
 confused.
 Please post Stella. Thanks and remain blessed